{"id":30293,"date":"2018-10-17T20:41:39","date_gmt":"2018-10-17T19:41:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30293"},"modified":"2018-10-18T07:25:09","modified_gmt":"2018-10-18T06:25:09","slug":"bara-en-dag","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=30293","title":{"rendered":"Bara en dag"},"content":{"rendered":"

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F\u00f6ljer man d\u00f6den fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rstasidestoff till liten n\u00e4stan om\u00e4rkbar notis s\u00e5 kan man konstatera att man gl\u00f6ms snabbt idag. Det beh\u00f6vs inte ens en halv dag f\u00f6r den d\u00e4r vandringen. Om en vecka efter ett fr\u00e5nf\u00e4lle \u00e4r man inte ens s\u00f6kbar. Som d\u00f6d. Som levande, ofta aldrig s\u00f6kbar.<\/p>\n

Jag blir verkligen ledsen idag \u00f6ver Jerkers d\u00f6d. Vi var p\u00e5 inget s\u00e4tt n\u00e4ra varandra nu f\u00f6r tiden, men tillr\u00e4ckligt n\u00e4ra f\u00f6r att att det skall k\u00e4nnas. Det k\u00e4nns s\u00e5 on\u00f6digt. Han var ett \u00e5r yngre \u00e4n vad jag \u00e4r. Just de h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngerna \u00e4r annars de g\u00e5nger n\u00e4r jag som mest \u00f6nskade att jag hade lite kontakt med folket fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rr. Man beh\u00f6ver liksom prata av sig med m\u00e4nniskor som har samma bakgrund och som ocks\u00e5 k\u00e4nde honom. F\u00e5 ur sig minnen. F\u00e5 h\u00f6ra minnen. Men de kontakterna har jag inte l\u00e4ngre. S\u00e5 \u00e4r det bara. En bullp\u00e5se och f\u00f6r mycket kaffer f\u00e5r tr\u00f6sta. Precis som det gjort s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger f\u00f6rr ser jag n\u00e4r jag besk\u00e5dar min mage.<\/p>\n

Jag skriver drivare. Flykten, sj\u00e4lvbedr\u00e4geriet, gl\u00f6mskan. Men lyckan ocks\u00e5. M\u00f6jligen n\u00e5got b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n droger och mediciner. S\u00e5 l\u00e4nge jag sitter s\u00e5h\u00e4r s\u00e5 skadar jag v\u00e4l ingen i alla fall. Fast det s\u00e5klart finns folk som tar illa upp i alla fall. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r att det finns alltid m\u00e4nniskor som tar illa upp utifr\u00e5n det som andra g\u00f6r. Jag suckar inte ens \u00e5t dylikt l\u00e4ngre. N\u00f6jd i \u00c5kes v\u00e4rld. H\u00e4r best\u00e4mmer jag.<\/p>\n

Med f\u00f6rv\u00e5ning noterar jag att mina moduler<\/a> lever marknadsm\u00e4ssigt. Det \u00e4r underligt. Lever de tre \u00e5r till s\u00e5 kanske det g\u00e5r att h\u00e4mta hem lite kapital utifr\u00e5n dem. Men annars \u00e4r det Bluetooth mesh som g\u00e4ller h\u00e4r nu. En annan sida av samma mynt. Men prisv\u00e4rt. Det tog n\u00e5gra \u00e5r mer \u00e4n vad man trodde innan det blev s\u00e5. Men allt tar fler \u00e5r \u00e4n vad man tror. \u00c4r det n\u00e5got man kan vara s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 s\u00e5 \u00e4r det det. Efter\u00e5t, n\u00e4r tiden har g\u00e5tt en bit fram\u00e5t, ja d\u00e5 gick det snabbt som fan det d\u00e4r som gick segt fram\u00e5t n\u00e4r det h\u00e4nde.<\/p>\n

Tar nog en bulle till och knappar vidare.\u00a0 Liksom.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

F\u00f6ljer man d\u00f6den fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rstasidestoff till liten n\u00e4stan om\u00e4rkbar notis s\u00e5 kan man konstatera att man gl\u00f6ms snabbt idag. Det beh\u00f6vs inte ens en halv dag f\u00f6r den d\u00e4r vandringen. Om en vecka efter ett fr\u00e5nf\u00e4lle \u00e4r man inte ens s\u00f6kbar. Som d\u00f6d. Som levande, ofta aldrig s\u00f6kbar. 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