{"id":27522,"date":"2018-03-11T23:17:15","date_gmt":"2018-03-11T22:17:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=27522"},"modified":"2018-03-11T23:17:15","modified_gmt":"2018-03-11T22:17:15","slug":"dodsangeln","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=27522","title":{"rendered":"D\u00f6ds\u00e4ngeln"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-27523\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/IMG_20180309_081217079-1024x576.jpg?resize=580%2C327\" alt=\"\" width=\"580\" height=\"327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/IMG_20180309_081217079.jpg?resize=1024%2C576&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/IMG_20180309_081217079.jpg?resize=300%2C169&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/IMG_20180309_081217079.jpg?resize=768%2C432&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/IMG_20180309_081217079.jpg?resize=500%2C281&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/IMG_20180309_081217079.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/IMG_20180309_081217079.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Det pratas sn\u00f6, sn\u00f6 som skall dimpa ner, tynga, ligga d\u00e4r och skr\u00e4pa, vit och vacker visserligen, n\u00e5ja bl\u00e5 nu den h\u00e4r tiden p\u00e5 \u00e5ret. Allts\u00e5 den som skall komma i morgon. Ner fr\u00e5n himlarna. En decimeter till. Troligen mer. Sen skall den v\u00e4l skottas bort ocks\u00e5. Av mig och andra. Ja s\u00e5 att man kan oja sig \u00f6ver ond axel. Som om den kunde skyllas f\u00f6r n\u00e5got endaste ett den stackarn. Den sitter d\u00e4r en sitter. Har gjort sitt jobb utan att knota i m\u00e5nga \u00e5r. Och nu. Klagar lite. Med r\u00e4tta. Kan inte annat. G\u00f6r det ont s\u00e5 g\u00f6r det ont.<\/p>\n<p>Men det tar sig. Vasaloppet har g\u00e5tt. Efter det kommer v\u00e5ren. Vad det lider. Man f\u00e5r ha t\u00e5lamod.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00f6dsf\u00e5geln sv\u00e4vade \u00f6ver byn idag. Bullrandes. S\u00e5 fort man h\u00f6r den, helikoptern, ambulanshelikoptern, den som kallas ut vid prio #1, s\u00e5 t\u00e4nker man p\u00e5 liemannen. Vem skall han h\u00e4mta den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen. Jod\u00e5, visst, vi g\u00f6r den sista resan med stil h\u00e4r uppe i skogen. Fint skall det vara. Om man inte lyckas d\u00f6 f\u00f6rst vill s\u00e4ga. D\u00e5 blir det likbil som f\u00f6r alla andra. Eller ambulans. Men hj\u00e4rtattack och stroke som inte tar en direkt ger en ambulanshelikoptertur. M\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger den sista. OCH den f\u00f6rsta dessutom f\u00f6r de flesta. Idag s\u00e4nker sig d\u00f6ds\u00e4ngeln ner vid ICA aff\u00e4ren. Lyfter igen efter en kvart. Ryktet s\u00e4ger att allt gick bra den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen. Vad &#8220;bra&#8221; inneb\u00e4r vet inte s\u00e5dana som mig. Det d\u00e4r beror v\u00e4l p\u00e5 om man tror p\u00e5 han\/hon\/det\/gud och l\u00e4ngtas dit eller inte.<\/p>\n<p>Jag \u00e4r n\u00f6jd om jag f\u00e5r finnas i j\u00e4mmerdalen n\u00e5gra \u00e5r till.<\/p>\n<p>Alltid retar just det n\u00e5gon.<\/p>\n<p>Allts\u00e5 gl\u00e4djer det mig.<\/p>\n<p>En snabb tur till Ljusdal p\u00e5 fredagen. Plus femtio orrar p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen. Antagligen \u00e4r det s\u00e5 j\u00e4vla mycket sn\u00f6 att orrspel \u00e4r uteslutet i skogarna. Finns bara v\u00e4garna kvar att k\u00e4mpa p\u00e5. Vi st\u00f6r s\u00e5klart med den mullrande Franska bilen. Man ber om urs\u00e4kt. Mumlande. Orrspel \u00e4r magnifikt. Men efter n\u00e5gon kilometer ett till. Men f\u00e4rre den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen . Tjugo kanske. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker filma. Men de f\u00f6rblir prickar. F\u00f6rsvinner l\u00e5ngt innan vi hinner fram den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen.<\/p>\n<p>En g\u00e5ng var vi n\u00e4ra att frysa ihj\u00e4l en orrspelsmorgon. Kylan \u00f6verraskade oss. En skogsmus som kr\u00f6p rakt \u00f6ver min kropp v\u00e4ckte mig. Annars vette fan hur det hade g\u00e5tt. Med stela h\u00e4nder som inte kunde greppa en t\u00e4ndsticksask fick vi fart p\u00e5 en brasa till slut. Tinade upp vad det led. Under minus tjugo i ett fotog\u00f6msle. Bilderna fick vi skita i den g\u00e5ngen.<\/p>\n<p>Det finns annars inget som att sitta i ett g\u00f6msle med en kamera mitt i skogen n\u00e4r dagen gryr och iaktta. Som unga gjorde vi det d\u00e4r m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger. Nu, l\u00e4nge sedan. Som med allt.<\/p>\n<p>Det har varit en vaknare helg \u00e4n vanligt . Mer aktivitet allts\u00e5. Trotts mosigheten. Ja mossighet finnes ocks\u00e5. I rikliga m\u00e4ngder. Som man kan f\u00f6rv\u00e4nta sig.<\/p>\n<p>Edsbyn vinner allts\u00e5 semifinal. Jag blir Edsbybo redan i kvarten. Det brukar h\u00e5lla i \u00f6ver finalen det d\u00e4r. \u00c5tminstone och max dit. Jod\u00e5, jag \u00e4r smyg-Edsbybo under resten av \u00e5ret ocks\u00e5. Har en rot kvar d\u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 tror jag. Trotts det d\u00e4r rotl\u00f6sa inom mig.<\/p>\n<p>Tony ringer p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen hem fr\u00e5n Ljusdal. Vi var v\u00e4nner f\u00f6rr. Ungdomsv\u00e4nner. Ja, \u00e4r v\u00e4l v\u00e4nner nu med. Han har h\u00e5llit kontakten under alla \u00e5r. Ringer d\u00e5 och d\u00e5. Jag d\u00e4remot har varit s\u00e4mre p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r. Har alltid s\u00e5 sv\u00e5rt f\u00f6r det d\u00e4r oanm\u00e4lda. R\u00e4dd att st\u00f6ra. L\u00f6jligt, ja jag vet. Men vi pratar en timme. Det blir n\u00e4stan bara prat om sjukdomar. Gamlingsprat. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 f\u00f6rbannat mycket sjukhus och operationer nu f\u00f6r tiden. Kn\u00e4leder, ryggar, och allt vad det \u00e4r som byts och lagas. Vi h\u00f6rs v\u00e4l igen om ett halv\u00e5r eller ett \u00e5r. Om vi lever s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge.<\/p>\n<p>Men l\u00e4gga sig. Det \u00e4r dags. Hulken f\u00f6rst s\u00e5klart. Sen boken en timme. Skall ta blodtrycket p\u00e5 h\u00e4lsocentralen imorgon. M\u00f6ta m\u00e4nskligheten. Det \u00e4r inte varje dag. Vilken plats jag har i operationsk\u00f6n framg\u00e5r dock inte. D\u00e4rifr\u00e5n h\u00f6rs inte ett knyst. Men det k\u00e4nns OK. Jag har ingen br\u00e5dska. Eldningss\u00e4songen f\u00e5r g\u00e4rna passera innan operationerna tar vid. Tonys farsa dog f\u00f6rresten p\u00e5 operationsbordet. Under en standardoperation. Det \u00e4r ju s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r man inte vill t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 n\u00e4r man har tv\u00e5 framf\u00f6r sig sj\u00e4lv. Men jag har r\u00e4knat med att d\u00f6 vid de tidigare. S\u00e5 varf\u00f6r ha en mer optimistisk inst\u00e4llning till det hela den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen? Fast oftast g\u00e5r det ju bra. Liksom. Fast nu blodtryck.\u00a0 Det k\u00e4nns ju d\u00e4remot inte s\u00e5 v\u00e4ldigt m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigt och oroande.<\/p>\n<p>Nu Hulken, l\u00e4sa sova. Ja tandborstning d\u00e4remellan.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Det pratas sn\u00f6, sn\u00f6 som skall dimpa ner, tynga, ligga d\u00e4r och skr\u00e4pa, vit och vacker visserligen, n\u00e5ja bl\u00e5 nu den h\u00e4r tiden p\u00e5 \u00e5ret. Allts\u00e5 den som skall komma i morgon. Ner fr\u00e5n himlarna. En decimeter till. Troligen mer. Sen skall den v\u00e4l skottas bort ocks\u00e5. Av mig och andra. 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