{"id":31672,"date":"2019-03-12T15:27:57","date_gmt":"2019-03-12T14:27:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=31672"},"modified":"2019-03-12T15:28:05","modified_gmt":"2019-03-12T14:28:05","slug":"allt-ar-bra","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=31672","title":{"rendered":"Allt \u00e4r bra"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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En ny dag. F\u00f6r mig \u00e4r de alla ganska lika. Numera. Tr\u00f6tt n\u00e4mligen, evigt tr\u00f6tt, alltid lite illam\u00e5ende g\u00e5r jag h\u00e4r med en st\u00e4ndig bismak i munnen som g\u00f6r att allt smakar plast. Kryddar jag lite extra som man s\u00e5klart vill som konsekvens av det d\u00e4r d\u00e5 brinner den illr\u00f6da tungan som eld. Man l\u00e5ter allts\u00e5 bli det ocks\u00e5. Men allt biverkningar av penicillinkuren. Antagligen. Troligen. Tre tabletter, tre ggr om dan. Sexveckorskuren tar slut p\u00e5 l\u00f6rdag. Man hoppas att den \u00e5stadkommit vad den skulle. Man hoppas slippa genomleva den igen n\u00e5gonsin i sitt liv. Fast h\u00e4lften, minst, \u00e4r kvar av det h\u00e4r s\u00e5klart. Fler eng\u00e5ngsskalpeller. Mer sjukhus. Mer av allt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men allt \u00e4r bra h\u00e4r. Det finns verkligen inget att klaga p\u00e5. Jod\u00e5, tr\u00f6tt p\u00e5 axell\u00e5s ocks\u00e5. S\u00e5klart. Men det \u00e4r \u00f6verlevnadsbart. Dagarna g\u00e5r dessutom. Faktiskt. Fast ibland undrar man s\u00e5klart. Vart, \u00e5t vilket h\u00e5ll, det riktiga livet tog v\u00e4gen?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ute \u00e4r det efter-vasalopps-v\u00e4der p\u00e5 riktigt. Kalla n\u00e4tter, fin fina dagar. Ut l\u00e4ngtar jag men v\u00e5gar mig inte riktigt dit ut. Halkan skr\u00e4mmer mig. Beh\u00f6ver mer grus och asfalt innan jag ger mig iv\u00e4g p\u00e5 st\u00e4rkande v\u00e5rpromenader. Men det m\u00e5ste bli snart nu. Det h\u00e4r livet kan inte vara bra och nyttigt p\u00e5 n\u00e5got enda s\u00e4tt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

P\u00e5 n\u00e4tterna hinner man t\u00e4nka och fundera och att l\u00e4sa n\u00e5gra sidor. Men b\u00e4ttre och b\u00e4ttre dag f\u00f6r dag d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Halleluja n\u00e4stan f\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En liten uppblossande VSCP diskussion piggar upp lite i helgen och idag. Inget speciellt avancerat. CAN basics som man k\u00e4nner att man l\u00e4mnat flera \u00e5r sedan. Men \u00e4nd\u00e5. Helt pl\u00f6tsligt finns man igen. N\u00e5got lite \u00e5tminstone. Som stoppkloss. S\u00e4ger “det g\u00e5r inte”. Hoppas arr unga g\u00f6r i alla fall. Men s\u00e4ger s\u00e5klart inte det. N\u00e5got m\u00e5ste man \u00e4nd\u00e5 r\u00e4kna ut sj\u00e4lv. Annars \u00e4r v\u00e4l l\u00e4rdomen av veckor av sjukskrivning p\u00e5 riktigt (nope inga bidrag) att den dag man d\u00f6r och \u00e4r helt borta fr\u00e5n arenan s\u00e5 tar det inte ens tv\u00e5 veckor innan man \u00e4r helt bortgl\u00f6md och f\u00f6rpassad ut i voiden. Fast jag kan leva med det. Beh\u00f6ver ingen stenbumling som bevis p\u00e5 att jag levat. Inte ens p\u00e5 natten n\u00e4r vargtimmen nafsar en i h\u00e4larna k\u00e4nns det d\u00e4r jobbigt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu \u00e4r det v\u00e4l dags att vandra upp, greppa en bok, och vila en stund igen. K f\u00f6rser mig med en st\u00e4ndig str\u00f6m av de d\u00e4r pappersbuntarna. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 det alltid varit. K k\u00f6per eller l\u00e5nar och jag l\u00e4ser. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4ldigt f\u00e5 b\u00f6cker jag v\u00e4ljer sj\u00e4lv. Kanske skulle jag det s\u00e5klart. Men det g\u00e5r inte klaga p\u00e5 det h\u00e4r uppl\u00e4gget heller. Det mesta \u00e4r mer \u00e4n utm\u00e4rkt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast kanske f\u00f6rst lite musik. F\u00f6r att stilla musikabstinensen. \u00c5tminstone lite. Ja s\u00e5 f\u00e5r det nog bli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


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