{"id":32839,"date":"2019-08-27T10:47:04","date_gmt":"2019-08-27T09:47:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32839"},"modified":"2019-08-28T10:46:53","modified_gmt":"2019-08-28T09:46:53","slug":"vantar-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32839","title":{"rendered":"V\u00e4ntar"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Sitter och v\u00e4ntar. \u00c4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4g till Ljusdal. Skall l\u00e4mna in bilen. Tredje g\u00e5ngen gillt. Hoppas man. De tv\u00e5 f\u00f6re har inte fungerat speciellt bra. “Verkstad nedlagd” n\u00e4r man kommer ner och “bokning borta” n\u00e4sta g\u00e5ng. Ja man kan allts\u00e5 bara hoppas denna g\u00e5ng. Mekonomen \u00e4r grejer det…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag \u00e4r extremt d\u00e5lig p\u00e5 att v\u00e4nta. \u00c4nd\u00e5 har det g\u00e5tt skapligt idag. F\u00e5tt en del ur h\u00e4nderna. Fast nu, med en timme kvar, innan jag m\u00e5ste fara, ja d\u00e5 sitter jag bara h\u00e4r. F\u00e5r liksom inget gjort. INGET: Liv – v\u00e4rdefullt s\u00e5dant – rinner iv\u00e4g till ingen nytta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Obs “h\u00e4nderna”. Jo jag l\u00e5tsasjobbar faktiskt med b\u00e5da numera. Ja inte \u00f6verdrivet mycket med h\u00f6gre. Men lite, lagom, sm\u00e5produktivt, \u00e4nd\u00e5. S\u00e5-det-s\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fr\u00e5n Ljusdal tar man sig allts\u00e5 hem med buss. Den som kallades Loslimpan n\u00e4r man var ung. Nu n\u00e4r Loslimpan g\u00e5tt i graven heter den s\u00e4kert n\u00e5got annat ok\u00e4nt f\u00f6r mig. Men man kastar bort en dag p\u00e5 en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r \u00e5ka-iv\u00e4g-resa. Ja sen skall bilen h\u00e4mtas ocks\u00e5. Se d\u00e4r – en dag till \u00e5t fanders.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men dagar… det finns m\u00e5nga av dom. Tror man. Ibland. I bra stunder. Oftast tycker nog undertecknad att de genom hela livet alltid har k\u00e4nts som f\u00f6r f\u00e5. Det \u00e4r synd att det alltid funnits s\u00e5 mycket man velat g\u00f6ra. Ja, annars kunde man gjort annat. Eller ingenting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Best\u00e4ller medicin. Femhundra trotts subventioner. Kunde ha lagts p\u00e5 annat s\u00e5klart. Men nu g\u00f6r det inte det. Fast n\u00e4ra frikort nu. Sen \u00e4r det ingen konst. Fast man hade hellre haft ett frikort p\u00e5 n\u00e4rmaste biograf eller cafeteria s\u00e5klart. Men f\u00e5r vara n\u00f6jd \u00f6ver det lilla. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu s\u00e5. Nu f\u00e5r jag nog vanka omkring lite. Att bara sitta h\u00e4r n\u00e4r man skall iv\u00e4g det har jag inte ro till…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Sitter och v\u00e4ntar. \u00c4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4g till Ljusdal. Skall l\u00e4mna in bilen. Tredje g\u00e5ngen gillt. Hoppas man. De tv\u00e5 f\u00f6re har inte fungerat speciellt bra. “Verkstad nedlagd” n\u00e4r man kommer ner och “bokning borta” n\u00e4sta g\u00e5ng. Ja man kan allts\u00e5 bara hoppas denna g\u00e5ng. Mekonomen \u00e4r grejer det… Jag \u00e4r extremt d\u00e5lig p\u00e5 att v\u00e4nta. 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