Ut\u00e5t, in i skogen, vana v\u00e4gar, en g\u00e5ng gick jag och hundvalp en vilse h\u00e4r, varv efter varv, en hel dag, till slut var valpen tr\u00f6ttare \u00e4n jag, d\u00e5 n\u00e4r vi \u00e4ntligen hittade v\u00e4gen. Men vilse har jag aldrig g\u00e5tt varken f\u00f6re eller efter. Den d\u00e4r dan var undantaget. Dagen n\u00e4r f\u00e4rdm\u00e4rkena man noterat helt pl\u00f6tsligt var borta var enda ett.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Men det \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 h\u00e4r som b\u00e4ren finns. Alla sorter. Olika \u00e5rstider. Olika m\u00e4ngder. Idag jagas hjortron. Myrarnas guld.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Just idag \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 andra ute. Vid f\u00f6rstmyren st\u00e5r redan en bil. Upptaget. Det \u00e4r det det betyder. \u00c5k till n\u00e4sta. Det finns myrar s\u00e5 det r\u00e4cker \u00e5t alla, precis som det finns en egen sj\u00f6 till var och en som naken vill svalka sig i H\u00e4lsingskt mjukt och klart vatten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Den andr myren \u00e4r v\u00e5r. Bara v\u00e5r. Den \u00e4r full med hjortron. Omogna de flesta \u00e4nnu tyv\u00e4rr. Men n\u00e4sta vecka. Om ingen hinner f\u00f6re…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oljelampan lyser till precis innan jag stannar. G\u00f6r mig orolig. T\u00f6rs inte fara \u00e4nnu l\u00e4ngre in i skogen. Det blir l\u00e5ngt att g\u00e5 om det blir fel p\u00e5 bilen. S\u00e5 hem\u00e5t igen. Jag orkar \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga steg p\u00e5 myren. Fast lyfts av att f\u00e5 finnas d\u00e4r. Det h\u00e4r \u00e4r min v\u00e4rld. Det h\u00e4r, skogens tystnad och mil efter mil efter mil med ensamhet och frihet \u00e4r helt enkelt jag. Egentligen \u00e4r det h\u00e4r jag skulle bygga min koja och stanna tills klockorna kl\u00e4mtar en sista g\u00e5ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Men s\u00e5 hem\u00e5t d\u00e5. Oljelampan lyser inte igen. Den har bara lyst till f\u00f6r att j\u00e4vlas med mig. F\u00f6rjaga sinnets ro fr\u00e5n min sj\u00e4l. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Det medhavda fikat f\u00e5r intas hemma. Kanske beror den d\u00e4r r\u00f6da lampan p\u00e5 att oljan beh\u00f6ver bytas. F\u00e5r testa det.men f\u00f6rdt verkstad. Onsdag. M\u00e5ste f\u00e5 den igenom besiktningen. Bli r\u00f6rlig igen. \u00c5tminstone det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Min huvudgator startar inte l\u00e4ngre som den skall den heller. Det m\u00e4rker jag innan vi skall \u00e5ka. Alla mina tre arbetsdatorer \u00e4r allts\u00e5 nere f\u00f6r r\u00e4kning. Jag, ja mitt antibiotika jag har sv\u00e5rt att hitta energin att f\u00e5 fart p\u00e5 dem igen. Men m\u00e5ste s\u00e5klart. Det finns ingen att ringa till och s\u00e4ga, kanske skrika ett desperat, “hj\u00e4lp”. Energi m\u00e5ste uppb\u00e5dade, h\u00e4mtas, konstrueras, genereras. Utan h\u00e4nder inget.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Men skogen, myren, v\u00e4gen stannar i min sj\u00e4l. N\u00e4r jag g\u00e5r upp och str\u00e4cker ut mig p\u00e5 soffan finns de med mig. Kvar ocks\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag vaknar efter en timmes antibiotika s\u00f6mn. Veferkvikt. Trotts allt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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