Jag sitter p\u00e5 ett arv av rotl\u00f6shet. Har alltid gjort. Jag \u00e4r nog f\u00f6dd med den d\u00e4r uppryckta roten i kroppen. Det finns en r\u00e4dsla f\u00f6r att f\u00e4sta sig allt f\u00f6r mycke vid n\u00e5got eller n\u00e5gon. En r\u00e4dsla f\u00f6r att sl\u00e5 sig till ro och k\u00e4nna att nu \u00e4r jag hemma. Voxnan, \u00e4lven \u00e4r nog det n\u00e4rmaste jag kommer n\u00e5got som kallas mitt. N\u00e5got jag h\u00f6r till. Vi har alltid varit n\u00e4ra varandra. Floden och jag. Det d\u00e4r alltid r\u00f6rliga som inget annat l\u00e4ngtar efter mer efter \u00e4n att till slut n\u00e5 havet och blanda sig, bli ett, med ursprunget till livet. Modern.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Det \u00e4r f\u00e5nigt s\u00e5klart. S\u00e5klart har man relationer. Starka. Barn, fru, v\u00e4nner, sl\u00e4ktingar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Jag sitter p\u00e5 ett arv av rotl\u00f6shet. Har alltid gjort. Jag \u00e4r nog f\u00f6dd med den d\u00e4r uppryckta roten i kroppen. Det finns en r\u00e4dsla f\u00f6r att f\u00e4sta sig allt f\u00f6r mycke vid n\u00e5got eller n\u00e5gon. En r\u00e4dsla f\u00f6r att sl\u00e5 sig till ro och k\u00e4nna att nu \u00e4r jag hemma. 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