T\u00e4ppas skriver poesi ikv\u00e4ll<\/a>. Ibland f\u00e5r han verkligen till de d\u00e4r orden, ja jag vet att han kan. Vi bor n\u00e4ra varandra. H\u00e4lsingland han med \u00e4ven om han ibland flyr till Stockholm f\u00f6r att h\u00e4mta in senaste nytt fr\u00e5n v\u00e4rlden. Men han d\u00e4r uppe, jag h\u00e4r nere. Varf\u00f6r skulle de upph\u00f6jda bry sig om de som inte \u00e4r det. En universell lag det d\u00e4r kanske. Tr\u00f6ttsam lik f\u00f6rbannat.\u00a0 Han blind, jag halvblind.<\/p>\nJag \u00e4r ut med lite sopor. Det kunde vara julnatt. Tystnad. Ett l\u00e4tt sn\u00f6fall. N\u00e4r vi bodde i T\u00e4by vandrade K och jag flera \u00e5r ut mitt i natten under julhelgen bland husen i Roslags N\u00e4sby.\u00a0 De flesta sov. I ett och annat hus fanns n\u00e5gon som var vaken. Tystnad och ett l\u00e4tt sn\u00f6fall d\u00e5 ocks\u00e5. N\u00e4r vi kom hem kunde vi ligga och prata hela natten om livet och om v\u00e4rlden.<\/p>\n
Boken f\u00f6rresten. F\u00e5r mardr\u00f6mmar av den. T\u00e4nka sig. I min \u00e5lder. Vaknar svettig och tror jag \u00e4r med i den. Suggestiv som fan. Oxford och Brighton. Innanf\u00f6rskap, utanf\u00f6rskap och mord.<\/p>\n
Ja ja. Kan v\u00e4l inte sitta h\u00e4r och skriva min dynga hela natten. F\u00e5r hitta p\u00e5 n\u00e5got annat.<\/p>\n
Heja, heja, heja!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Planen att l\u00e4gga sig tidigare skiter sig eftersom Hulken stannar.\u00a0 Men b\u00e4ttre att den g\u00f6r det nu \u00e4n i natt s\u00e5klart. S\u00e5 det \u00e4r som det \u00e4r. Jag blir kvar ett tag. Boken som skriker p\u00e5 mig och vill bli l\u00e4st f\u00e5r ligga d\u00e4r och skrika sig hes. Jag kan sl\u00e5 lom\u00f6rat till n\u00e4r jag […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-26079","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":17890,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17890","url_meta":{"origin":26079,"position":0},"title":"Dj\u00e4vulen och jag","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-05-17","format":false,"excerpt":"Det \u00e4r s\u00f6ndag och anglosaxiska veckor b\u00f6rjar, allts\u00e5 arbetsveckan f\u00f6r mig ocks\u00e5. 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