{"id":31939,"date":"2019-04-09T13:11:05","date_gmt":"2019-04-09T12:11:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=31939"},"modified":"2019-04-10T10:57:31","modified_gmt":"2019-04-10T09:57:31","slug":"vansterfoten","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=31939","title":{"rendered":"V\u00e4nsterfoten"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Man g\u00e5r omkring h\u00e4r och gn\u00e4ller och suckar eftersom allt skall g\u00f6ras med en hand. Det g\u00e5r s\u00e5 sakta. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 jobbigt. Man f\u00e5r ont i v\u00e4nster pekfinger. Men som fr\u00e5n ingenstans dyker han s\u00e5klart upp. Den rullstolsbundne mannen som skrivit sin bok med v\u00e4nsterfoten. Det kan liksom inte bli klarare upplyst det man sj\u00e4lv h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med. Det \u00e4r patetiskt. Gn\u00e4ll r\u00e4tt och sl\u00e4tt. Man har egentligen ingen h\u00e5llbar urs\u00e4kt f\u00f6r att inte jobba p\u00e5. Nope, ingen alls. Vill man eller vill man inte? Det \u00e4r alltid det det handlar om.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu kan jag tycka att det kan vara ok att inte vilja. I alla fall om n\u00e5gon annan v\u00e4ljer den v\u00e4gen. N\u00e4r det kommer till mig sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r jag dock str\u00e4ng p\u00e5 den d\u00e4r punkten… n\u00e5ja,…. tr\u00e4ning t\u00e4nker jag… g\u00e5 ner i vikt… ja kanske inte s\u00e5 str\u00e4ng n\u00e4r allt kommer omkring. Men \u00e5tminstone l\u00e5tsasjobbar jag ocks\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag egentligen vill sitta i soffan. R\u00e4knas det?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kanske<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man hoppas. F\u00e5r det. S\u00e5 h\u00e4r sitter jag. L\u00e5tsasjobbar. Sjukskriven. M\u00e5ste gilla l\u00e4get. Troligen. G\u00f6r nog det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast fort g\u00e5r det inte. Inte alls fort. Hj\u00e4rnan rusar dock p\u00e5 som f\u00f6rut. Inget annat i mig hinner med just nu bara. Inte alls faktiskt. N\u00e5ja. Det \u00e4r OK. Det har varit lite p\u00e5 det viset f\u00f6rut ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e4mligen<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u00e4nker p\u00e5 semlor. Har \u00e4tit fyra hittills? Tydligen \u00e4r det \u00e4r slut p\u00e5 s\u00e4songen n\u00e4sta vecka. Fyra… Ett rekord \u00e4r det ju. Ett bottenrekord. Definitivt. Borde v\u00e4l varit fyrtio. Men d\u00e5ligt? Nej s\u00e4kert inte. Semelbudgeten \u00e4r bara helt enkelt l\u00e4gre i \u00e5r. \u00c4r den ens av en vikt att den \u00e4r v\u00e4rd att notera, avvikelsen. Troligen inte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6verlever man s\u00e5 finns b\u00e4ttre tider om h\u00f6rnet. Snart s\u00e5 har halva tiden g\u00e5tt<\/a>. Det \u00e4r bra. Mycket bra. Konstigt att en tanke p\u00e5 semlor leder in p\u00e5 tankar om de d\u00e4r dagarna. Nope, inte ens dom dagarna kan i egentlig mening anv\u00e4ndas f\u00f6r att skylla ifr\u00e5n sig p\u00e5. De \u00e4r. En seger \u00e4nda fr\u00e5n handling till konsekvens. I alla fall om man tror mer p\u00e5 att leva ett liv ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att se p\u00e5 n\u00e4r andra g\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi borde nog ha packat v\u00e4skan och dragit iv\u00e4g en vecka till New York, K och jag. Om hon inte hade sitt bibliotek. Och skola. Om det fanns pengar p\u00e5 kontot. Om… Verkligheten. Allt \u00e4r inte undanflykter. Visst g\u00e5r allt att genomf\u00f6ra, men man betalar med konsekvenser. S\u00e5dana har f\u00f6rbannat h\u00f6g r\u00e4nta. H\u00e4nger med ett tag efter handling. Jag om n\u00e5gon borde veta. Som gjort en del val med \u00f6gonen \u00f6ppna. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Faktiskt<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Med det f\u00e5r det r\u00e4cka. Kaffe skall drickas. Enhandsl\u00e5tsasarbete utf\u00f6ras. T\u00e4nk att f\u00e5 fatta en l\u00f6dkolv och l\u00f6da lite… I h\u00f6st kanske. Inget v\u00e4nsterhandsjobb. Sv\u00e5rt nog som h\u00f6gerhandssyssla. En suck p\u00e5 det kunde varA P\u00c5 SIN PLATS… (j\u00e4vla caps-lock) … men den kommer inte. Tar bara energi \u00e4nd\u00e5…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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