{"id":32925,"date":"2019-09-05T08:02:09","date_gmt":"2019-09-05T07:02:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32925"},"modified":"2019-09-05T08:02:09","modified_gmt":"2019-09-05T07:02:09","slug":"att-angra-sig","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32925","title":{"rendered":"Att \u00e5ngra sig"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"3006\" height=\"5344\" src=\"https:\/\/i2.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/IMG_20190831_143959553.jpg?fit=576%2C1024&amp;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-32926\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/IMG_20190831_143959553.jpg?w=3006&amp;ssl=1 3006w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/IMG_20190831_143959553.jpg?resize=169%2C300&amp;ssl=1 169w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/IMG_20190831_143959553.jpg?resize=768%2C1365&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/IMG_20190831_143959553.jpg?resize=576%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 576w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/IMG_20190831_143959553.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/IMG_20190831_143959553.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8220;<em>\u00c5ngrar du dig inte?<\/em>&#8221; fr\u00e5gar de ofta. M\u00e4nniskorna. Oftast n\u00e4r konkursen 1992 kommer upp. Den som \u00e4r livsavg\u00f6rande. Som &#8220;f\u00f6rst\u00f6r ett liv&#8221;. Det sista p\u00e5st\u00e5endet kommer inte fr\u00e5n mig. S\u00e5klart. Liv \u00e4r upp och ner. Var man \u00e4n befinner sig. Vem man \u00e4n \u00e4r. Det spelar ingen roll hur m\u00e5nga dollars man har heller. Liv m\u00e5 se olika ut p\u00e5 ytan men d\u00e4r inne, i den som lever liv, \u00e4r de f\u00f6rv\u00e5nansv\u00e4rt lika varandra. Tro mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Men svaret p\u00e5 fr\u00e5gan d\u00e5. &#8220;\u00c5ngrar du dig inte?&#8221;. Ja den som st\u00e4ller fr\u00e5gan v\u00e4ntar s\u00e5klart inte p\u00e5 svaret. Det finns s\u00e5 mycket annat att g\u00f6ra idag \u00e4n att st\u00e5 och v\u00e4nta p\u00e5 svar. Men hade de v\u00e4ntat tv\u00e5 sekunder, velat h\u00f6ra svaret, s\u00e5 hade det varit s\u00e5h\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8220;<strong><em>Det \u00e4r klart jag \u00e5ngrar saker. Men inte saker jag gjort utan saker jag INTE gjort.<\/em><\/strong>&#8221; <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Men det \u00e4r allts\u00e5 ingen som vill h\u00f6ra det svaret. Den som fr\u00e5gar \u00e4r l\u00e5ngt borta nu och inne i annat. Sitt liv. Ja och det med r\u00e4tta s\u00e5klart. Sj\u00e4lv g\u00e5r jag vidare med mitt liv. G\u00f6r s\u00e5 gott jag kan. Eftersom jag, liksom alla andra, inte kan leva det p\u00e5 annat s\u00e4tt \u00e4n som jag lever det. Med bra beslut, med d\u00e5liga beslut, och med lite \u00e5nger \u00f6ver de g\u00e5nger man sa nej men kanske borde ha sagt ja.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><a href=\"https:\/\/akehedman.se\/2019_08_31_14_39_14.mp3\">Lyssna p\u00e5 b\u00e4cken h\u00e4r.<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;\u00c5ngrar du dig inte?&#8221; fr\u00e5gar de ofta. M\u00e4nniskorna. Oftast n\u00e4r konkursen 1992 kommer upp. Den som \u00e4r livsavg\u00f6rande. Som &#8220;f\u00f6rst\u00f6r ett liv&#8221;. Det sista p\u00e5st\u00e5endet kommer inte fr\u00e5n mig. S\u00e5klart. Liv \u00e4r upp och ner. Var man \u00e4n befinner sig. Vem man \u00e4n \u00e4r. Det spelar ingen roll hur m\u00e5nga dollars man har heller. 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