{"id":32488,"date":"2019-07-04T17:30:22","date_gmt":"2019-07-04T16:30:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32488"},"modified":"2019-07-05T17:29:49","modified_gmt":"2019-07-05T16:29:49","slug":"grot","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32488","title":{"rendered":"Gr\u00f6t"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Nej det har inte blivit s\u00e5 mycket gr\u00f6t. Ist\u00e4llet oml\u00e4ggning av operations\u00e4rr, byte av s\u00e5rpump, ink\u00f6p av en Coca Cola, chips, bananer, kolor. Jag blir s\u00e5 exalterad att jag till och med gl\u00f6mmer att dricka kaffe idag. Det beh\u00f6vs inte mycket f\u00f6r att r\u00f6ra upp mina sinnen numera.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u00e4ldigt mycket soffa blir det idag. Sova. Sova. Sova. Det tar p\u00e5 mig det h\u00e4r. S\u00e5 in i helvete. Men k\u00f6r dokument\u00e4r om Bob Dylan, “Rolling Thunder Revue” och uppdelad i tv\u00e5 delar med sovpaus i mitten ungef\u00e4r, s\u00e5 tar jag mig igenom den. Gosaker tr\u00f6star lite men ger kanske inte mer. Som den f\u00f6rra antibiotikakuren s\u00e5 plockar den h\u00e4r bort smaker och g\u00f6r mig k\u00e4nslig f\u00f6r kryddor. En l\u00e4kare n\u00e4mnde att det d\u00e5 kanske var en bra tid att b\u00f6rja \u00e4ta lite mindre (banta i klartext) men tyv\u00e4rr fungerar det ju inte riktigt s\u00e5. Smakar allt lika s\u00f6ker man sig till det som smakar mer. Skiten. Det som bildar fett. F\u00e5r ta tag i det d\u00e4r sedan. P\u00e5 riktigt. Det h\u00e4r g\u00e5r inte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det forsande s\u00e5ret forts\u00e4tter att forsa efter ett uppeh\u00e5ll p\u00e5 n\u00e5gra dagar. Gul \u00e4cklig stinkande s\u00e5rv\u00e4tska. M\u00e4nniskor kan tr\u00f6ttna p\u00e5 livet f\u00f6rt mindre. Fast tr\u00f6ttheten och orkesl\u00f6sheten t\u00e4r mer p\u00e5 mig. D\u00e4ri finns jag icke. Inte ens lite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bob D. d\u00e5? Ja jag har egentligen ingen relation alls till snubben. Alla mina v\u00e4nner ser honom som GUDEN i versal dock. Alla som deltar i Rolling thunder turnen verkar ha den synen ocks\u00e5. Det ja’as alldeles f\u00f6rskr\u00e4ckligt. \u00c4ckligt. Jag kommer aldrig bli en dyrkare. Inte av n\u00e5gon eller n\u00e5got. Inte ens av mig sj\u00e4lv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K jobbar sista dan f\u00f6re semestern idag. Glad f\u00f6r det s\u00e5klart. Men hon p\u00e5verkas s\u00e5klart av allt det h\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Men n\u00e5got lite m\u00e5ste vi v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka hitta p\u00e5. Vi f\u00e5r v\u00e4l \u00e5ka till Sveg. Jo jo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast liv rullar p\u00e5. Jag \u00e4r oerh\u00f6rt sugen p\u00e5 att g\u00f6ra musik. Men musikdatorn har kraschat. Ja b\u00e5da Windows burkarna h\u00e4r \u00e4r d\u00f6da. Jag m\u00e5ste f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka hitta kraft n\u00e5gon regnig dag att f\u00e5 ig\u00e5ng \u00e5tminstone studiodatorn. The force – du saknas mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aprop\u00e5 Bob igen f\u00f6rresten. N\u00e4r de sitter d\u00e4r och jammar med varandra i bussarna och p\u00e5 hotellen, s\u00e5 skiljer det s\u00e5 j\u00e4vla lite p\u00e5 hur vi satt d\u00e4r p\u00e5 sjuttiotalet. Det l\u00e5ter r\u00e4tt lika ocks\u00e5. Misst\u00e4nker att skillnaden bara \u00e4r etiketter s\u00e5klart. Geni versus landsortsrockare. Egentligen kan vi m\u00f6tas \u00f6ver de d\u00e4r etikettsgr\u00e4nserna. F\u00f6rst\u00e5 varandra. Ha roligt tillsammans till och med. Men mellan oss finns “the guardians of the admired people”. Ingen vanlig tar sig igenom deras f\u00f6rsvar. Det \u00e4r d\u00e4r stj\u00e4rnor skapas. Inte i genialitet. Kanske. Eller troligen. Eller inte alls. Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu t\u00e4nker jag sluta oja mig en timme. \u00c4gna mig \u00e5t chipsen. S\u00e5-det-s\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Nej det har inte blivit s\u00e5 mycket gr\u00f6t. Ist\u00e4llet oml\u00e4ggning av operations\u00e4rr, byte av s\u00e5rpump, ink\u00f6p av en Coca Cola, chips, bananer, kolor. Jag blir s\u00e5 exalterad att jag till och med gl\u00f6mmer att dricka kaffe idag. Det beh\u00f6vs inte mycket f\u00f6r att r\u00f6ra upp mina sinnen numera. V\u00e4ldigt mycket soffa blir det idag. Sova. 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