Travis<\/a>. S\u00e5 d\u00e5 f\u00e5r man mer att leta. Men s\u00e5dant \u00e4r nu livet. Sen n\u00e4r Travis och anv\u00e4ndare \u00e4r tysta s\u00e5 f\u00e5r man vila. Fast det tillst\u00e5ndet \u00e4r ett m\u00e5l om sanningen skall fram. Som nirvana. Man tar sig aldrig riktigt dit. Dock ibland alldeles n\u00e4ra (frid) men aldrig \u00e4nda fram. N\u00e4stan som “klart” allts\u00e5.<\/p>\nM\u00e5ste nu g\u00e5 ut och h\u00e4mta post. Synd om mig. Kallt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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