{"id":30977,"date":"2018-12-11T08:53:41","date_gmt":"2018-12-11T07:53:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30977"},"modified":"2018-12-11T08:53:48","modified_gmt":"2018-12-11T07:53:48","slug":"ljus-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30977","title":{"rendered":"Ljus"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"580\" height=\"435\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310-1024x768.jpg?resize=580%2C435\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-28874\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=1024%2C768&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=300%2C225&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=768%2C576&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?resize=400%2C300&amp;ssl=1 400w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/IMG_0310.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">N\u00e4r sn\u00f6n kommer \u00e4r det ungef\u00e4r som n\u00e4r allm\u00e4n skolplikt inf\u00f6rdes och folkskolan kom till landet. Ljuset \u00e4r h\u00e4r. Jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r i k\u00f6ksf\u00f6nstret ikl\u00e4dd endast kalsonger som jag brukar p\u00e5 natten och, trotts att det inte syns n\u00e5gon m\u00e5ne, s\u00e5 ser man v\u00e4rlden d\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r. Visserligen \u00e4r det oljus. Ljus f\u00f6r troll, tomtar och slika, men ljus. Hopp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Jag vet inte om det \u00e4r det d\u00e4r oljuset, gl\u00e4djen \u00f6ver en ljusare v\u00e4rld, eller om det bara handlar om en sent intagen mugg kaffe. Men n\u00e4r jag l\u00e4gger mig igen g\u00e5r det inte att somna. S\u00e5 jag ligger d\u00e4r och funderar fram\u00e5t sextiden, och d\u00e5, n\u00e4r man snart skall upp, d\u00e5 g\u00e5r det minsann utm\u00e4rkt att sova. S\u00e5 jag somnar. Utmattad av f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga t\u00e4nkta tankar under vargtimmar.<br \/><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Men det blir i alla fall n\u00e5gon timmes s\u00f6mn och det \u00e4r b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n inget. Men det finns dagar n\u00e4r man tycker att klockan inte borde ringa vid sju. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nu sitter jag h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontor och beh\u00f6ver koncentrera mig. H\u00e5l\u00f6gd. H\u00f6r att traktorn \u00e4r h\u00e4r, s\u00e5 ocks\u00e5 jag m\u00e5ste v\u00e4l ge mig ut och skotta jag med. Ja g\u00f6ra det efter b\u00e4sta f\u00f6rm\u00e5ga. Den mer eller mindre enarmades f\u00f6rm\u00e5ga kan jag bjuda p\u00e5. Ja en\u00f6gdes ocks\u00e5. Det \u00e4r ingen hejd p\u00e5 lytena nu f\u00f6r tiden kan man tycka. Man \u00e4r halv.<br \/><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00a0 Annars river jag. Sliter s\u00f6nder det som fungerar. Det \u00e4r hemskt. Lite som att plocka s\u00f6nder en motor i sm\u00e5delar. Men jag vet att jag kan s\u00e4tta ihop den igen. Det handlar bara om tid. Jag k\u00e4nner ocks\u00e5 att det h\u00e4r \u00e4r r\u00e4tt v\u00e4g att g\u00e5. N\u00e5got som fyller mig med l\u00e5tsasarbetsgl\u00e4dje utan dess like. Vi f\u00e5r se om den gl\u00e4djen kan v\u00e4ga upp f\u00f6r h\u00e5l\u00f6gdhet under dan. Annars f\u00e5r man v\u00e4l helt enkelt somna en stund h\u00e4r i stolen. Det vore inte f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen i s\u00e5 all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><br \/><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><br \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>N\u00e4r sn\u00f6n kommer \u00e4r det ungef\u00e4r som n\u00e4r allm\u00e4n skolplikt inf\u00f6rdes och folkskolan kom till landet. Ljuset \u00e4r h\u00e4r. Jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r i k\u00f6ksf\u00f6nstret ikl\u00e4dd endast kalsonger som jag brukar p\u00e5 natten och, trotts att det inte syns n\u00e5gon m\u00e5ne, s\u00e5 ser man v\u00e4rlden d\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r. Visserligen \u00e4r det oljus. 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