{"id":32115,"date":"2019-05-05T22:19:39","date_gmt":"2019-05-05T21:19:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32115"},"modified":"2019-05-05T22:19:46","modified_gmt":"2019-05-05T21:19:46","slug":"den-rullar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=32115","title":{"rendered":"Den rullar"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Klockan rullar iv\u00e4g och det \u00e4r strax dags att ge sig. L\u00e5tsajobb har ocks\u00e5 g\u00e5-hem-tider. Fast kanske inte heller. Allt det h\u00e4r \u00e4r bara en evig f\u00e4rd ut i o\u00e4ndligheten. En resa man f\u00f6ljer med p\u00e5, bara kan p\u00e5verka d\u00e5 och d\u00e5 och d\u00e5 i det lilla, lilla, pyttelilla. Universum har inget slut. I vilken riktning du \u00e4n far s\u00e5 kommer du \u00e4nd\u00e5 aldrig fram. Eller g\u00f6r man det?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast resor. Flykt. Man kan aldrig fly fr\u00e5n sig sj\u00e4lv. Det \u00e4r d\u00e4rf\u00f6r jag aldrig far h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n. Bara f\u00f6r att den insikten finns d\u00e4r. Men l\u00e4ngtan s\u00e5klart, sj\u00e4lvbedr\u00e4geriet, l\u00e4ngtan till havet, till det andra. Allt det d\u00e4r l\u00e4mnar en \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte. Det finns en vilja inom en att sitta under ett apelsintr\u00e4d man nyss plockat en solmogen apelsin fr\u00e5n och glupskt \u00e4ta upp den. Fast kanske smakar den \u00e4nd\u00e5 b\u00e4st som den \u00e4r i den d\u00e4r dr\u00f6mmen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5g en kvinna vinna 100K i m\u00e5naden i tio \u00e5r idag. K och jag fr\u00e5gade oss vad vi skulle gjort om det h\u00e4nt oss. Jo en fungerande bil s\u00e5klart. Inge vr\u00e4kigt. N\u00e5got normalt. Sen finns det v\u00e4l en del att renovera p\u00e5 huset. Normalrenovering. Ja och resor. Normalresor. Men det mesta skulle man inte vilja f\u00f6r\u00e4ndra. Antagligen skulle de d\u00e4r st\u00e5larna, om de kom, f\u00f6rst\u00f6ra mer \u00e4n de gav. Eller inte. Vad vet man. Men nog r\u00e4cker det man har ganska l\u00e5ngt ocks\u00e5 \u00e4nd\u00e5. Mer \u00e4n nog egentligen. Koltrasts\u00e5ng. Hav. Ett sommarregn. En Jordgubbe. Fingrejerna kostar inte s\u00e5 mycket n\u00e4r man funderar \u00f6ver det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kanske \u00e4r det just det som \u00e4r mitt problem. F\u00f6rn\u00f6jsamheten. Vardagsgillandet. Man borde varit girigare. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kvinnan i tidningen har f\u00e5tt sitt kall fr\u00e5n han\/hon\/det\/gud. Han\/hon\/det\/gud talar till henne. Vad s\u00e4ger psykiatrikern om det. Det finns v\u00e4l medicin att f\u00e5 f\u00f6r dem som h\u00f6r r\u00f6ster. Fick vi en b\u00e4ttre v\u00e4rld om fler tog en daglig tablett n\u00e4r r\u00f6sterna kallar? Eller en s\u00e4mre? Vad \u00e4r sjukt och friskt liksom. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sj\u00e4lv tror jag p\u00e5 den annorlunda. Flocken bryr jag mig inte om . De sanna varelserna finns aldrig i samlingarna. Fast galningar finns det i alla l\u00e4ger ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Genier med. Sen alla som tror de \u00e4r det ena men \u00e4r det andra. S\u00e4tter man dem i en varsin v\u00e5gsk\u00e5l s\u00e5 v\u00e4ger de nog j\u00e4mt ungef\u00e4r. Fast de flesta av oss skiter s\u00e5klart i intelligenstesterna. Varf\u00f6r skulle vi bry oss. Vi \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 alltid medelm\u00e5ttor. I alla fall tills n\u00e5gon h\u00f6jer oss till att vara annat. Av egen kraft tar man sig ingenstans. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men bok och sova nu. Att l\u00e4gga ett huvud mot en kudde utan oro \u00e4r v\u00e4rt en hel del det ocks\u00e5. Man m\u00e5ste b\u00e4dda f\u00f6r det ocks\u00e5. Inte trixa f\u00f6r mycket. Som man b\u00e4ddar f\u00e5r man ligga…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Klockan rullar iv\u00e4g och det \u00e4r strax dags att ge sig. L\u00e5tsajobb har ocks\u00e5 g\u00e5-hem-tider. Fast kanske inte heller. Allt det h\u00e4r \u00e4r bara en evig f\u00e4rd ut i o\u00e4ndligheten. En resa man f\u00f6ljer med p\u00e5, bara kan p\u00e5verka d\u00e5 och d\u00e5 och d\u00e5 i det lilla, lilla, pyttelilla. Universum har inget slut. 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