{"id":28802,"date":"2018-06-05T08:17:27","date_gmt":"2018-06-05T07:17:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=28802"},"modified":"2018-06-05T08:17:27","modified_gmt":"2018-06-05T07:17:27","slug":"till-synes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=28802","title":{"rendered":"Till synes"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-28803\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/Screenshot-from-2018-06-05-08-39-49-1024x812.png?resize=580%2C460\" alt=\"\" width=\"580\" height=\"460\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/Screenshot-from-2018-06-05-08-39-49.png?resize=1024%2C812&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/Screenshot-from-2018-06-05-08-39-49.png?resize=300%2C238&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/Screenshot-from-2018-06-05-08-39-49.png?resize=768%2C609&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/Screenshot-from-2018-06-05-08-39-49.png?resize=378%2C300&amp;ssl=1 378w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/Screenshot-from-2018-06-05-08-39-49.png?w=1033&amp;ssl=1 1033w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Fr\u00e5gan ig\u00e5r vid pass tolv var om man skulle b\u00e4ra in v\u00e4xter eller ej.\u00a0 Men med is i magen fick de stanna ute och det gick ju bra synes. Ja om sanningen skall fram s\u00e5 var det kanske en hel del tr\u00f6tt Hedman inblandat ocks\u00e5 i det d\u00e4r. Men tur. Nya v\u00e4xter v\u00e4xer n\u00e4mligen inte p\u00e5 tr\u00e4d. Liksom.<\/p>\n<p>En till j\u00e4rnnatt i natt. Nya beslut.D\u00e5.<\/p>\n<p>De jag k\u00e4nner \u00e4r i S\u00f6lvesborg. Sweden Rock. Var skulle de annars vara? Liksom.<\/p>\n<p>Sj\u00e4lv har jag aldrig varit d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c5tminstone inte n\u00e4r Sweden Rock har infunnit sig.<\/p>\n<p>Synd.<\/p>\n<p>Liksom.<\/p>\n<p>Men K och jag har \u00e4tit en pizza i S\u00f6lvesborg.<\/p>\n<p>Den smakade gott.<\/p>\n<p>Kan jag meddela.<\/p>\n<p>Det bl\u00e5ser. N\u00e5gon v\u00e4derstation har jag inte f\u00e5tt upp \u00e4nnu. Att det skall vara s\u00e5 sv\u00e5rt? Mycket sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n vad jag trott. Men det \u00e4r en massa annat i v\u00e4gen. Det \u00e4r en hel del som liksom m\u00e5ste fixas. Som inte fixar sig sj\u00e4lv. Och i allt det d\u00e4r finns n\u00e5gon slags prioritetsordning. Ja och i den hamnar v\u00e4derstationen och andra roliga projekt l\u00e5ngt, l\u00e5ngt bak.<\/p>\n<p>Jag inser ju ocks\u00e5 jag att man borde ge upp. En hel v\u00e4rld st\u00e5r ju dessutom och skriker det \u00e5t ens h\u00e5ll. De flesta i min \u00e5lder har gett upp f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge, l\u00e4nge sedan. ja faktum \u00e4r att majoriteten gav upp i trettio\u00e5rs\u00e5ldern. &#8220;Varf\u00f6r skall man dr\u00f6mma liksom?&#8221; S\u00e5 i det fallet finns det v\u00e4l inget att sk\u00e4mmas f\u00f6r om jag fl\u00e4mtande l\u00e4gger mig ned. Jag har i alla fall f\u00f6rs\u00f6kt.<\/p>\n<p>Ja det \u00e4r s\u00e5d\u00e4r jag t\u00e4nker ig\u00e5r n\u00e4r jag tr\u00f6skar igenom dokumentation. Flytar fr\u00e5n Dokuwiki tiill Markdown. Det \u00e4r trist, URTRIST!!!, s\u00e5 j\u00e4kla trist och mekaniskt att jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att g\u00e5 s\u00f6nder. Femte dagen. Det \u00e4r mycket kvar. Det finns varesig l\u00f6n eller klapp p\u00e5 axeln att v\u00e4nta n\u00e4r det \u00e4r klart. Bara mer saker att fixa. Med samma premisser. Inte konstigt att tankarna g\u00e5r \u00e5t det d\u00e4r h\u00e5let. Man kunde vila. L\u00e4sa b\u00f6cker. G\u00f6ra musik. G\u00e5 p\u00e5 skogspromenader.<\/p>\n<p>Ist\u00e4llet.<\/p>\n<p>Fast jag skulle nog falla ihop av uttr\u00e5kning d\u00e5. Japp, Troligen. Om jag inte fick f\u00f6lja och leva en av de d\u00e4r visionerna som b\u00e4r mig.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 jag forts\u00e4tter.<\/p>\n<p>Timme efter timme.<\/p>\n<p>Sten f\u00f6r sten.<\/p>\n<p>Det \u00e4r konstigt.<\/p>\n<p>Liksom.<\/p>\n<p>N\u00e4r jag jobbade som l\u00e4rare kom jag hem p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llarna. K\u00e4kade lite. Planerade morgondagen om det beh\u00f6vdes. R\u00e4ttade prov ibland.\u00a0 Sen l\u00e5tsasjobbade jag med VSCP till tolv eller ett. Det finns en m\u00e4rklig kraft i att vilja \u00e5stadkomma n\u00e5got.\u00a0 En kraft som \u00e4r sv\u00e5r att f\u00f6rklara. En energik\u00e4lla.<\/p>\n<p>Fast galet s\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n<p>Men det \u00e4r inte de som tittar p\u00e5 tv som f\u00f6r\u00e4ndrar v\u00e4rlden.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c5 andra sidan g\u00f6r de flesta av dem som inte g\u00f6r det heller.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n<p>Men just det handlar \u00e4nd\u00e5 mest om att ha folk runt omkring sig som lyfter och st\u00f6ttar.<\/p>\n<p>Det d\u00e4r om den starka ensamvargen \u00e4r bara en myt. Uppfunnen och p\u00e5kommen av vargen sj\u00e4lv.<\/p>\n<p>Alla f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker f\u00f6rsvara sitt existensber\u00e4ttigande.<\/p>\n<p>Fast vi bara \u00e4r som myror i en myrstack f\u00f6r den utomst\u00e5ende betraktaren.<\/p>\n<p>Det \u00e4r lika sv\u00e5rt att se p\u00e5 sig sj\u00e4lv som en av dem som att se sig sj\u00e4lv i spegeln och f\u00f6rst\u00e5 att man inte kommer att finnas med i v\u00e4rlden f\u00f6r evigt.<\/p>\n<p>Vad\u00e5, tar det slut liksom?<\/p>\n<p>Synd!<\/p>\n<p>Det h\u00e4r som var s\u00e5 skoj.<\/p>\n<p>Ja ibland&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Men musik, musik maestro, l\u00e5t Spotify fylla rummet med musik fr\u00e5n de som skapar. Japp Spotify \u00e4r ungef\u00e4r bara som en lastbil. Levererar varor. Inte mer. Inte s\u00e5 j\u00e4vla m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigt om man t\u00e4nker efter. Fast bra. Japp som lastbilen.<\/p>\n<p>Nu s\u00e5. Det f\u00e5r vara nog. Dokuwiki -&gt; Markdown. Man kan ha roligare. Jag lovar.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Fr\u00e5gan ig\u00e5r vid pass tolv var om man skulle b\u00e4ra in v\u00e4xter eller ej.\u00a0 Men med is i magen fick de stanna ute och det gick ju bra synes. Ja om sanningen skall fram s\u00e5 var det kanske en hel del tr\u00f6tt Hedman inblandat ocks\u00e5 i det d\u00e4r. Men tur. Nya v\u00e4xter v\u00e4xer n\u00e4mligen inte [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28802","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":8366,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=8366","url_meta":{"origin":28802,"position":0},"title":"Gammelnoja igen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-08-11","format":false,"excerpt":"M\u00e5ste fundera hur gammal jag blir n\u00e4r det \u00e4r dags att fylla \u00e5r igen n\u00e5gon g\u00e5ng senare i h\u00f6st. 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