{"id":29513,"date":"2018-08-09T20:27:09","date_gmt":"2018-08-09T19:27:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=29513"},"modified":"2018-08-09T20:27:16","modified_gmt":"2018-08-09T19:27:16","slug":"joda-13","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=29513","title":{"rendered":"Jod\u00e5"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Tv\u00e5 kv\u00e4llar i rad. Studio. Eller “Studio”. Lyx. Det \u00e4r underbart.\u00a0 F\u00f6r mig. Kanske inte f\u00f6r n\u00e5gon annan. I det d\u00e4r fallet r\u00e4cker egen njutning. Mer \u00e4n nog.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi badar idag. K hoppar i som ett pro. Jag tvekar. L\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4nge. Men kommer ocks\u00e5 i till slut. Blundar och sjunker i med t\u00f6mt huvud. Som ett fallsk\u00e4rmshopp. Kallt. M\u00e4rker att jag inte l\u00e4ngre kan simma. Axel igen. F\u00e5r vandra omkring. Nedhukad. Duger inte ens l\u00e4ngre som andrahandsmarknadsmaterial. Nope. En spillra av den jag var. Redan nu. Ja och d\u00e5 var jag inte mycket att ha innan heller.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Konstaterar att vinterbadare m\u00e5ste vara galna. “Frivilligt”. Liksom!?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men sommar h\u00e4r fortfarande. En underbar kv\u00e4ll just nu. Augusti. N\u00e4r augusti \u00e4r som b\u00e4st. Jag planerar \u00e5terigen f\u00f6r lite studiotid. Eller “studio”-tid d\u00e5. P\u00e5 s\u00f6ndagskv\u00e4ll v\u00e4cker vi kodaren igen. Sugen. Men skulle kunna skippa det ocks\u00e5. Forts\u00e4tta s\u00e5h\u00e4r. Bara se p\u00e5. Aldrig \u00e5terv\u00e4nda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Steven King skriver om en Amerikansk f\u00f6rfattare som l\u00e5ter en svart person i sin bok prata som en svart person. F\u00e5r r\u00e4nna gatlopp och be om urs\u00e4kt f\u00f6r det, eftersom han sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r vit. S\u00e5 f\u00e5r man inte g\u00f6ra. Var \u00e4r vi p\u00e5 v\u00e4g? Alla \u00e4r s\u00e5 f\u00f6rbannat k\u00e4nsliga. Gynnar den d\u00e4r k\u00e4nsligheten n\u00e5gon endaste en?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag fattar v\u00e4l inte. Fast tror p\u00e5 solidaritet och lika m\u00e4nniskors lika v\u00e4rde. Fast s\u00e5dana v\u00e4rderingar \u00e4r v\u00e4l gammaldags numera. Ute. Renat av dumma. “Roffa \u00e5t dig”. Ist\u00e4llet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast \u00e5tminstone \u00e4r jag i alla fall inte till salu. Inte nu. Inte f\u00f6rr.\u00a0 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Egentligen skulle bilen bara f\u00e5tt forts\u00e4tta efter v\u00e4garna mot m\u00e5l man inte visste fanns idag. Suget finns d\u00e4r. Men inte bensinen. Men H\u00e4lsingska berg och en sj\u00f6 som \u00e4r alldeles egen just d\u00e4r f\u00f6r en stund \u00e4r inte illa det heller.\u00a0 Man gl\u00f6mmer l\u00e4tt de verkliga v\u00e4rdena h\u00e4r uppe. Hur v\u00e4rdefulla de \u00e4r. Allt det d\u00e4r som finns alldeles gratis runt omkring en. Lingonberg. Mansj\u00f6n. Forsr\u00e4nningen. Stupet nedtill helvetet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bensinen r\u00e4cker inte till Lillhelvetet. Tyv\u00e4rr. Inte idag. Jag tror att namnet har sitt ursprung i en skogsarbetarkoja placerad just d\u00e4r. Voxnan rinner strax bredvid. All den kalla luften f\u00f6ljer samma v\u00e4g som vattnet. Inget en tr\u00f6tt, hungrig, bl\u00f6t och frusen skogsarbetare i sin koja uppskattar n\u00e4r dagen \u00e4r slut d\u00e4r p\u00e5 hygget och termometern bara sjunker och sjunker. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00e4r ger jag mig. Men ger upp? Aldrig!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Tv\u00e5 kv\u00e4llar i rad. Studio. Eller “Studio”. Lyx. Det \u00e4r underbart.\u00a0 F\u00f6r mig. Kanske inte f\u00f6r n\u00e5gon annan. I det d\u00e4r fallet r\u00e4cker egen njutning. Mer \u00e4n nog. Vi badar idag. K hoppar i som ett pro. Jag tvekar. L\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4nge. Men kommer ocks\u00e5 i till slut. Blundar och sjunker i med t\u00f6mt huvud. 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