{"id":32207,"date":"2019-05-15T22:34:16","date_gmt":"2019-05-15T21:34:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32207"},"modified":"2019-05-28T10:51:27","modified_gmt":"2019-05-28T09:51:27","slug":"slutet-5","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32207","title":{"rendered":"Slutet"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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De tv\u00e5 fjol\u00e5rskalvarna h\u00e5ller sig till kullen. Vi ser dem varje dag. Till synes or\u00e4dda. Har man inte haft ont av m\u00e4nniskor \u00e4nnu s\u00e5 beh\u00f6ver man ju s\u00e5klart inte darra. Inte \u00e4nnu. Snart fattar de vilka avskyv\u00e4rda rovdjur vi \u00e4r. Men skogarna \u00e4r stora h\u00e4r, det finns hopp f\u00f6r tv\u00e5 vilsna fjolingar \u00e4nnu. Borde inhandla en p\u00e5se \u00e4pplen \u00e5t dem. Eller tv\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6r G\u00e4vle p\u00e5 tisdagen. Underbart vackert v\u00e4der. Jag f\u00e5r sushi. Tolv bitar. Fantastiskt. Men staden omfamnar mig inte som den brukar. Det \u00e4r r\u00f6rigt och h\u00f6gljutt. Jag l\u00e4ngtar bort. H\u00f6r inte dit. Inte ens lite. Blir liten och ensam och utanf\u00f6r. Det k\u00e4nns s\u00e5 fast jag vandrar lite efter minnenas alle’ d\u00e4r jag har trivts mycket bra under n\u00e5gra \u00e5r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men mest sjukhus s\u00e5klart. Alla \u00e4r s\u00e5 v\u00e4nliga. Det \u00e4r verkligen ett varmt v\u00e4lkomnande fr\u00e5n alla h\u00e5ll. Ja och jag \u00e4r tydligen redo f\u00f6r operationen. Hj\u00e4rtat l\u00e5ter “mem-fis” (skall l\u00e5ta s\u00e5 i stetoskopet) och lungorna varken piper eller s\u00f6rplar. Proverna \u00e4r bra. EKG kurvan som den skall. Tv\u00e5 timmar avsatta f\u00f6r op. Jag f\u00e5r skjuts dit med taxi den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen ocks\u00e5. Tjugo mil. Sicken lyx. Man blir bortsk\u00e4md. Men ser fram emot det h\u00e4r. V\u00e4gen mot en kanske skapligt fungerande axel. Wow liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tr\u00e4ffar M fr\u00e5n JB i stora hallen. Hon \u00e4r d\u00e4r med sina barn. Men vi som jobbade d\u00e4r p\u00e5 JB kom varandra verkligt n\u00e4ra. Blev kompisar f\u00f6r livet. Det var speciellt. S\u00e5 det k\u00e4nns som vi fortfarande k\u00e4nner varandra. Eller som M uttryckte det. “man tillbringade hela dagarna med sina v\u00e4nner d\u00e5. Nu f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker man f\u00e5 tid till det under ledig tid men hinner oftast inte umg\u00e5s.” Ja och jag kan bara h\u00e5lla med. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tr\u00f6tt n\u00e4r jag \u00e5ker tillbaks mot H\u00e4lsingland. Somnar p\u00e5 t\u00e5get. Sover gott en stund. Vaknar till liv bort\u00e5t Bolln\u00e4s. Upplever det vackra landskapet fram mot J\u00e4rvs\u00f6. Men allt det d\u00e4r tar abrupt slut n\u00e4r man \u00e5ker in p\u00e5 stationen i J\u00e4rvs\u00f6. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 fult. S\u00e5 mycket NORRLAND att man kan kr\u00e4kas. Varf\u00f6r m\u00e5ste det vara s\u00e5 fult. Ja jag tror faktiskt det b\u00f6rjar d\u00e4r i J\u00e4rvs\u00f6. Alla de d\u00e4r fulstationerna som man \u00e5ker f\u00f6rbi om man \u00e5ker norrut. Var och en av dem f\u00e5r en att l\u00e4ngta l\u00e5ngt l\u00e5ngt bort fr\u00e5n de d\u00e4r h\u00e5llplatserna som bara andas nedg\u00e5ng och f\u00f6rfall. Tycker det \u00e4r konstigt att inte J\u00e4rvs\u00f6 gjort n\u00e5got \u00e5t sin station. Dom som brukar vara r\u00e4tt mycket i farten annars. Brukar fatta. Men kanske \u00e4r just det h\u00e4r st\u00e4llet som \u00e4r J\u00e4rvs\u00f6s baksida. Alla platser m\u00e5ste ha en baksida s\u00e5klart f\u00f6r j\u00e4mviktens skull.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men l\u00e4gga mig t\u00e4nker jag g\u00f6ra nu. Det har varit f\u00f6r lite s\u00f6mn i n\u00e5gon dag nu. Man tummar p\u00e5 gammelgubbeorken som i sig redan \u00e4r uttunnad.. Men k\u00e4nner fortfarande en s\u00e5dan oerh\u00f6rd gl\u00e4dje \u00f6ver att kunna knappa \u00e5tminstone skapligt igen att det \u00e4r sv\u00e5rt att h\u00e5lla igen. Det finns att gl\u00e4djas \u00e5t allts\u00e5. V\u00e4rmens \u00e5terkomst inte minst. Man f\u00e5r tacka och tacka och tacka. F\u00f6r att den snurrar p\u00e5 den h\u00e4r jorden fast vi pl\u00e5gar den s\u00e5. En del h\u00e5ller kanske p\u00e5 att l\u00e4ra sig l\u00e4xan nu men \u00e4r de tillr\u00e4ckligt m\u00e5nga?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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De tv\u00e5 fjol\u00e5rskalvarna h\u00e5ller sig till kullen. Vi ser dem varje dag. Till synes or\u00e4dda. Har man inte haft ont av m\u00e4nniskor \u00e4nnu s\u00e5 beh\u00f6ver man ju s\u00e5klart inte darra. Inte \u00e4nnu. Snart fattar de vilka avskyv\u00e4rda rovdjur vi \u00e4r. Men skogarna \u00e4r stora h\u00e4r, det finns hopp f\u00f6r tv\u00e5 vilsna fjolingar \u00e4nnu. 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