{"id":2989,"date":"2013-02-06T12:42:46","date_gmt":"2013-02-06T11:42:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=2989"},"modified":"2013-03-14T22:58:43","modified_gmt":"2013-03-14T21:58:43","slug":"bara-den-har-gangen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=2989","title":{"rendered":"Bara den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/prov.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/prov.jpg?resize=250%2C242\" alt=\"prov\" width=\"250\" height=\"242\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-2990\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Hon t\u00f6mmer vinglaset. Det \u00e4r gott. Fruktigt, friskt och \u00e4nd\u00e5 med en s\u00f6tma. S\u00f6tt som bara m\u00e5ste komma fr\u00e5n v\u00e4rme och sol. I alla fall k\u00e4nns det r\u00e4tt att t\u00e4nka s\u00e5. Att det \u00e4r heta sommardagar som ligger koncentrerade d\u00e4r i druvorna, som sen i processerna, blivit blodr\u00f6tt vin i hennes glas. Hon k\u00e4nner att kroppen suger i sig alkoholen. Bel\u00f6ningen. Vidgar \u00e5dror och skjuter fart p\u00e5 hj\u00e4rtat d\u00e4r inne i br\u00f6stet. Dunk-dunk-dunk-dunk. Hon lever igen. Hon har \u00f6verlevt \u00e4nnu en dag. Tar flaskan och h\u00e4ller upp ett till glas. L\u00e4ppjar nu. Ingen br\u00e5dska. Bara underh\u00e5lla det sk\u00f6na. F\u00f6r att kunna t\u00e4nka. Hon m\u00e5ste kunna t\u00e4nka.<\/p>\n<p>Framf\u00f6r henne ligger nittiotre nationella prov i engelska. Alla or\u00e4ttade. Dom hon borde ha b\u00f6rjat r\u00e4tta f\u00f6rra veckan. Kollegor har b\u00f6rjat fr\u00e5ga efter dom. Proven som hon nu bara stirrar p\u00e5. Hon tar \u00e4nnu en klunk av av vinet och l\u00e5ter alla dess smaker rulla runt i munh\u00e5llans alla utrymmen. Fylla den. Njuter. Smaken som av en f\u00f6rsta kyss. Brasan hon t\u00e4nde n\u00e4r hon kom hem har nu tagit sig och sprakar nu gemytligt. H\u00f6gen med nationella prov \u00e4r det enda som st\u00f6r. Hon kan inte l\u00e5ta bli att stirra p\u00e5 den. Tr\u00f6tt p\u00e5 den. S\u00e5 f\u00f6rbannat tr\u00f6tt p\u00e5 alla dessa prov. Tar den. Reser sig. Sl\u00e4nger in alla nittiotre proven i \u00f6ppna spisen.  Det tar en stund. Sen flammor dom upp. Nittotre prov brinner som en skolverkets helveteseld. Brinner intensivt och b\u00e5de r\u00e4tt och fel blir till aska d\u00e4r i spisen. Ingen kommer att grupperas i bra eller d\u00e5lig. Ingen kommer att m\u00e4tas den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen. Hon dricker sitt vin. Befriad fr\u00e5n sina bojor nu. Tar flaskan och glaset. S\u00e4tter sig i favoritf\u00e5t\u00f6ljen d\u00e4r framf\u00f6r brasan. Skyfflar in de papper som inte brunnit upp. L\u00e4gger p\u00e5 n\u00e5gra bj\u00f6rkklampar till. Lyfter upp dom bara benen p\u00e5 fotpallen.  Njuter av det som \u00e4r nu och skiter i imorgon. Bara den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hon t\u00f6mmer vinglaset. Det \u00e4r gott. Fruktigt, friskt och \u00e4nd\u00e5 med en s\u00f6tma. S\u00f6tt som bara m\u00e5ste komma fr\u00e5n v\u00e4rme och sol. I alla fall k\u00e4nns det r\u00e4tt att t\u00e4nka s\u00e5. Att det \u00e4r heta sommardagar som ligger koncentrerade d\u00e4r i druvorna, som sen i processerna, blivit blodr\u00f6tt vin i hennes glas. Hon k\u00e4nner att [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24,2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2989","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser","category-swedish"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":7913,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=7913","url_meta":{"origin":2989,"position":0},"title":"Fj\u00e4rilen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-07-14","format":false,"excerpt":"Det \u00e4r tidigt \u00e5ttiotal i en av Europas st\u00f6rsta st\u00e4der. 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