{"id":33230,"date":"2019-10-07T17:02:20","date_gmt":"2019-10-07T16:02:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33230"},"modified":"2019-10-07T17:02:52","modified_gmt":"2019-10-07T16:02:52","slug":"ner-i-skiten","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33230","title":{"rendered":"Ner i skiten"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Jag dyker ner i det. Buggarna. Koden. V\u00e4rlden. Min v\u00e4rld. Njuter d\u00e4r nere i skiten. M\u00e5ndag. En hel vecka kvar. Ja n\u00e4stan. Inget \u00e4r helt perfekt som verkligen existerar. Sjukhus p\u00e5 torsdag. Veckans bes\u00f6k. Men resten. Ljuvligt. Kanske. Ljuvlighet kan v\u00e4nda till helvete p\u00e5 en grisblink . Men utg\u00e5ngsl\u00e4get h\u00e4r \u00e4r alltid “ljuvlighet”. Skiten kommer \u00e4nd\u00e5. S\u00e5 ingen ide att ta ut den i f\u00f6rskott.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kylan trycker p\u00e5 men tar sig inte hela v\u00e4gen fram. Tr\u00e4den har mycket l\u00f6v kvar. D\u00e4r hittar jag hoppet. Tr\u00e4den har b\u00e4ttre koll \u00e4n metrologerna. Fast Sidensvansarna har passerat redan. R\u00f6nnb\u00e4rstr\u00e4den renrakade. Dom brukar f\u00f6lja kanten p\u00e5 sn\u00f6n. N\u00e4r dom drar s\u00f6derut g\u00f6r sn\u00f6t\u00e4cket ocks\u00e5 det. Man hoppas p\u00e5 fulla sidensvansar i \u00e5r. F\u00e5glar som har tappat fotf\u00e4stet och drar s\u00f6derut f\u00f6r tidigt. Ja s\u00e5 \u00e4r det nog i \u00e5r t\u00e4nker man hoppfullt n\u00e4r man st\u00e5r d\u00e4r och tittar ut genom f\u00f6nstret.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r hur underh\u00e5llande som helst att l\u00e4sa om alla som skall r\u00e4dda planeten med olika trick. Vore det inte b\u00e4ttre att sluta att f\u00f6rst\u00f6ra den ist\u00e4llet? Vi \u00e4r en del av den. Det \u00e4r inte vi som sitter i kontrollrummet. Vi \u00e4r de kontrollerade och styrda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00f6rresten. Han\/hon\/det\/gud skall ju vara perfekt. Om nu inget som \u00e4r helt perfekt existerar s\u00e5 finns allts\u00e5 inte guddomen. Eller har vi \u00e5terigen st\u00f6tt p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r undantaget som bekr\u00e4ftar regeln. Han\/hon\/det\/gud som mullrar “det \u00e4r jag som \u00e4r undantaget”. “Tro [p\u00e5] mig kamrater.” Ja och vi “kamrater” suckar s\u00e5klart. \u00c4r skeptiska. Sv\u00e5ra att \u00f6vertyga eftersom det finns s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga dumskallar d\u00e4r ute redan, sedan tidigare. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man b\u00f6r nu kanske inte kalla han\/hon\/det\/gud f\u00f6r en dumskalle. En blixt torde tr\u00e4ffa en vid f\u00f6rsta b\u00e4sta tillf\u00e4lle efter ett s\u00e5dant yttrande. Men jag litar p\u00e5 att intelligens och humor f\u00f6ljs \u00e5t. Inga skrattar innerligare \u00e4n intelligenta m\u00e4nniskor. Har ni t\u00e4nkt p\u00e5 det? Ja d\u00e5rar ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. S\u00e5klart \u00e4r d\u00e5 ocks\u00e5 han\/hon\/det\/gud en storskrattare. Inte den allvarsamma h\u00e4mnare som kyrkan lyckats m\u00e5la upp. Ja sen m\u00e5ste man ju tro p\u00e5 existensen ocks\u00e5. Men min erfarenhet \u00e4r att varenda icke troende blir religi\u00f6s som fan n\u00e4r det skiter sig p\u00e5 riktigt. Ropar p\u00e5 han\/hon\/det\/gud och j\u00e4mrar sig. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5klart rimligt. Man f\u00e5r gripa varje halmstr\u00e5. N\u00e4r man m\u00e5ste. Sj\u00e4lvklart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag borde rimligtvis g\u00f6ra annat nu \u00e4n att sitta h\u00e4r och svamla \u00f6ver han\/hon\/det\/gud och dylikt. \u00c4ta t.ex. Mat piggar alltid upp. Ja s\u00e5 f\u00e5r det bli. NU!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag dyker ner i det. Buggarna. Koden. V\u00e4rlden. Min v\u00e4rld. Njuter d\u00e4r nere i skiten. M\u00e5ndag. En hel vecka kvar. Ja n\u00e4stan. Inget \u00e4r helt perfekt som verkligen existerar. Sjukhus p\u00e5 torsdag. Veckans bes\u00f6k. Men resten. Ljuvligt. Kanske. Ljuvlighet kan v\u00e4nda till helvete p\u00e5 en grisblink . Men utg\u00e5ngsl\u00e4get h\u00e4r \u00e4r alltid “ljuvlighet”. 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