{"id":28657,"date":"2018-05-25T17:20:11","date_gmt":"2018-05-25T16:20:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=28657"},"modified":"2018-05-25T17:20:39","modified_gmt":"2018-05-25T16:20:39","slug":"28657","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=28657","title":{"rendered":"Tjugotre"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Det \u00e4r v\u00e4rmen man kommer komma ih\u00e5g den h\u00e4r dagen f\u00f6r. Tjugotre grader klockan arton. Det var sexton klockan fyra inatt. Magiskt. Grannen ville l\u00e4gga allt i en p\u00e5se och spara. Japp s\u00e5 kan man s\u00e5klart ocks\u00e5 g\u00f6ra. Sj\u00e4lv vill jag ha allt det h\u00e4r nu. Ta in. Precis som jag vill ha det mesta levererat och avnjutet.<\/p>\n

Koltrasten \u00e4r stundtals galen. M\u00f6jligen handlar det om kondition. Han klarar inte l\u00e4ngre pass \u00e4n vad jag g\u00f6r. K\u00f6r intensivt en stund, sen tyst l\u00e4nge. Men det \u00e4r s\u00e5klart sj\u00e4lvklart v\u00e4rda att v\u00e4nta p\u00e5 hans drillar. Det vackraste som finns \u00e4r Koltrastens s\u00e5ng. Ja om du fr\u00e5gar mig.<\/p>\n

Jag skriver manualer mest hela dan. Skriver om. Det \u00e4r tr\u00f6stl\u00f6st och tr\u00f6ttande. Tar upp det d\u00e4r n\u00e4sta vecka igen. Som kommen fr\u00e5n bondsl\u00e4kt som jag \u00e4r s\u00e5 \u00e4ts det h\u00e4rskna fl\u00e4sket, den d\u00e5liga potatisen och det m\u00f6gliga br\u00f6det f\u00f6rst. Det kan inte hj\u00e4lpas att metoden har nackdelen att man alltid \u00e4ter just det d\u00e4r som \u00e4r d\u00e5ligt d\u00e5. Men lika med l\u00e5tsasjobb och riktigt jobb (om jag minns r\u00e4tt). Det tr\u00e5kiga f\u00f6rst. Allts\u00e5 man g\u00f6r s\u00e4llan roliga saker. L\u00e4s aldrig.<\/p>\n

Fast skall man sl\u00e4ppa grejer s\u00e5 \u00e4r det s\u00e4llan skoj \u00e4nd\u00e5. Handlar mest om disciplin. Att n\u00e5 n\u00e5got slags “klart”. Nirvana. Man f\u00e5r uppfina ett nytt st\u00e4lle och kala det “Nirvana” varje g\u00e5ng. F\u00f6r “framme” \u00e4r man aldrig. Alltid bara n\u00e4stan.<\/p>\n

Skjuter iv\u00e4g r\u00e4kningarna idag. Och OJ! det blir pengar kvar. Det \u00e4r Hulken-vilar-tider. Icke-eldningss\u00e4song. Livet \u00e4r l\u00e4ttare. Men \u00e5 andra sidan mycket som skall fixas och hinnas med innan n\u00e4sta eldningss\u00e4song b\u00f6rjar. Rundg\u00e5ngen. \u00c4r inte vi alla i det d\u00e4r hjulet? Springer f\u00f6r v\u00e5ra liv.<\/p>\n

K \u00e4r p\u00e5 filmpremi\u00e4r. B\u00e4sta stassen p\u00e5. Snygg. Hoppas det blir skoj. Fest hela natten gissar jag om jag k\u00e4nner det glada g\u00e4nget.<\/p>\n

Sj\u00e4lv h\u00e5ller jag mig hemma. Alla f\u00f6nster \u00f6ppna. Redo f\u00f6r den stora kometen. Eller att himlen skall fall ner \u00f6ver v\u00e5ra huvuden. Nej d\u00e5. Det \u00e4r lugnt. Jag vandrar p\u00e5. Lite krisf\u00f6rst\u00f6rd kanske av sv\u00e5r\u00e5r. Men det vore v\u00e4l underligt annars. Det r\u00f6r sig fram\u00e5t. Man f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker undvika att t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 att det \u00e4r d\u00f6den som \u00e4r \u00e4ndstation och att den n\u00e4rmar sig. En hamn, inte ett hot. Inte l\u00e4ngre.<\/p>\n

Biblioteket. S\u00e5 mycket b\u00f6cker.\u00a0 Stackars barn som m\u00e5ste st\u00e4da undan allt det d\u00e4r en dag. B\u00f6cker \u00e4r tunga. Men kanske g\u00e5r det att st\u00e4lla en container under f\u00f6nstret. Fylla den. V\u00e4rdet minskar. Papper kan eldas. Orden d\u00e4r i kan gl\u00f6mmas.\u00a0 Det \u00e4r mest k\u00e4nslom\u00e4ssigt. Rummet, som vi kallar “biblioteket”, \u00e4r v\u00e4l det det med. Men glad att ha det. I mitt barndomshem fanns en bibel och “Gropen i skogen” av \u00c5ke Wassing.\u00a0 Det \u00e4r rummet \u00e4r en eftergift \u00e5t lyxen att \u00e4ga mycket av n\u00e5gonting. Ord. Bokst\u00e4ver. Kunskap.<\/p>\n

Nu mat. Helg. Vila.<\/p>\n

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Det \u00e4r v\u00e4rmen man kommer komma ih\u00e5g den h\u00e4r dagen f\u00f6r. Tjugotre grader klockan arton. Det var sexton klockan fyra inatt. Magiskt. Grannen ville l\u00e4gga allt i en p\u00e5se och spara. Japp s\u00e5 kan man s\u00e5klart ocks\u00e5 g\u00f6ra. Sj\u00e4lv vill jag ha allt det h\u00e4r nu. Ta in. 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