{"id":30355,"date":"2018-10-19T17:30:35","date_gmt":"2018-10-19T16:30:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30355"},"modified":"2018-10-19T17:30:35","modified_gmt":"2018-10-19T16:30:35","slug":"liksom-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30355","title":{"rendered":"Liksom"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Vissa dagar blir helt enkelt inte som man t\u00e4nkt sig. Man “skall bara…” sen sitter man d\u00e4r och “g\u00f6r bara…” hela dan. I mitt fall var det en uppdatering av ett g\u00e4ng siter till PHP 7.2. En skitgrej. Trodde man. Man tror mycket. Liksom.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Men fredag \u00e4r det. Gr\u00f6n IKEA-soffa v\u00e4ntar. Vid den h\u00e4r punkten \u00e4r det alltid en n\u00e4ra d\u00f6den upplevelse (jod\u00e5 Magnus) eftersom s\u00f6mnskulden ackumulerar fr\u00e5n s\u00f6ndagen fram tills idag s\u00e5 blir det s\u00e5. Man \u00e4r allts\u00e5 helt slut den h\u00e4r tiden p\u00e5 fredagen d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Fast man inte jobbar, bara l\u00e5tsasjobbar. Fest \u00e4r inte att t\u00e4nka p\u00e5. Inte mer l\u00e5tsasjobb heller. Annat \u00e4n soffa \u00e4r liksom<\/strong> inte l\u00f6nt att fundera \u00f6ver. Liksom. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Imorgon, bokm\u00e4ssa i Bolln\u00e4s. N\u00e4stan som i G\u00f6teborg allts\u00e5 men lokalt och billigare. Vi har v\u00e5ra egna stj\u00e4rnor d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. H\u00e4lsingar hela bunten.\u00a0 K t\u00e4nker mingla runt med n\u00e5gra. Sj\u00e4lv kryper jag v\u00e4l efter v\u00e4ggarna och hoppas f\u00e5 lite fika som bel\u00f6ning och tr\u00f6st innan vi far hem\u00e5t igen. Mat och sprit och k\u00e4rlek. Liksom.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Jod\u00e5, l\u00e5gbudget. Bensin \u00e4r dyrt. Inget att vara avundsjuk p\u00e5. Liksom.<\/strong><\/p>\n

F\u00f6rr i tiden brukade jag ta med alla tidningar jag inte hunnit l\u00e4sa under veckan upp p\u00e5 fredagskv\u00e4llarna. En f\u00f6rsvarlig bunt. Dom, en penna och ett kollegieblock, plus en film eller tv\u00e5 var en perfekt fredagskv\u00e4ll. Riktig njutningstid. Men n\u00e4rvarande i familjen var jag kanske inte. Man f\u00e5r f\u00f6rl\u00e5ta barn och fru f\u00f6r det. Fast insikten kom s\u00e5klart f\u00f6r sent. Liksom.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Nu f\u00f6r tiden orkar jag inte med det d\u00e4r. Har fullt upp med att h\u00e5lla mig vaken. Det \u00e4r en kamp varje fredag. Liksom.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Fast ibland. En powernap. D\u00e5 g\u00e5r det b\u00e4ttre sen. Efter en powernap skulle jag rent utav kunna g\u00e5 ut p\u00e5 den d\u00e4r festen. Men f\u00f6rst m\u00e5ste man s\u00e5klart bli bjuden p\u00e5 en s\u00e5dan. Just det kan bli sv\u00e5rt. Jag \u00e4r n\u00e4mligen en v\u00e4ldigt tr\u00e5kig person. Liksom.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Men K \u00e4r en skojig person. Hon skall p\u00e5 fest n\u00e4sta l\u00f6rdag. D\u00e5 kan jag jobba. Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n

Med det ger jag mig f\u00f6r idag liksom. Ni som l\u00e4ser den h\u00e4r bloggen r\u00f6r er mellan 30-40 personer per dag. Jag har ingen aning varf\u00f6r ni g\u00f6r d\u00e4r ute, vilka ni \u00e4r och hur ni letat er hit. Men p\u00e5 n\u00e5got s\u00e4tt s\u00e5 hj\u00e4lper ni mig att leva vidare genom att finnas d\u00e4r som mottagare. N\u00e4stan allt annat jag g\u00f6r och har gjort i livet \u00e4r annars s\u00e4nt rakt ut i the void. Oftast inget problem med det men ibland o\u00f6verstigligt sorgligt. Som det \u00e4r. “Just idag \u00e4r jag stark” som han sj\u00f6ng vad han nu hette, jo, Kent. Andra dagar \u00e4r man inte det. Fast alla tror att man \u00e4r det. Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n

Klackarna i taket. Det \u00e4r fredag. Er klackar. Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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