{"id":3027,"date":"2013-02-07T12:47:33","date_gmt":"2013-02-07T11:47:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=3027"},"modified":"2021-06-04T16:45:59","modified_gmt":"2021-06-04T15:45:59","slug":"sprida-min-sad","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=3027","title":{"rendered":"Sprida min s\u00e4d"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/01\/bubbla.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-2573\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/01\/bubbla.jpg?resize=580%2C455\" alt=\"bubbla\" width=\"580\" height=\"455\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Jag h\u00e4nger h\u00e4r och funderar p\u00e5 v\u00e5ren jag. Det \u00e4r ju inte s\u00e5 himla l\u00e5ngt kvar faktiskt. I Sk\u00e5ne blommar v\u00e4l krokusarna redan kan jag ge mig tusan p\u00e5. H\u00e4r \u00e4r det fortfarande massor med sn\u00f6. Drivor. Sn\u00f6tyngda grenar. Sn\u00f6skoterfarttokar som far f\u00f6rbi som hungriga illrar och sn\u00f6slungsburr med tillh\u00f6rande sn\u00f6font\u00e4ner \u00f6verallt. J\u00e4mt och st\u00e4ndigt detta ov\u00e4sen. Men h\u00e4r uppe \u00e4r det ju s\u00e5klart r\u00e4tt OK. Jag har ju tak \u00f6ver huvudet. Vindskyddat l\u00e4ge med bra utsikt. H\u00e4lsingska bl\u00e5nande berg s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt \u00f6gat n\u00e5r. Ett l\u00e4ge som rika brukar betala bra f\u00f6r. Men jag f\u00f6ddes h\u00e4r. L\u00e4get f\u00f6ljde liksom med.<\/p>\n<p>H\u00e4r har man tittat ut \u00f6ver de vackra skogarna i tv\u00e5 \u00e5r nu. V\u00e4xt till sig. Varit med om en decenniestorm och f\u00e5tt h\u00e5lla i sig, slagregn och torka, 35 grader kallt och en massa kamrater som velat avhysa en. Rent av mumsa i sig min enkla lekamen. Bryta upp mitt hemliga innre. Tur att man \u00e4r en h\u00e5rd typ. Det \u00e4r inte m\u00e5nga som tuggar i sig en s\u00e5dan h\u00e5rd tuffing som mig bara s\u00e5d\u00e4r. Speciellt nu n\u00e4r man \u00e4r en bruning ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r gr\u00f6n och oerfaren. Man. En hane.<\/p>\n<p>Men nu \u00e4r det allts\u00e5 snart dags. Man \u00e4r ton\u00e5ring och skall sprida sin s\u00e4d \u00f6ver landskapet. Blir faktiskt lite upphetsad n\u00e4r jag t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 det. Bara n\u00e5gra veckor till nu och sen s\u00e5 skall jag sakta \u00f6ppna upp och l\u00e5ta mina fr\u00f6n virvla iv\u00e4g. N\u00e5gon sa att 95% av dom var livsdugliga och jag har tusentals. T\u00e4nk om alla skulle leva? Man skulle f\u00e5 tusentals avkommor. Men det kanske r\u00e4cker med n\u00e5gra \u00e4nd\u00e5 om man t\u00e4nker efter. Ett fr\u00f6 som kan flyga bort mot \u00e5kern nere vid b\u00e4cken. Landa d\u00e4r p\u00e5 sn\u00f6n. Borrar sig ner d\u00e4r, g\u00f6mma sig, och v\u00e4ntar till sn\u00f6n sm\u00e4lter. Just det h\u00e4r fr\u00f6et skall inte bli v\u00e4lsmakande godis f\u00f6r f\u00e5glarna som dom flesta andra. Sen n\u00e4r sn\u00f6n \u00e4r borta kan den fuktiga jorden ta emot det. Gona in sig i det varma fuktiga. V\u00e4nta tills v\u00e4rmen kommer p\u00e5 allvar. D\u00e5 och f\u00f6rst d\u00e5 skicka ut ett skott och f\u00f6da en ny tall som efter m\u00e5nga \u00e5r skall f\u00e5 nya kottar precis som mig d\u00e4r en solig sommardag. Barnbarn liksom. Som ocks\u00e5 h\u00e4nger d\u00e4r i tv\u00e5 \u00e5r innan det \u00e4r deras tur att sprida sin s\u00e4d f\u00f6r vinden. Men jag kommer ju inte se det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart. Strax efter jag \u00f6ppnat mig \u00e4r det dags att ge sig av. Sl\u00e4ppa taget. G\u00e5 till andra v\u00e4rldar. Men det \u00e4r ju s\u00e5 det \u00e4r. Som tallkotte har jag d\u00e5 levt ett fullt liv och \u00e4r n\u00f6jd med det.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jag h\u00e4nger h\u00e4r och funderar p\u00e5 v\u00e5ren jag. Det \u00e4r ju inte s\u00e5 himla l\u00e5ngt kvar faktiskt. I Sk\u00e5ne blommar v\u00e4l krokusarna redan kan jag ge mig tusan p\u00e5. H\u00e4r \u00e4r det fortfarande massor med sn\u00f6. Drivor. Sn\u00f6tyngda grenar. Sn\u00f6skoterfarttokar som far f\u00f6rbi som hungriga illrar och sn\u00f6slungsburr med tillh\u00f6rande sn\u00f6font\u00e4ner \u00f6verallt. J\u00e4mt och st\u00e4ndigt [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24,57,2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3027","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser","category-noveller","category-swedish"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":18806,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18806","url_meta":{"origin":3027,"position":0},"title":"H\u00e4gg och syren blir bara syren n\u00e4sta \u00e5r","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-10-15","format":false,"excerpt":"Mitt \"jobb\" kr\u00e4ver att jag koncentrerar mig. 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