{"id":30953,"date":"2018-12-08T00:25:02","date_gmt":"2018-12-07T23:25:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30953"},"modified":"2018-12-08T00:25:09","modified_gmt":"2018-12-07T23:25:09","slug":"en-morgondag","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30953","title":{"rendered":"En morgondag"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image is-resized\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/07\/ake_20180727.jpg?resize=231%2C416\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-29425\" width=\"231\" height=\"416\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fredag.Jag somnar en stund s\u00e5klart. Gr\u00f6n IKEA-soffa liksom slukar mig varje fredagskv\u00e4ll. Veckorna, timmarna, minuterna och sekunderna kommer ikapp mig. Kr\u00e4ver tillbaks tid som givits som en smutsig och f\u00f6rfallen revers som inkasseras. Ja och jag betalar. Med r\u00e4nta. Slocknar.<br \/><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Men jag vaknar igen. Hj\u00e4rtat dunkar i kroppen. F\u00f6rr skulle jag ha blivit r\u00e4dd f\u00f6r det d\u00e4r h\u00e5rda dunkandet. Men nu? Knappast. Det f\u00e5r g\u00e5 \u00f6ver. Man hoppas ocks\u00e5 p\u00e5 den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen. S\u00e5 som man gjort s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger f\u00f6rr.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fredag \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 serie och filmtid h\u00e4r. Jag tittar s\u00e4llan p\u00e5 tv under resten av veckorna. Nu f\u00f6r tiden \u00e4r det inga problem. Tabl\u00e5-tv h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att passeras till historiens dammiga rangliga hyllor, de som vaktas h\u00e5rt av de bak\u00e5tstr\u00e4vandes skara. Jod\u00e5 de lyfts v\u00e4l ner d\u00e4rifr\u00e5n igen en dag. 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