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Ont i huvudet och snorig och h\u00e4ngig. F\u00f6rkylning eller d\u00f6den. F\u00f6rhoppningsvis det f\u00f6rsta alternativet. Ett billigt pris att betala om man slipper den magsjuka som grasserar i byn. Ja, tillika f\u00f6r att slippa d\u00f6den. Har inte tr\u00f6ttnat \u00e4nnu. \u00d6nskar mer tid. Om det nu inte \u00e4r f\u00f6r mycket beg\u00e4rt. F\u00f6r d\u00e5 viker jag mig. L\u00e4mnar plats f\u00f6r andra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Degens blir allts\u00e5”lite av en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r skr\u00e4pdag som livet bjuder p\u00e5 ibland. “Skr\u00e4p”-delen passar bra eftersom jag st\u00e4dar idag. Men passar mindre f\u00f6r resten av mitt g\u00f6rande. Jag blir irriterad. Lite stingslig. Sur, rent utav. V\u00e4rlden \u00e4r glad att jag sitter h\u00e4r sj\u00e4lv och ensam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men livet bjuder p\u00e5 s\u00e5dana d\u00e4r dagar ocks\u00e5. Man f\u00e5r \u00e4ta upp det. Sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n s\u00e5 \u00e4r det inte. Japp. Lugna ned sig. Luta sig tillbaks och vackert inse att varje dag kan inte resultera i ett framsteg. Vissa dager \u00e4r helt enkelt inte ens f\u00e4rdstr\u00e4ckor. De \u00e4r hinder. Stillast\u00e5ende eller tillbakag\u00e5ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 jag t\u00e4nder mitt ljus. \u00c4ter en apelsin och s\u00e4tter mig h\u00e4r och ser livet \u00e5ka f\u00f6rbi. Det \u00e4r en hemsk k\u00e4nsla. Som det varit alldeles f\u00f6r mycket av under det h\u00e4r \u00e5ret. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ont i huvudet och snorig och h\u00e4ngig. F\u00f6rkylning eller d\u00f6den. F\u00f6rhoppningsvis det f\u00f6rsta alternativet. Ett billigt pris att betala om man slipper den magsjuka som grasserar i byn. Ja, tillika f\u00f6r att slippa d\u00f6den. Har inte tr\u00f6ttnat \u00e4nnu. \u00d6nskar mer tid. Om det nu inte \u00e4r f\u00f6r mycket beg\u00e4rt. F\u00f6r d\u00e5 viker jag mig. 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