{"id":26283,"date":"2017-12-14T23:16:12","date_gmt":"2017-12-14T22:16:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=26283"},"modified":"2017-12-14T23:16:12","modified_gmt":"2017-12-14T22:16:12","slug":"det-gor-ont","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=26283","title":{"rendered":"Det g\u00f6r ont"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Jag skall alldeles strax g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga mig. Japp tidigare \u00e4n vanligt. M\u00e5r skit. Men lyssnar p\u00e5 Amy Macdonald och det piggar ju upp en del. S\u00e5klart. Men inte ens hon biter helt och fullt p\u00e5 i kroppen h\u00e4rjande virus anhopningar\u00a0 p\u00e5 en g\u00e5ng. Men med hennes r\u00f6st och Alvedon s\u00e5 tar vi oss i alla fall tillsammans fram\u00e5t. N\u00e5gra stenar har \u00e4nd\u00e5 lagts p\u00e5 andra stenar idag ocks\u00e5. Men med lite mer anstr\u00e4ngning \u00e4n vanligt.<\/p>\n

Annars \u00e4r allt OK h\u00e4r i min l\u00e5tsasv\u00e4rld. Ute sn\u00f6ar det men en eller tv\u00e5 minusgrader skr\u00e4mmer inte oss H\u00e4lsingar. M\u00f6rkret d\u00e4r ute kan dock g\u00f6ra det. Skr\u00e4mma H\u00e4lsingar. Vi \u00e4r nu \u00e4nd\u00e5 ett vidskepligt sl\u00e4kte.<\/p>\n

B\u00f6rjar se botten p\u00e5 burken med bondkakor. K har \u00e4nnu inte uppt\u00e4ckt det hela,\u00a0 Antar att jag f\u00e5r sk\u00e4ll i helgen n\u00e4r hon g\u00f6r det. Verkar som om hon f\u00e5r baka en till sats i \u00e5r liksom i fjol. T\u00e4nk att dom d\u00e4r skall vara s\u00e5 sv\u00e5ra att motst\u00e5. Hrm… Karakt\u00e4r och jag \u00e4r som olja och vatten. Ja utom n\u00e4r det g\u00e4ller l\u00e5tsasjobb. D\u00e5 fungerar det. Men kanske g\u00f6r jag helt enkelt av med allt jag har i den v\u00e4gen just d\u00e4r. T\u00f6mmer ut.<\/p>\n

Det \u00e4r gott att leva s\u00e5klart. Jag \u00e4r en lyckligt lottad j\u00e4vel.<\/p>\n

En del vill skriva dj\u00e4vul. Men d\u00e5 \u00e4r man ju n\u00e5got annat. Liksom. Kyrkligt v\u00e4sen. Fast i motsats. En j\u00e4vel \u00e4r n\u00e5got annat. Lite diffusare. G\u00e5 inte att prata med. \u00c4r ingen motsats och inte placerad i gott och ont matrisen.<\/p>\n

Men nu s\u00e5. N\u00e5gra s\u00e4ckar pellets i Hulken sen s\u00e5. Ja tar man sig upp f\u00f6r alla trapporna igen s\u00e5 finns det en bok som inte \u00e4r allt f\u00f6r d\u00e5lig. Den tar mig med till de d\u00e4r dr\u00f6mmarna. Det fungerar varje g\u00e5ng. Tack gode gud f\u00f6r det. Ja p\u00e5 ett oreligi\u00f6st s\u00e4tt.<\/p>\n

Godtatt<\/p>\n

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