{"id":31490,"date":"2019-02-07T16:08:25","date_gmt":"2019-02-07T15:08:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=31490"},"modified":"2019-02-07T16:08:33","modified_gmt":"2019-02-07T15:08:33","slug":"urkopplad","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=31490","title":{"rendered":"Urkopplad"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Jod\u00e5, jag lever, beg\u00e4r inte mer. R\u00e4knade inte helt s\u00e4kert med att vara det. S\u00e5 ett plus d\u00e4r onekligen. Lite \u00f6verk\u00e4nsligt kanske men s\u00e5 f\u00e5r det v\u00e4l vara d\u00e5. Jag har aldrig varit en “superhero”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men urkopplad \u00e4r jag. Bortkopplad. Sitter h\u00e4r och skriver det h\u00e4r med v\u00e4nster hand och inser att det \u00e4r s\u00e5 det kommer att f\u00f6rbli. I m\u00e5nader fram\u00f6ver. D\u00e4ri ligger utmaningen. Inte i sm\u00e4rtan. Om man nu vill n\u00e5got, n\u00e5got som helst kr\u00e4ver tv\u00e5 h\u00e4nder, om man vill det s\u00e5 att det v\u00e4rker, ja, d\u00e5 \u00e4r s\u00e5klart det mer \u00e4n tr\u00e5kigt. Men lever allts\u00e5. Alltid n\u00e5got. Ja egentligen h\u00f6gsta vinsten. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men skit i det d\u00e4r nu. Andras sjukdomar, ingen vill h\u00f6ra om dom. Jag vet. \u00c4nd\u00e5 l\u00e4r v\u00e4l en del smyga sig in h\u00e4r fram\u00f6ver. Ber om urs\u00e4kt f\u00f6r det redan nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag l\u00e4ser, ser p\u00e5 film och sover just nu. Entimmessovare har jag blivit. Mellan det d\u00e4r inneh\u00e5llsrika livet t\u00e4nker jag d\u00e5 men s\u00e5 lite det bara g\u00e5r. Just det \u00e4r inte l\u00e4tt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

En taxi h\u00e4mtar upp mig f\u00f6r transport till sjukhuset i G\u00e4vle. En annan skjutsar mig tillbaks. Lyx. I b\u00e5da fallen vet jag det mesta om f\u00f6rarnas liv efter turen. D\u00e4remellan v\u00e5rdbitr\u00e4den, syrror och l\u00e4kare. Man f\u00e5r ta chansen. Att l\u00e4ra sig om m\u00e4nniskorna. Ja jag \u00e4r genuint intresserad. Nyfiken. Antagligen d\u00e4rf\u00f6r jag jobbar med teknik!?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Allts\u00e5 visst \u00e4r jontransporten i nerverna intressanta. Varf\u00f6r har jag inte sysslat mer med det t\u00e4nker jag n\u00e4r en l\u00e4kare samtidigt l\u00e4gger letar en nerv med ultraljud f\u00f6r att l\u00e4gga en axelblockad. Japp man hindrar jonerna fr\u00e5n att vandra. Det sista jag minns innan operationens svarta m\u00f6rker \u00e4r pratet om luftens procentuella inneh\u00e5ll av syre och kv\u00e4ve som narkosl\u00e4karen sp\u00f6rjer om. Kanske tr\u00f6ttnar han p\u00e5 alla fr\u00e5gor. Pumpar in tystnaden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men p\u00e5 uppvaknandet finns annat intressant att ta del av. Syrem\u00e4ttnad. Puls. Blodtryck. Andningsfrekvens. Ett liv utan vetgirighet \u00e4r inget liv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sen sover jag mest. G\u00f6r ett f\u00f6rs\u00f6k att g\u00e5 upp p\u00e5 toaletten. Blir satt d\u00e4r p\u00e5 stolen samtidigt som undersk\u00f6terskan rusar iv\u00e4g. Mister synen redan p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen dit. Sitter d\u00e4r och v\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 att jag skall tuppa av. Det blir v\u00e4rre och v\u00e4rre. Kallsvetten rinner om mig. F\u00e5r ropa p\u00e5 hj\u00e4lp till slut eftersom ingen kommer. Blir ett j\u00e4kla p\u00e5drag. F\u00e5r pissa i flaska efter det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men j\u00e4klar vad n\u00f6jd man m\u00e5ste vara med Svensk sjukv\u00e5rd. Jag f\u00e5r ett fantastiskt bem\u00f6tande och en underbar service. I m\u00e5nga l\u00e4nder skulle en s\u00e5dan som mig inte ens komma i n\u00e4rheten av det h\u00e4r eftersom jag inte skulle ha r\u00e5d. \u00c5ter andra skulle bli skuldsatta f\u00f6r livet. S\u00e5 tack Sverige. Jag kommer aldrig att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 varf\u00f6r en del vill r\u00f6ra sig bort fr\u00e5n det d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu s\u00e5. V\u00e4nsterarmsknappandet t\u00e4r p\u00e5 krafterna. \u00c5terkommer. Kanske.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jod\u00e5, jag lever, beg\u00e4r inte mer. R\u00e4knade inte helt s\u00e4kert med att vara det. S\u00e5 ett plus d\u00e4r onekligen. Lite \u00f6verk\u00e4nsligt kanske men s\u00e5 f\u00e5r det v\u00e4l vara d\u00e5. Jag har aldrig varit en “superhero”. Men urkopplad \u00e4r jag. Bortkopplad. Sitter h\u00e4r och skriver det h\u00e4r med v\u00e4nster hand och inser att det \u00e4r s\u00e5 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-31490","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":21322,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21322","url_meta":{"origin":31490,"position":0},"title":"L\u00f6ningshelg","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-08-26","format":false,"excerpt":"Fredag. 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