{"id":26440,"date":"2017-12-27T11:52:31","date_gmt":"2017-12-27T10:52:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=26440"},"modified":"2017-12-27T11:52:31","modified_gmt":"2017-12-27T10:52:31","slug":"forsoker","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=26440","title":{"rendered":"F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Julhelgen har passerat och man har \u00f6verlevt. Antalet d\u00e5liga filmer har helt s\u00e4kert varit tillr\u00e4ckligt m\u00e5nga f\u00f6r att man skall kunna kalla det en riktig helg, K vinner i Geni och jag kommer sist. Allts\u00e5 precis som det skall vara. Magen putar bet\u00e4nkligt. Livremmen anv\u00e4nder h\u00e5l man tidigare inte visste fanns. Men m\u00e4rkligt mycket mat kvar i sk\u00e5pen. Ot\u00e4ckt s\u00e5d\u00e4r. H\u00e4r kastas s\u00e4llan mat. Den skall \u00e4tas upp. Men lite kanske kan skickas med J. som skall hem till l\u00e4rdomsstaden igen idag. Men inte ens han orkar b\u00e4ra med sig de m\u00e4ngder som ligger och dr\u00e4ller h\u00e4r och var i f\u00f6rr\u00e5den och v\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 att sv\u00e4ljas.<\/p>\n

Jod\u00e5 sn\u00f6 dimper det ocks\u00e5 ner. Tre decimeter s\u00e4ger grannen. S\u00e5 d\u00e5 best\u00e4mmer vi m\u00e4ngden till det. Jag har ingen koll. Skottar lite l\u00e4tt framf\u00f6r bron nu p\u00e5 morgonen. Resten tar stor gul traktor l\u00e5ngt innan fem i morse och en del ig\u00e5r. Trotts den lilla m\u00e4ngden jag hanterar s\u00e5 f\u00e5r jag s\u00e5klart mer ont i axeln. F\u00f6r mina synders skull antar jag. De \u00e4r tillr\u00e4ckligt m\u00e5nga f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga dagars ont kan man tro. Men man har det som man f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar. Aldrig mer eller mindre. Fast det d\u00e4r sista var s\u00e5klart inte helt korrekt och sant. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l d\u00e4rf\u00f6r m\u00e4nniskorna uppfann helvetet och himlen. Tron p\u00e5 n\u00e5gon slags r\u00e4ttvisa till slut \u00e4nd\u00e5. Usch va m\u00e5nga m\u00e5ste ha blivit besvikna n\u00e4r de bara fann m\u00f6rker. Skit ocks\u00e5 liksom. Pratarna regerar s\u00e4kert i efterv\u00e4rlden ocks\u00e5. Dom och de till synes snygga.<\/p>\n

Sj\u00e4lv f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker jag hitta en ing\u00e5ng in i l\u00e5tsasarbetande. Det g\u00e5r s\u00e5d\u00e4r kan jag meddela. Man tycks ha angripits av soffpotatisam\u00f6ban. Vill bara sova och helst g\u00f6ra det p\u00e5 arml\u00e4ngds avst\u00e5nd fr\u00e5n en chokladask. Inte ens kaffe hj\u00e4lper speciellt mycket. Sl\u00f6fickssyndromet har liksom tagit \u00f6ver alla hj\u00e4rnans funktioner. Men bra det d\u00e4r. Antar jag. Bra att man \u00e4r l\u00e5ngt l\u00e5ngt nere i vilol\u00e4ge till slut. \u00c5terh\u00e4mtning h\u00e4r. Den kan f\u00e5r ta n\u00e5gra dagar. Det \u00e4r ingen br\u00e5dska med n\u00e5gonting egentligen.<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 l\u00e5t dagen forts\u00e4tta. S\u00e5h\u00e4r. Som den \u00e4r. Som en bok man inte vet hur den slutar f\u00f6rr\u00e4n ikv\u00e4ll, som man vill ta sig igenom, som man \u00e4r nyfiken p\u00e5. S\u00e5 \u00e4r mina dagar. Oftast. Visst m\u00e5ste v\u00e4l det anses vara en ynnest och en g\u00e5va?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Julhelgen har passerat och man har \u00f6verlevt. Antalet d\u00e5liga filmer har helt s\u00e4kert varit tillr\u00e4ckligt m\u00e5nga f\u00f6r att man skall kunna kalla det en riktig helg, K vinner i Geni och jag kommer sist. Allts\u00e5 precis som det skall vara. Magen putar bet\u00e4nkligt. Livremmen anv\u00e4nder h\u00e5l man tidigare inte visste fanns. 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