{"id":2980,"date":"2013-02-05T10:44:45","date_gmt":"2013-02-05T09:44:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=2980"},"modified":"2013-03-14T22:59:20","modified_gmt":"2013-03-14T21:59:20","slug":"det-forsta-sommarregnet","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=2980","title":{"rendered":"Det f\u00f6rsta sommarregnet"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/110729.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/110729.jpg?resize=580%2C387\" alt=\"110729\" width=\"580\" height=\"387\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-2981\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>En av dom f\u00f6rsta sk\u00e4lvande dagarna av Juni. \u00c5rets f\u00f6rsta regn faller p\u00e5 eftermiddagen. Moln fr\u00e5n England f\u00e4ller droppar fr\u00e5n tv\u00e5tusen meters h\u00f6jd. Moln som tagit med sig dunstande vattenmolekyler fr\u00e5n den o\u00e4ndliga Atlanten. Engelsm\u00e4nnen har s\u00e4kert redan f\u00e5tt sin del. Nu \u00e4r det v\u00e5r tur. Varma tunga droppar tr\u00e4ffar sommarens f\u00f6rsta ljusgr\u00f6na str\u00e5n i gr\u00e4smattan d\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret. Den som snart beh\u00f6ver klippas f\u00f6r f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen i \u00e5r. Maskarna evakuerar sina g\u00e5ngar. Beh\u00f6ver syret. En nyckelpiga tar skydd under ett blad. Jag kan inte h\u00e5lla mig.<\/p>\n<p>Jag tar boken med mig. G\u00e5r trappan upp till vinden, d\u00e4r pl\u00e5ttaket \u00e4r n\u00e4ra. L\u00e4gger mig rakl\u00e5ng p\u00e5 golvet. P\u00e5 den gamla slitna trasmattan, den som mormor v\u00e4vt.  Lyssnar. Visst finns det d\u00e4r. Ljudet av regn mot pl\u00e5ttak. Jag beh\u00f6ver inte boken. Det r\u00e4cker med att bara ligga d\u00e4r och lyssna. Bilderna kommer till mig. Unga grabbar p\u00e5 en annan vind under ett annat pl\u00e5ttak i en annan tid. Stegen som beh\u00f6vdes f\u00f6r att ta sig dit. Porrtidningar. Ja dom var nog inte s\u00e5 farliga. Snus. Ett knyckligt paket Prins. Solt\u00e4ndstickor. Allt f\u00f6rbjudet. Allt det hemliga. S\u00e4kert ocks\u00e5 en sommardag som den h\u00e4r. Sommarlov, sp\u00f6khistorier och ficklampor. Mammor som ropade &#8220;mat&#8221;. Kr\u00e5kan med den skadade vingen. Den som dog efter n\u00e5gra dagar. Ville inte \u00e4ta. Ville inte leva. Var jag lycklig? Kanske. Jag minns inte. Melankolin har alltid varit en del av mig d\u00e5 som nu. Jag har alltid k\u00e4nt mig utanf\u00f6r och som jag aldrig h\u00f6rt till. Men jag ler \u00e5t minnet.<\/p>\n<p>Regnet avtar. Hamrar inte l\u00e4ngre utan knackar nu \u00f6dmjukt och f\u00f6rsiktigt och mer s\u00e4llan mot pl\u00e5ttaket. I stupr\u00e4nnorna forsar det fortfarande. Vattnet fr\u00e5n Atlanten. Det som valar och delfiner simmat s\u00e5 graci\u00f6st i innan det fick kraft fr\u00e5n solen att seglade upp mot himlen. Vatten som nu \u00e4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4g tillbaks till oceanerna igen. F\u00f6rst b\u00e4cken h\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r. Sen Voxnan, Ljusnan och s\u00e5 till havet igen.<\/p>\n<p>Jag ligger d\u00e4r p\u00e5 trasmattan p\u00e5 golvet i vindsrummet.  Rummet som vi s\u00e5 og\u00e4rna g\u00e5r in i n\u00e4r det \u00e4r m\u00f6rkt. I alla fall ensamma. Nu \u00e4r det ljust och n\u00e4stan tyst. Finns inget att vara r\u00e4dd f\u00f6r. Den gula gamla tramporgeln st\u00e5r d\u00e4r. Den som h\u00f6r till skolsalarna. Den \u00e4r tyst den ocks\u00e5. Det var l\u00e4nge sedan n\u00e5gon spelade psalmer p\u00e5 den. Sj\u00e4lv ligger jag bara d\u00e4r. L\u00e5ter tankar och minne passera. Somnar. Sover tills m\u00f6rkret och natten smyger sig p\u00e5. Dr\u00f6mmer inte. Vaknar i m\u00f6rkret och undrar var jag \u00e4r. Orgeln spelar fortfarande inte. Regnet har upph\u00f6rt. Det \u00e4r kyligare. Jag fryser lite. M\u00f6rkret g\u00f6r mig r\u00e4dd. S\u00e5 jag reser mig. Famlar mig ner f\u00f6r trappan i m\u00f6rkret. K\u00e4nner blicken p\u00e5 min rygg. Vem ser mig nu?  Jag st\u00e4nger den inne bakom en st\u00e4ngd vindsd\u00f6rr. Den jag g\u00e5tt ut genom. Ryser till. Utan anledning? Inbillning? Kastar bort k\u00e4nslan och \u00e5terv\u00e4nder till nuet. Sommaren \u00e4r h\u00e4r p\u00e5 riktigt nu. I n\u00e4sta regn skall jag dansa naken till Evert Taube med bara r\u00e5djur och kr\u00e5kor som publik.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>En av dom f\u00f6rsta sk\u00e4lvande dagarna av Juni. \u00c5rets f\u00f6rsta regn faller p\u00e5 eftermiddagen. Moln fr\u00e5n England f\u00e4ller droppar fr\u00e5n tv\u00e5tusen meters h\u00f6jd. Moln som tagit med sig dunstande vattenmolekyler fr\u00e5n den o\u00e4ndliga Atlanten. Engelsm\u00e4nnen har s\u00e4kert redan f\u00e5tt sin del. Nu \u00e4r det v\u00e5r tur. 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