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Natt p\u00e5 ing\u00e5ng.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

P\u00e5skhandlar. Det m\u00e5ste g\u00f6ras. Ljusdal. L\u00e5gbudget. Men det b\u00e5de kunde och har varit v\u00e4rre. Mycket v\u00e4rre. Nu blir det b\u00e5de p\u00e5skmust och p\u00e5skgodis. Go-ost. Det finns inget att klaga p\u00e5 alls. Som det n\u00e4stan alltid \u00e4r allts\u00e5. Det \u00e4r s\u00e4llan ber\u00e4ttigat att klaga. \u00c4nd\u00e5 g\u00f6r man det. S\u00e4nker sig till den erbarmligt l\u00e5ga niv\u00e5n d\u00e4r man inte till fullo uppskattar det man har.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Den d\u00e4r v\u00e4gen vi \u00e5ker kan man ju. Los -> Ljusdal. Ljusdal -> Los. Det \u00e4r sex mil \u00e5t b\u00e5da h\u00e5llen. Men f\u00f6r de flesta \u00e4r det tre g\u00e5nger s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt till Los som ifr\u00e5n. Man kan bara testa att f\u00e5 upp en politiker fr\u00e5n centralorten. Fysiska avst\u00e5nd och k\u00e4nslom\u00e4ssiga avst\u00e5nd sammanfaller s\u00e4llan. Men bra egentligen kan man tycka, vi f\u00e5r sk\u00f6ta oss sj\u00e4lva h\u00e4r uppe f\u00f6r det mesta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag tycker det \u00e4r l\u00e5ngt sj\u00e4lv ibland. F\u00f6r l\u00e5ngt bort fr\u00e5n m\u00e4nniskorna. F\u00f6r l\u00e5ngt bort fr\u00e5n de \u00f6ppna vyerna. Men n\u00e4r jag v\u00e4l sitter h\u00e4r g\u00f6r det s\u00e5klart ingen skillnad om jag sitter i New York eller h\u00e4r. Inspirationen och viljan att l\u00e5tsasarbeta kommer \u00e4nd\u00e5 inifr\u00e5n. Det \u00e4r inte ut i v\u00e4rlden man skall ge sig f\u00f6r att hitta sitt sanna jag. Det \u00e4r inne i sitt innersta man hittar sig sj\u00e4lv och sin v\u00e4g. Bara d\u00e4r. Hittar man sen saker man inte gillat har man s\u00e5klart inget f\u00f6r att man flyr ut i v\u00e4rlden heller. Sig sj\u00e4lv l\u00e4mnar man liksom aldrig bakom sig. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l s\u00e5klart ganska sj\u00e4lvklart, \u00e4nd\u00e5 f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker vi alla ta till flykten fr\u00e5n oss sj\u00e4lva som en utv\u00e4g d\u00e5 och d\u00e5 i livet. L\u00f6nl\u00f6st s\u00e5klart. Man f\u00e5r kompromissa med sin sj\u00e4lvbild. Vara \u00f6dmjuk. Hitta n\u00e5got som fungerar. Stilla sig och leva d\u00e4r som en som inte \u00e4r perfekt men god nog.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Lillkatten och jag sitter p\u00e5 kontoret. Ja hon ligger och sover. \u00c4r dessutom ingen lillkatt l\u00e4ngre. \u00c5ren g\u00e5r. M\u00e5nen lyser in genom f\u00f6nstret. Det \u00e4r n\u00e4stan sex grader varmt d\u00e4r ute. Ljuvliga plusgrader. Jublande v\u00e5rv\u00e4rme. Ja och det skall h\u00e5lla i sig. Det har sannerligen v\u00e4nt nu. Posten h\u00e4mtade jag i kort\u00e4rmad t-shirt idag utan att ens vara n\u00e4ra att frysa. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bj\u00f6rnarna har tydligen vaknat. I fjol r\u00e4knade man till arton individer som r\u00f6rde sig kring byn. Det \u00e4r r\u00e4tt trevligt p\u00e5 n\u00e5got vis \u00e4nd\u00e5. Men naturligtvis inte helt bra om de blir helt or\u00e4dda f\u00f6r m\u00e4nniskor. Men de flesta godtar och lever med det d\u00e4r. K\u00e4nner kanske till och med lite stolthet \u00f6ver bj\u00f6rnt\u00e4theten skogarna h\u00e4r har.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu. V\u00e4nsterhandstr\u00f6tt. Fruktansv\u00e4rt tr\u00f6tt p\u00e5 axell\u00e5s och overksam h\u00f6ger just nu. Vill komma ig\u00e5ng. Fast vad \u00e4r n\u00e5gra m\u00e5nader? Speciellt om man skulle bli b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n innan i axeln. Man f\u00e5r stilla sig, acceptera och \u00e5ka med.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Lorthelgen kallade min mormor p\u00e5sken. Folk drog in d\u00e5 mycket skit utifr\u00e5n lerv\u00e4llingsv\u00e4rlden. Efter f\u00f6rs\u00f6k till l\u00e5tsasjobb imorgon s\u00e5 skall b\u00e5de jag och lillkatten, K och N ge oss h\u00e4n i det d\u00e4r. Lorten. Det blir v\u00e4l det vanliga sl\u00f6andet helt enkelt. F\u00f6r att vi f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar det. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

P\u00e5skhandlar. Det m\u00e5ste g\u00f6ras. Ljusdal. L\u00e5gbudget. Men det b\u00e5de kunde och har varit v\u00e4rre. Mycket v\u00e4rre. Nu blir det b\u00e5de p\u00e5skmust och p\u00e5skgodis. Go-ost. Det finns inget att klaga p\u00e5 alls. Som det n\u00e4stan alltid \u00e4r allts\u00e5. Det \u00e4r s\u00e4llan ber\u00e4ttigat att klaga. \u00c4nd\u00e5 g\u00f6r man det. S\u00e4nker sig till den erbarmligt l\u00e5ga niv\u00e5n d\u00e4r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32025","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":8331,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=8331","url_meta":{"origin":32025,"position":0},"title":"En egen stund","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-08-09","format":false,"excerpt":"Det regnar idag n\u00e4r jag h\u00e4mtar tidningen. 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