{"id":30782,"date":"2018-11-25T19:25:39","date_gmt":"2018-11-25T18:25:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30782"},"modified":"2018-11-25T19:25:39","modified_gmt":"2018-11-25T18:25:39","slug":"blaljus-igen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30782","title":{"rendered":"Bl\u00e5ljus igen"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Natten mot l\u00f6rdag. Fullm\u00e5ne. D\u00e4rmed ocks\u00e5 oljus. Eller bl\u00e5ljus. Svagare i \u00e5r \u00e4n andra \u00e5r eftersom det n\u00e4stan inte finns n\u00e5gon sn\u00f6, men tillr\u00e4ckligt ljust klockan tre p\u00e5 natten f\u00f6r att jag skall kunna se oknyttet pila fram d\u00e4r halvsynliga mellan stammarna i skogen. Varelser som inte h\u00f6r hemma i den verklighet som vi k\u00e4nner. Varelser som staden saknar. Inte f\u00f6rst\u00e5r.<\/p>\n

Jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r en stund d\u00e4r i f\u00f6nstret. En gammal ocool gubbe ikl\u00e4dd endast kalsonger. Skogen \u00e4r det ok\u00e4nda precis som m\u00f6rkret \u00e4r det just nu \u00e4ven om jag egentligen k\u00e4nner det mesta av den d\u00e4r skogen. Men oljuset fascinerar. Just det h\u00e4r speciella ljuset f\u00e5r fart p\u00e5 fantasin. Man kan se vad man vill. Men f\u00f6r mig \u00e4r varje strimma ljus, om \u00e4n s\u00e5 liten, god. Jag har alltid varit m\u00f6rkr\u00e4dd. Visserligen mindre s\u00e5 med \u00e5ren. Men som ung red maran mig h\u00e5rt. Vild i blicken och med piskan h\u00f6jd b\u00e5de i m\u00f6rker och i dr\u00f6mmarna sl\u00e4pade den med mig bland universums hemskheter. En del s\u00e4ger att det d\u00e4r \u00e4r rester efter tidigare liv.\u00a0 Ja, och vad vet man. Det \u00e4r bara idioten som \u00e4r fullst\u00e4ndigt s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 sin sak.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6ndag h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen. Det har mest varit vilohelg. Vi g\u00f6r inte s\u00e5d\u00e4r j\u00e4ttemycket K och jag. Jag gissar att v\u00e4rlden st\u00e5r kvar imorgon i alla fall. Men ny vecka. Nya tag. Man f\u00e5r liksom anstr\u00e4nga sig lite.<\/p>\n

Men f\u00f6rsta advent n\u00e4sta helg. T\u00e4nka sig. Snart jul. Vi gillar jul h\u00e4r i huset. Hysterin finns inte l\u00e4ngre p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt. Vi tar det lugnt och har det gott fram till ny\u00e5r. Det \u00e4r sen, under januari och februari, som \u00e4r vinterns pr\u00f6vningar kommer f\u00f6r en s\u00e5dan som mig. D\u00e5 skulle jag mycket v\u00e4l kunna dra iv\u00e4g till plusgrader. Oftast \u00e4r det l\u00e5tsasjobbet som r\u00e4ddar mig.\u00a0 Man f\u00e5r dyka ner och gl\u00f6mma bort. Det brukar fungera. \u00c5tminstone skapligt. I alla fall om man f\u00e5r inmundiga en semla d\u00e5 och d\u00e5.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Natten mot l\u00f6rdag. Fullm\u00e5ne. D\u00e4rmed ocks\u00e5 oljus. Eller bl\u00e5ljus. Svagare i \u00e5r \u00e4n andra \u00e5r eftersom det n\u00e4stan inte finns n\u00e5gon sn\u00f6, men tillr\u00e4ckligt ljust klockan tre p\u00e5 natten f\u00f6r att jag skall kunna se oknyttet pila fram d\u00e4r halvsynliga mellan stammarna i skogen. Varelser som inte h\u00f6r hemma i den verklighet som vi k\u00e4nner. 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