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Upp tidigt. Vi skall iv\u00e4g och fylla p\u00e5 julf\u00f6rr\u00e5d. H\u00e4mta k\u00e4r son vid t\u00e5g dessutom. Vi klarar av det mesta av det d\u00e4r innan t\u00e5get ang\u00f6r stationen n och jag. N\u00e5gra \u00e4renden till och sen hem igen. Klara. N\u00e4stan \u00e5tminstone. Jag somnar utmattad p\u00e5 soffan. S\u00f6nerna tar in tre pallar pellets. Det \u00e4r jag tacksam f\u00f6r. Fast jag vet inget om det s\u00e5klart d\u00e4r jag ligger d\u00e4r p\u00e5 soffan och snarkar.<\/p>\n
Det \u00e4r jul h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen. Ja den \u00e4r h\u00e4r nu. Det skall bli sk\u00f6nt med n\u00e5gra dagar ledigt. Att f\u00e5 fylla batterier och mage.<\/p>\n
Andra ser en p\u00e5 ett s\u00e4tt om de sj\u00e4lva best\u00e4mmer. Man kan inte g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got \u00e5t att det \u00e4r s\u00e5. Man \u00e4r allts\u00e5 ocks\u00e5 n\u00e5got annat, en annan,\u00a0 \u00e4n den man tror \u00e4r. I andras \u00f6gon. Och man \u00e4r s\u00e5klart ansvarig f\u00f6r sitt liv och sina handlingar. Och visst man p\u00e5verkar andras m\u00e4nniskor i sin omgivning med det liv man lever. Men den man egentligen \u00e4r vet de andra ingenting om. Det man egentligen k\u00e4nner vet de ingenting om. CVilka demoner man k\u00e4mpar med har de ingen aning om.\u00a0 Precis som man sj\u00e4lv inte vet n\u00e5got av det d\u00e4r om andra heller. S\u00e5 vems fel \u00e4r det att saker blir som det blir? M\u00e5ste det alltid finnas n\u00e5gon som felat? I en v\u00e4rld byggd p\u00e5 kaos. Kanske m\u00e5ste det det. Det m\u00e5ste finnas en Jesus att s\u00e4tta p\u00e5 korset f\u00f6r syndernas f\u00f6rl\u00e5telse och f\u00f6r att slippa v\u00e5rt eget ansvar i allt.\u00a0 Jag vet inte om jag gillar det d\u00e4r. Men det s\u00e4ger v\u00e4l en del om mig ocks\u00e5 antar jag. I alla fall f\u00f6r dem som tror de vet vad som f\u00f6rsigg\u00e5r h\u00e4r inne i mig. Det \u00e4r sv\u00e5rt att leva, Man f\u00e5r ett g\u00e4ng f\u00f6ruts\u00e4ttningar som man kan spela med. F\u00e5r g\u00f6ra s\u00e5 gott man kan med dem. Trotts de brister och fel de har det d\u00e4r man f\u00e5tt \u00e4r det det enda man har. Det ser alltid s\u00e5 l\u00e4tt ut det d\u00e4r vandrandet som andra g\u00f6r i sina skor. Men \u00e4r aldrig det.<\/p>\n
Men nu allts\u00e5 Jul. Vill \u00f6nska mina l\u00e4sare en riktigt god jul. Hoppas ni f\u00e5r det riktigt fint och sk\u00f6nt nu. Det \u00e4r ni v\u00e4rda varenda en av er.<\/p>\n
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