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\u00c4r v\u00e4ldigt n\u00e4ra att ta till gr\u00e5ten idag. Det \u00e4r inte ofta. Men f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker man s\u00e4tta upp tv\u00e5 meter kabel och inte klarar av det – men man m\u00e5ste ju klara det – s\u00e5 k\u00e4nns allt skit. Det \u00e4r fan HOPPL\u00d6ST! \u00c5t helvete helt enkelt. V\u00e4nsterarmsseger och h\u00f6gerarmsnederlag. Jag vill ha tillbaka mitt gamla liv. NU!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 jag sitter d\u00e4r. M\u00e5ste g\u00e5 ifr\u00e5n. Tycker synd om mig sj\u00e4lv. Jo, det f\u00e5r man v\u00e4l g\u00f6ra. Ibland i alla fall. \u00c4r n\u00e4ra att ta till lipen. Hoppl\u00f6shetens saltvatten. Den som skulle befria. Men som pojkar inte har som utv\u00e4g. I alla fall inte vi med rocken i blodet. Vi som bara gr\u00e5ter i smyg i biografernas skyddande m\u00f6rker.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag reser mig s\u00e5klart. Till slut. Men g\u00f6r det med m\u00f6da. Ben och f\u00f6tter v\u00e4rker. Jag kan n\u00e4stan inte g\u00e5 om jag suttit en stund. Jag fixar den d\u00e4r kabelj\u00e4vlen. Det som skulle tagit en timme att fixa fyller en dag. Men f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker att inte t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 det. Det k\u00e4nns inte som en seger n\u00e4r den sitter d\u00e4r. Det \u00e4r bara hoppl\u00f6st.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En vecka kvar av penicillinkuren. Sex m\u00e5nader snart avklarade. Intraven\u00f6s antibiotika or\u00e4knad. Ett skit\u00e5r. 2019.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00c4r v\u00e4ldigt n\u00e4ra att ta till gr\u00e5ten idag. Det \u00e4r inte ofta. Men f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker man s\u00e4tta upp tv\u00e5 meter kabel och inte klarar av det – men man m\u00e5ste ju klara det – s\u00e5 k\u00e4nns allt skit. Det \u00e4r fan HOPPL\u00d6ST! \u00c5t helvete helt enkelt. V\u00e4nsterarmsseger och h\u00f6gerarmsnederlag. Jag vill ha tillbaka mitt gamla liv. 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