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Jag str\u00e4var p\u00e5 och svarar p\u00e5 en eller tv\u00e5 eller tre fr\u00e5gor fr\u00e5n anv\u00e4ndare ibland. En kamp i sig det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Men n\u00e5got m\u00e5ste jag nu \u00e4nd\u00e5 g\u00f6ra. Det \u00e4r i det som det sm\u00e4rtsammaste finns, att stillasittande bara se p\u00e5 hur tiden rullar p\u00e5 utan att kunna vara en deltagare i det som sker.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00e5rdagen, mest sovande. Orkar inte annat. N\u00e4ra att svimma i duschen. Man lyssnar p\u00e5 kroppen f\u00f6r att man m\u00e5ste och anpassar dagarna efter det man h\u00f6r d\u00e4rifr\u00e5n. Men n\u00e5got piggare idag. Alltid n\u00e5got tycker man. Vad man nu skall med den lilla pigghets\u00f6kningen till. Jag vet inte. Hur skall jag kunna veta det?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag l\u00e4ser och l\u00e4ser och l\u00e4ser. Somnar d\u00e4remellan. Eftersom man blir s\u00e5 uttr\u00e5kad till slut. Kroppen skriker efter aktivitet. Jag t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 alla dem som alltid har det s\u00e5h\u00e4r. Stackars! Sj\u00e4lv har jag sannerligen inget att klaga p\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag lyckas allts\u00e5 inte s\u00e5 bra med att inte skriva om sjukdomar h\u00e4r. Allt det d\u00e4r blir f\u00f6r centralt i ens vardag i ett s\u00e5dant h\u00e4r l\u00e4ge, fr\u00e4mst f\u00f6r att inte mycket annat h\u00e4nder. Sk\u00e4ms f\u00f6r det. Hatar n\u00e4r folk bara pratar sjukdomar. V\u00e4ldigt vanligt annars h\u00e4r i min \u00e5lder vill jag lova. S\u00e5 \u00e4r man d\u00e4r sj\u00e4lv. Hatar sig sj\u00e4lv som konsekvens.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ute \u00e4r det sju grader varmt. Helt otroligt i februari. L\u00e4ngtar man efter v\u00e5r \u00e4r det s\u00e5klart helt fantastiskt. Det g\u00f6r jag s\u00e5 jag hurrar. Sm\u00e4lte all sn\u00f6 bort under mars s\u00e5 sjunger jag nog en stump av pur gl\u00e4dje ocks\u00e5. Jod\u00e5. Men just det \u00e4r v\u00e4l en \u00f6nskan som ligger l\u00e5ngt ifr\u00e5n det ouppn\u00e5eliga.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu f\u00e5r det r\u00e4cka. Mitt v\u00e4nstra pekfinger v\u00e4rker. Pekfingervals. Det kommer f\u00f6rhoppningsvis fler dagar…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Jag str\u00e4var p\u00e5 och svarar p\u00e5 en eller tv\u00e5 eller tre fr\u00e5gor fr\u00e5n anv\u00e4ndare ibland. En kamp i sig det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Men n\u00e5got m\u00e5ste jag nu \u00e4nd\u00e5 g\u00f6ra. Det \u00e4r i det som det sm\u00e4rtsammaste finns, att stillasittande bara se p\u00e5 hur tiden rullar p\u00e5 utan att kunna vara en deltagare i det som […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-31588","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":22246,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=22246","url_meta":{"origin":31588,"position":0},"title":"Att t\u00e4nka efter eller inte t\u00e4nka efter….","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-11-23","format":false,"excerpt":"Period tv\u00e5. 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