{"id":31500,"date":"2019-02-10T17:06:50","date_gmt":"2019-02-10T16:06:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=31500"},"modified":"2019-02-10T17:06:56","modified_gmt":"2019-02-10T16:06:56","slug":"morfinfri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=31500","title":{"rendered":"Morfinfri"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i2.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/maxresdefault.jpg?fit=584%2C329\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-31501\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Morfinfri sedan n\u00e5gon dag. Jag fattar iof inte hur det fungerar. Jag har ett + trettio centimeters s\u00e5r och ett \u00f6verarmsben som \u00e4r borrat, hackat och s\u00e5gat i och som sitter fast  i axel med n\u00e5got v\u00e4ldigt tempor\u00e4rt gjutet som inte f\u00e5r belastas, vridas och allt vad det \u00e4r. Men n\u00e4mnv\u00e4rt ont har det inte gjort under den h\u00e4r operationsresan, min dagliga v\u00e4rk innan operation har varit betydligt v\u00e4rre. Man f\u00e5r allts\u00e5 tacka f\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c4ter svindyr antibiotika. Har en kapsel antibiotika inne i \u00f6verarmen ocks\u00e5. Krig f\u00f6r att f\u00e5 bort de d\u00e4r bakterierna vi tydligen inte vill ha d\u00e4r. Tyv\u00e4rr ger det h\u00e4r paketet sig p\u00e5 min tunga ocks\u00e5 som \u00e4r r\u00f6d och envist superk\u00e4nslig. Tandborstning och starkt kryddad mat \u00e4r egna sm\u00e5 helveten numera b\u00e5da tv\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Men bra h\u00e4r allts\u00e5. Allt fungerar som det skall. Jag blir mer ompysslad \u00e4n jag f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar onekligen.  Film, b\u00f6cker och \u00f6verdrivet slumrande h\u00e5ller rastl\u00f6sheten st\u00e5ngen fortfarande. Eller det \u00e4r v\u00e4l <em>\u00e4ligheten<\/em> som vi Ovan\u00e5kersbor s\u00e4ger.   <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Att skriva med en hand p\u00e5 ett tangentbord \u00e4r s\u00e5klart ingen h\u00f6jdare. Fort g\u00e5r det inte. Men man f\u00e5r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka s\u00e5 gott det g\u00e5r. Massor av veckor kvar i detta limbo \u00e4nnu. Hoppet st\u00e5r till b\u00e4ttre tider fram\u00e5t sommaren kanske.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Borde v\u00e4l be om urs\u00e4kt f\u00f6r sjukdomspratandet. Vill egentligen inte skriva ett enda ord om det. Men samtidigt \u00e4r det hela mitt liv nu och n\u00e5gra veckor fram\u00f6ver. Det kan inte hj\u00e4lpas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fast nu m\u00e5ste jag vila mitt v\u00e4nstra pekfinger&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"> <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Morfinfri sedan n\u00e5gon dag. Jag fattar iof inte hur det fungerar. 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