Den d\u00e4r k\u00e4nslan, precis innan man trycker p\u00e5 startknappen, ja i mitt fall, vrider p\u00e5 startnyckeln, k\u00e4nner jag varje g\u00e5ng jag befinner mig n\u00e5gra mil hemifr\u00e5n och skall starta bilen. Japp inser logiskt att grabbarna d\u00e4r p\u00e5 m\u00e5nen, som sk\u00f6t upp sig till moderskeppet, var i en mycket mer utsatt situation. Men det skiter tyv\u00e4rr den d\u00e4r k\u00e4nslan i min kropp i. Inget logik r\u00e5r p\u00e5. Jag \u00e4r en fegis som aldrig kommer komma i n\u00e4rheten av det mod som grabbarna som satt i m\u00e5nfarkosterna visade. Japp, bara att erk\u00e4nna, klara av, f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka s\u00e4tta bilstartsf\u00f6rs\u00f6k i n\u00e5gon slags proportion till verkligheten. Liksom.<\/p>\n
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