{"id":33287,"date":"2019-10-14T10:52:30","date_gmt":"2019-10-14T09:52:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33287"},"modified":"2019-10-14T10:52:30","modified_gmt":"2019-10-14T09:52:30","slug":"oljuset-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33287","title":{"rendered":"oljuset"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r halvnaken i f\u00f6nstret och spannar efter tomtar i oljuset d\u00e4r genom ett f\u00f6nster inatt runt halv tre. Japp, skall man \u00e4nd\u00e5 upp och l\u00e4tta sig kan man lika g\u00e4rna passa p\u00e5 att spana ut mot skogen. Det \u00e4r d\u00e4r dom finns. K’s farmor s\u00e5g dem i bl\u00e5b\u00e4rsriset, ofta, s\u00e5 varf\u00f6r skall d\u00e5 inte jag ocks\u00e5 kunna f\u00e5 se en eller tv\u00e5 eller ett helt g\u00e4ng p\u00e5 v\u00e4g till n\u00e5gon fest. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r spanar jag. \u00c4nnu s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge har de undg\u00e5tt mig dock. Men jag \u00e4r s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 att en dag, ja d\u00e5 st\u00e5r det en liten tomte d\u00e4r ute. Sen vet jag \u00e4ntligen med s\u00e4kerhet om tomtarnas luva \u00e4r r\u00f6d eller gr\u00e5. En fr\u00e5ga jag grubblat l\u00e4nge p\u00e5. En av de stora fr\u00e5gorna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det m\u00e5ste s\u00e5klart vara fullm\u00e5ne eller eller \u00e5tminstone n\u00e4stan. Oljus. Annars ser man inget. Men i oljuset under denna natt, det som \u00e4nnu inte f\u00e5tt vinterns bl\u00e5aktiga ton, det d\u00e4r som skapar en magiskt glittrande v\u00e4rld i vinterriket, syns allts\u00e5 inga tomtar. Det \u00e4r bara jag och natten som finns d\u00e4r. Till och med fladderm\u00f6ssen har l\u00e4mnat arenan och de d\u00e4r sista nattfj\u00e4rilarna som klistrar sig p\u00e5 f\u00f6nstren under den f\u00f6rsta frosten \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 borta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast man syns s\u00e5klart. Kanske av ett lodjur som sitter d\u00e4r en bit upp p\u00e5 berget och njuter av en natt med lagom ljus att jaga i. Fast p\u00e5 katters vis f\u00f6raktar det mig s\u00e5klart. Min osmidighet. Min mage. Min pluffsighet. Det ger mig bara en blick innan det tyst smyger iv\u00e4g l\u00e4ngre upp p\u00e5 berget.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eller kanske \u00e4lgen ocks\u00e5 ser mig. Den som g\u00f6mmer sig f\u00f6r alla \u00e4lgj\u00e4gare som vallf\u00e4rdar ut i skogen f\u00f6r \u00e4lgjakten som b\u00f6rjar den h\u00e4r veckan. Jag nickar rmot den. D\u00e4r den kanske st\u00e5r utan att synas. Lugnar den. “H\u00e4r kan du stanna” skickar jag telepatiskt. H\u00e4r kommer inga j\u00e4gare in. Jag tror det fungerar. Det k\u00e4nns s\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag tar mig n\u00e5gra bondkakor ur burken som st\u00e5r d\u00e4r och inbjuder till det. Jod\u00e5, man f\u00e5r ocks\u00e5 vid den h\u00e4r tiden. Man skall ju orka sova n\u00e5gra timmar till. St\u00e5r d\u00e4r sen och sl\u00f6tittar en stund till medans bondkakor tuggas s\u00f6nder och sv\u00e4ljs. Vi g\u00e5r mot gryning. Men \u00e4n regerar oljuset. Jag vandrar mot den kn\u00f6liga s\u00e4ngen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Livet \u00e4r gott – eftersom man lever.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r halvnaken i f\u00f6nstret och spannar efter tomtar i oljuset d\u00e4r genom ett f\u00f6nster inatt runt halv tre. Japp, skall man \u00e4nd\u00e5 upp och l\u00e4tta sig kan man lika g\u00e4rna passa p\u00e5 att spana ut mot skogen. Det \u00e4r d\u00e4r dom finns. K’s farmor s\u00e5g dem i bl\u00e5b\u00e4rsriset, ofta, s\u00e5 varf\u00f6r skall d\u00e5 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-33287","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":30977,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30977","url_meta":{"origin":33287,"position":0},"title":"Ljus","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2018-12-11","format":false,"excerpt":"N\u00e4r sn\u00f6n kommer \u00e4r det ungef\u00e4r som n\u00e4r allm\u00e4n skolplikt inf\u00f6rdes och folkskolan kom till landet. Ljuset \u00e4r h\u00e4r. Jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r i k\u00f6ksf\u00f6nstret ikl\u00e4dd endast kalsonger som jag brukar p\u00e5 natten och, trotts att det inte syns n\u00e5gon m\u00e5ne, s\u00e5 ser man v\u00e4rlden d\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r. Visserligen \u00e4r det oljus.\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=1050%2C600&ssl=1 3x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=1400%2C800&ssl=1 4x"},"classes":[]},{"id":18030,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18030","url_meta":{"origin":33287,"position":1},"title":"Bj\u00f6rn och en natt som aldrig riktigt blir en natt","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-06-02","format":false,"excerpt":"En bj\u00f6rn som lugnt betar i skogskanten p\u00e5 \u00e5kern h\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r. Det finns n\u00e5got snyggt i det. N\u00e5got som inte g\u00e5r att inte gilla. Jag tillh\u00f6r inte dom som m\u00e5ste ha bj\u00f6rnskinn p\u00e5 v\u00e4ggen och bj\u00f6rnk\u00f6tt i frysen lika lite som jag vill ha blommor p\u00e5 bordet som sakta d\u00f6r\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"Helspalt_bj\u00f6rn_SW","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/10\/Helspalt_bj%C3%B6rn_SW.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":36217,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36217","url_meta":{"origin":33287,"position":2},"title":"Bergen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2020-09-20","format":false,"excerpt":"Det \u00e4r h\u00f6st i H\u00e4lsingland. Bergen sjunger f\u00f6r oss som bor h\u00e4r. G\u00f6r man sig s\u00e5 ren man kan i sitt hj\u00e4rta och kan h\u00e5lla igen tanke och prat s\u00e5 h\u00f6r man s\u00e5ngen. Orkar man inte det bjuds man enbart p\u00e5 tystnaden. Inget d\u00e5ligt andra val s\u00e5klart. Mycket finns att\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123354-EFFECTS-scaled.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123354-EFFECTS-scaled.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123354-EFFECTS-scaled.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123354-EFFECTS-scaled.jpg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123354-EFFECTS-scaled.jpg?resize=1050%2C600&ssl=1 3x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123354-EFFECTS-scaled.jpg?resize=1400%2C800&ssl=1 4x"},"classes":[]},{"id":15995,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=15995","url_meta":{"origin":33287,"position":3},"title":"Oljus \u00f6ver H\u00e4lsingland","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-01-05","format":false,"excerpt":"Jag vaknar klockan kvart \u00f6ver tre och st\u00e4ller mig i f\u00f6nstret upp mot skogen s\u00e5som han\/hon\/det\/gud skapade mig. Oljuset lyser d\u00e4r ute \u00f6ver berget. Fullm\u00e5nens \u00e5teruts\u00e4nda fl\u00f6de \u00e4r starkt och tr\u00e4den kastar skuggor som p\u00e5 dan men med den skillnaden att det ljus som lyser upp det hela \u00e4r oljuset,\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"094jpg","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/01\/094jpg-768x1024.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/01\/094jpg-768x1024.jpg?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/01\/094jpg-768x1024.jpg?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":15967,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=15967","url_meta":{"origin":33287,"position":4},"title":"G\u00e4sp!","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-01-03","format":false,"excerpt":"Det \u00e4r en gigantisk m\u00e5ne som stiger upp v\u00e4ster ut bakom \u00d6rnberget. Den p\u00e5minner mig om att ljuset finns d\u00e4r, bakom och under oss. F\u00f6r andra \u00e4r det dag. Det bl\u00e5ser h\u00e5rt d\u00e4r ute. Sj\u00e4lv har jag inte varit ut p\u00e5 hela dan. Vi sov lika l\u00e4nge som ton\u00e5ringar idag\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"003","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/01\/003-768x1024.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/01\/003-768x1024.jpg?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/01\/003-768x1024.jpg?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":18210,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18210","url_meta":{"origin":33287,"position":5},"title":"Det \u00e4r lugnt","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-07-02","format":false,"excerpt":"Tassar barfota runt i tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rden och vattnar v\u00e4xter. Pratar lite med dom. Dom svarar inte. De \u00e4r som gud. Han\/hon\/det\/gud har inga svar heller. Jag f\u00f6rl\u00e5ter v\u00e4xterna. Storsint och p\u00e5 gott hum\u00f6r idag s\u00e5 han\/hon\/det\/gud kommer ocks\u00e5 undan med lite l\u00e4tt gubbmutter.\u00a0 Pionerna f\u00e5r d\u00e4remot en smekning och ett leende.\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"002","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/002-1024x768.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/002-1024x768.jpg?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/002-1024x768.jpg?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]}],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p68PL2-8ET","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33287","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/24"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=33287"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33287\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":33289,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33287\/revisions\/33289"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=33287"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=33287"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=33287"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}