{"id":32835,"date":"2019-08-26T19:32:35","date_gmt":"2019-08-26T18:32:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32835"},"modified":"2019-08-26T19:32:55","modified_gmt":"2019-08-26T18:32:55","slug":"i-nasta-liv","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32835","title":{"rendered":"I n\u00e4sta liv"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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I n\u00e4sta liv skall jag bli en fj\u00e4ril, d\u00e4r har vi ett deal han\/hon\/det\/gud och jag. Som den h\u00e4r som kommer glidflygande \u00f6ver mitt huvud idag n\u00e4r jag skall g\u00e5 och h\u00e4mta posten. Vacker, graci\u00f6s och underbar. Jag har aldrig sett en fj\u00e4ril glidflyga p\u00e5 det viset, och s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt, tidigare. S\u00e5 snyggt. Som en \u00f6rn. Japp, fj\u00e4ril f\u00e5r det bli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00f6rutom ett kilo m\u00e5ndagsreklam f\u00e5r jag en begagnad h\u00e5rddisk till studiodatorn i l\u00e5dan. En hundralapp f\u00f6r 350G p\u00e5 Tradera. Perfekt f\u00f6r en s\u00e5dan som mig. N\u00e4r jag \u00f6ppnar den v\u00e4l inpackade h\u00e5rddisken kryper en f\u00e4sting ut p\u00e5 min arm. Bonusmaterial fr\u00e5n Sk\u00e5ne. Var den tar v\u00e4gen sedan vet jag inte. Hoppas den inte bosatte sig p\u00e5 mig bara. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars \u00e4r det doktorsprat. Antibiotika en m\u00e5nad till. Suck. Men CRP prov bara varannan vecka fr\u00e5n och med nu. Hurra. Ny kontakt i slutet av september. Sen f\u00e5r vi se. N\u00e5gra m\u00e5nader med mer prover. Ja och s\u00e5 ny operation om inget konstigt h\u00e4nder i kroppen. Jod\u00e5 f\u00e5r ta en extra tur till sjukhus f\u00f6r lite ultraljud d\u00e4remellan ocks\u00e5. Jag faller samman. Siuck. Fast egentligen \u00e4r v\u00e4l allt ganska bra \u00e4nd\u00e5. M\u00f6jligen lite tr\u00f6ttsamt. Det h\u00e4r \u00e4r inte riktigt jag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ja mer h\u00e4nder v\u00e4l inte egentligen h\u00e4r idag. Ja, n\u00e5ja, lite mek. Men bara lite. Famlar mest och l\u00e4ser n\u00e4rsynt numera. En upplevelse det med. Jag lovar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I n\u00e4sta liv skall jag bli en fj\u00e4ril, d\u00e4r har vi ett deal han\/hon\/det\/gud och jag. Som den h\u00e4r som kommer glidflygande \u00f6ver mitt huvud idag n\u00e4r jag skall g\u00e5 och h\u00e4mta posten. Vacker, graci\u00f6s och underbar. Jag har aldrig sett en fj\u00e4ril glidflyga p\u00e5 det viset, och s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt, tidigare. S\u00e5 snyggt. 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