Ernst hette min far. 1993 gick han bort efter att hans kroppspuls\u00e5der brustit en osannolikt\u00a0 vacker v\u00e5rf\u00f6rmiddag i slutet av April. Fr\u00e5n en dag till en annan var han bara borta. Det var en jobbig tid f\u00f6r vi kom, de senaste \u00e5ren, att st\u00e5 varandra n\u00e4ra. Samtidigt var detta r\u00e4tta s\u00e4ttet f\u00f6r honom att d\u00f6 p\u00e5. Snabbt utan en l\u00e5ngdragen sjukhusvistelse, eller skr\u00f6plig \u00e5derdom f\u00f6r den delen, som jag vet han skulle hatat.<\/p>\n
Han levde sitt liv f\u00f6r Edsbyns Tr\u00e4f\u00f6r\u00e4dling, sp\u00e5nplattefabriken m.m. d\u00e4r jag ocks\u00e5 jobbade under ett antal \u00e5r. Vi s\u00e5g honom kanske inte s\u00e5 mycket hemma f\u00f6r hans arbetsdagar var b\u00e5de l\u00e5nga och intensiva. Men p\u00e5 n\u00e5got konstigt s\u00e4tt s\u00e5 var han \u00e4nd\u00e5 n\u00e4rvarande. \u00c5tminstone f\u00f6r mig.<\/p>\n
Han uppfann nya l\u00f6sningar och nya maskiner och jag antar Familjen J\u00e4rvefelt som var \u00e4gare till fabriken tj\u00e4nade en rej\u00e4l hacka p\u00e5 hans passion f\u00f6r den h\u00e4r fabriken. Visst var dom oerh\u00f6rt sn\u00e4lla mot b\u00e5de honom och v\u00e5r familj, det m\u00e5ste g\u00f6ras klart, men vi var \u00e4nd\u00e5 alltid arbetarna och dom “kapitalisterna” som kunde spela med oss efter godtycke. Det \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 sant att det mesta av min fars lycka l\u00e5g i det h\u00e4r arbetet och utan det skulle han ha varit en halv person. S\u00e5 egentligen var v\u00e4ll allt som det skall.<\/p>\n
Farsan var redan innan han slutade skolan utan b\u00e5de far och mor. Farmor dog i cancer och farfar f\u00f6rsvann bort redan tidigare. Sj\u00e4lv tr\u00e4ffande jag ingen av dem men vet att dom b\u00e5da hade ett m\u00f6dosamt liv. Farmor s\u00e5lde k\u00f6tt till de bemedlade fr\u00e5n en dragk\u00e4rra i Orsa f\u00f6r att f\u00f6rs\u00f6rja sig sj\u00e4lv sina sex barn. Det kan inte ha varit l\u00e4tt. Farfar f\u00f6rsvann in i sjukdom och vad jag vet hade man min far ingen kontakt med honom utom en enda g\u00e5ng.<\/p>\n
Under sina sista \u00e5r bodde farsan i Samuellsfallet mellan Edsbyn och Los. St\u00e4llet som blev b\u00e5de hans och “morsans” paradis. Efter mycket \u00f6vertalning fr\u00e5n Karin och mig (“morsan” var inte helt flrrtjust i hundar) kunde han ocks\u00e5 k\u00f6pa en hund. Nalle, en bordercollie som han \u00e4lskade och k\u00e4nde enorm stolthet f\u00f6r. Nalle som satt bredvid honom och slickade hans hand n\u00e4r han dog.<\/p>\n
Hur som helst s\u00e5 saknar jag min sn\u00e4lle far.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ernst hette min far. 1993 gick han bort efter att hans kroppspuls\u00e5der brustit en osannolikt\u00a0 vacker v\u00e5rf\u00f6rmiddag i slutet av April. Fr\u00e5n en dag till en annan var han bara borta. Det var en jobbig tid f\u00f6r vi kom, de senaste \u00e5ren, att st\u00e5 varandra n\u00e4ra. Samtidigt var detta r\u00e4tta s\u00e4ttet f\u00f6r honom att d\u00f6 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-252","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-swedish"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":10182,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=10182","url_meta":{"origin":252,"position":0},"title":"Prolet\u00e4rer och \u00f6verh\u00f6ghet.","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-09-29","format":false,"excerpt":"Innan vi \u00e5ker f\u00f6rbi Tr\u00e4f\u00f6r\u00e4dlingen s\u00e5 k\u00e4nner jag doften. 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