{"id":30884,"date":"2018-11-30T23:08:55","date_gmt":"2018-11-30T22:08:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30884"},"modified":"2018-11-30T23:08:55","modified_gmt":"2018-11-30T22:08:55","slug":"det-hander-igen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30884","title":{"rendered":"Det h\u00e4nder igen."},"content":{"rendered":"

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F\u00f6rst revisorn. Jag har en p\u00e4rm liggande d\u00e4r som jag borde h\u00e4mta f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan. Han k\u00e4nner s\u00e5klart mina siffror. Han vet att jag skuldsanerar. Men fr\u00e5gar hur det g\u00e5r. Ja och g\u00e5r g\u00f6r det ju. Jag k\u00e4nner det d\u00e4r “f\u00f6rlorare” mellan oss som inte s\u00e4gs. Men vi vet b\u00e5da ocks\u00e5 att jag g\u00f6r det jag \u00e4lskar. Vi vet ocks\u00e5 att han fixar papper \u00e5t andra f\u00f6rlorare liksom mig. Fast kanske kan man \u00e4lska det ocks\u00e5. Jag har aldrig st\u00e4llt fr\u00e5gan. Han \u00e4r hur som helst den b\u00e4ste revisor jag n\u00e5gonsin haft. Jag kr\u00e4ver inte k\u00e4rlek av en revisor. Inte att de ser mig som vinnare heller. Det r\u00e4cker om de fixar mina papper en g\u00e5ng per \u00e5r och finns d\u00e4r vid problem.<\/p>\n

Men \u00e5terigen, det d\u00e4r att inte vara herre p\u00e5 t\u00e4ppan. Det st\u00f6r mig allts\u00e5 inte l\u00e4ngre. Jag blir lite f\u00f6rv\u00e5nad. N\u00e5got har h\u00e4nt. Ett lugn har kommit \u00f6ver mig. Lite “skit p\u00e5 er” mentalitet som inte funnits f\u00f6rr. Vart tog det d\u00e4r “\u00e4lska mig” v\u00e4gen?<\/p>\n

Ja och sen tr\u00e4ffar jag “\u00e4garen”. En av dem i ett f\u00f6retag som jag jobbat i. Nu \u00e4r det s\u00e5lt och man har plockat hem n\u00e5gra hundra mille. V\u00e4lf\u00f6rtj\u00e4nta pengar dessutom. Man har f\u00e5tt jobba f\u00f6r dem. \u00c5terigen. Jag ber\u00e4ttar min historia n\u00e4r det obligatoriska “jaha, vad g\u00f6r du nu d\u00e5” kommer upp. “Jas\u00e5, skuldsanerar…” minsann. Det kommer n\u00e5got medlidsamt i blicken och s\u00e5 h\u00e4nger den d\u00e4r skylten “f\u00f6rlorare” \u00f6ver ens huvud igen. Men nu igen, Det g\u00f6r mig inte ett skit.<\/p>\n

Vad \u00e4r det som sker egentligen?<\/p>\n

F\u00f6rv\u00e5nad.<\/p>\n

Fri.<\/p>\n

Bra eller d\u00e5ligt?<\/p>\n

Vet inte.<\/p>\n

Men troligen bra.<\/p>\n

Eller bara “gett upp”.<\/p>\n

Kanske.<\/p>\n

Men det k\u00e4nns bra.<\/p>\n

Os\u00e5rbart p\u00e5 n\u00e5got s\u00e4tt.<\/p>\n

Man f\u00e5r sova p\u00e5 saken.<\/p>\n

Godnatt<\/strong>!<\/p>\n

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F\u00f6rst revisorn. Jag har en p\u00e4rm liggande d\u00e4r som jag borde h\u00e4mta f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan. Han k\u00e4nner s\u00e5klart mina siffror. Han vet att jag skuldsanerar. Men fr\u00e5gar hur det g\u00e5r. Ja och g\u00e5r g\u00f6r det ju. Jag k\u00e4nner det d\u00e4r “f\u00f6rlorare” mellan oss som inte s\u00e4gs. Men vi vet b\u00e5da ocks\u00e5 att jag g\u00f6r det […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-30884","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":10627,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=10627","url_meta":{"origin":30884,"position":0},"title":"K\u00e4rlek vid f\u00f6rsta \u00f6gonkastet","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-10-22","format":false,"excerpt":"Hon f\u00f6r mig igenom lokalerna. 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