{"id":29937,"date":"2018-09-20T15:46:16","date_gmt":"2018-09-20T14:46:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=29937"},"modified":"2018-09-20T15:46:23","modified_gmt":"2018-09-20T14:46:23","slug":"fram-till-jul","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=29937","title":{"rendered":"Fram till jul"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Det \u00e4r okoncentrerat. Sv\u00e5rligen s\u00e5. Till slut f\u00e5r jag \u00e5ka ner och k\u00f6pa en Vic’s Bl\u00e5. Ibland hj\u00e4lper det. Ibland inte. Men vad skall man annars med donationer till.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u00e4rlden \u00e4r s\u00e5 stor idag. N\u00e4r det \u00e4r s\u00e5 s\u00e5 blir jag liten som en myra per automatik. Kommer bort. Som om jag inte alltid varit borta.\u00a0 Egentligen. Men om jag nu s\u00e5dana h\u00e4r dagar befinner mig l\u00e5ngt bort fr\u00e5n solen s\u00e5 \u00e4r jag den andra dagar. Nej, inte p\u00e5 andras bekostnad. De dagarna finns bara jag. Ingen annan. Man kan allts\u00e5 kosta p\u00e5 sig det d\u00e4r. Att l\u00e5ta solen fylla upp ens inre och bli ett med den som \u00e4r “jag”. Ingen annan blir skadad.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast inte idag allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag st\u00e4dar. Jod\u00e5, det g\u00e5r. Automatiken tar tag i s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r. Sj\u00e4lv f\u00f6ljer jag med och funderar p\u00e5 annat. Inte en tanke \u00e4r s\u00e4kert speciellt banbrytande. Men det t\u00e4nks i alla fall. Alla kan inte ens h\u00e4vda att det g\u00f6rs det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Robotdammsugaren f\u00e5r g\u00f6ra jobbet h\u00e4r nere. Oftast k\u00f6r den fast och g\u00f6r den inte det s\u00e5 \u00e5ker den \u00e5t fel h\u00e5ll. De smutsiga partierna blir kvar. Men oftare \u00e4r det en sladd som den trasslar in sig i. Sen \u00e4r det hela \u00f6ver. Det \u00e4r inte l\u00e4tt att vara robotdammsugare p\u00e5 ett l\u00e5tsaskontor n\u00e4mligen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ute bl\u00e5ser det. Fast inte mer \u00e4n att det \u00e4r lagom. Ruskar om v\u00e4rlden. Tr\u00e4den har fortfarande l\u00f6v ocks\u00e5 h\u00e4r. Fast nog singlar det ner ett och annat gult blad ner mot marken. Om fjorton dar ligger allt p\u00e5 backen. Ett naturens nedskr\u00e4peri. Man kan snacka resurssl\u00f6seri. Energisl\u00f6seri.\u00a0 Tr\u00e4den st\u00e5r kvar d\u00e4r kala och dystra snart. Oftast kommer det f\u00f6rsta sn\u00f6fallet d\u00e5 ocks\u00e5. Ja \u00e5tminstone om man l\u00e4gger p\u00e5 en vecka. Femtonde oktober. Sn\u00f6fall. N\u00e4stan alltid. Fy fan f\u00f6r vinter. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast fram till jul och ny\u00e5r brukar jag klara mig. Sen lider jag p\u00e5 gr\u00e4nsen mot d\u00f6den tills ljuset \u00e5terv\u00e4nder. D\u00e5 \u00e5terv\u00e4nder jag som Lazarus. Utan appl\u00e5der i mitt fall dock. Ingen bryr sig. Jo jag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu s\u00e5 skall jag leta l\u00e4ngst d\u00e4r inne i mina m\u00f6rkaste vr\u00e5r efter den saknade inspirationen. Eller var det koncentrationen? Kraften att dyka ner i problemst\u00e4llningarna finns d\u00e4r n\u00e5gonstans hur som helst. G\u00f6mmer sig. Sl\u00f6ar.\u00a0 Som ett magiskt piller som hj\u00e4lper mot allt \u00e4r den den d\u00e4r f\u00f6rm\u00e5gan.\u00a0 Hittar jag den blir jag lycklig. Kanske.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Det \u00e4r okoncentrerat. Sv\u00e5rligen s\u00e5. Till slut f\u00e5r jag \u00e5ka ner och k\u00f6pa en Vic’s Bl\u00e5. Ibland hj\u00e4lper det. Ibland inte. Men vad skall man annars med donationer till. V\u00e4rlden \u00e4r s\u00e5 stor idag. N\u00e4r det \u00e4r s\u00e5 s\u00e5 blir jag liten som en myra per automatik. Kommer bort. 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