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S\u00e5 sis\u00e5d\u00e4r, hj\u00e4rntr\u00f6tt, eller n\u00e5tt. Stopp \u00e4r det i alla fall. Blir s\u00e5klart irriterad och d\u00e4rf\u00f6r \u00e4nnu tr\u00f6ttare. Ja en ond cirkel. Man f\u00e5r g\u00e5 ut, ta n\u00e5gra djupa andetag, hoppas att det hj\u00e4lper. Att man kommer tillbaks upp p\u00e5 sp\u00e5ret.<\/p>\n
Egentligen, om jag kunde, s\u00e5 skulle det s\u00e5klart vara att tanka bilen full och dra h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n som g\u00e4llde. S\u00f6derut vore v\u00e4l b\u00e4st. Mot v\u00e4rme. Fast n\u00e5got s\u00e4rskilt m\u00e5l hade det inte beh\u00f6vt finnas. Kan nog mycket v\u00e4l t\u00e4nka mig att bara fara iv\u00e4g. Se var man hamnar. Eller inte hamnar.<\/p>\n
Men s\u00e5d\u00e4r blir det s\u00e5klart inte idag heller. Kanske imorgon, eller en annan dag. R\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r s\u00e5 \u00e4r stolen tom h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. Andra, de som \u00e4r yngre och b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n mig, f\u00e5r ta \u00f6ver.<\/p>\n
Ja det hj\u00e4lper s\u00e5klart inte att g\u00e5 ut och g\u00e5 ett varv. Det konstaterar man efter att ha provat.\u00a0 Man \u00e4r lika tr\u00f6tt n\u00e4r man kommer in igen. Den m\u00f6jlighet som \u00e5terst\u00e5r \u00e4r att somna framf\u00f6r Rapport. Ibland r\u00e4ddar det n\u00e5gra timmars koncentrerat kv\u00e4llsl\u00e5tsasarbete. Som i f\u00f6rrg\u00e5r.<\/p>\n
Tsetseflugor p\u00e5 kullen kanske.<\/p>\n
Eller ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r det bara en reset som beh\u00f6vs. Allts\u00e5 h\u00e4ll in sprit tills man somnar. F\u00f6rhoppningsvis \u00e4r man skapligt \u00e5terst\u00e4lld n\u00e4r man vaknar igen eller kanske i b\u00e4sta fall ett dygn efter det. L\u00e4nge sedan jag gjorde en reset nu. Den d\u00e4r uppstartsprocessen har blivit s\u00e5 jobbig med \u00e5ren att man og\u00e4rna g\u00e5r i den d\u00e4r riktningen. Inmundigar med f\u00f6rsiktighet. Smak f\u00f6re berusning.<\/p>\n
Olivia, min toaletthusspindel, hibernerar. H\u00e4nger d\u00e4r fr\u00e5n taket i sin tr\u00e5d. Troligen i v\u00e4ntan p\u00e5 b\u00e4ttre tider. T\u00e4nk den som kunde g\u00f6ra likaledes. Men en s\u00e4ng skulle man s\u00e5klart kunna st\u00e4lla hit. S\u00e5 man kunde str\u00e4cka ut sig n\u00e4r behov uppstod. Det \u00e4r ju \u00e4nd\u00e5 ett l\u00e5tsaskontor och ett l\u00e5tsasjobb det h\u00e4r och h\u00e4r finns s\u00e5klart\u00a0 inte annat \u00e4n l\u00e5tsaskunder. Nehejd\u00e5, l\u00e5tsaskunder tar inte illa upp om man ligger och sover n\u00e4r de kommer. Det \u00e4r jag ganska s\u00e4ker p\u00e5. Fast K tycker det \u00e4r ett d\u00e5ligt f\u00f6rslag. Hon har oftast r\u00e4tt. Vet och f\u00f6rst\u00e5r saker som jag inte vet och f\u00f6rst\u00e5r mig p\u00e5. S\u00e5 det blir nog ingen s\u00e4ng h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret.<\/p>\n
B\u00f6rjar l\u00e4sa “1968” ig\u00e5r. Lite haltande inledning. Debutromank\u00e4nsla. Eller ocks\u00e5 beror omd\u00f6met p\u00e5 att jag n\u00e4stan \u00e4r d\u00f6d av tr\u00f6tthet d\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag l\u00e4gger mig alldeles f\u00f6r sent. Men l\u00e4ser v\u00e4l vidare s\u00e5 f\u00e5r vi se. Tror. Eftersom de andra b\u00f6ckerna i serien har varit s\u00e5 f\u00f6rbannat bra. Ja den sista var kanske lite tveksam om man t\u00e4nker efter. Vi f\u00e5r se. L\u00e4sa, l\u00e4sa, l\u00e4sa.<\/p>\n
Nyser…<\/p>\n
Sn\u00f6rvlar…<\/p>\n
Jaha ja…<\/p>\n
Imorgon \u00f6sterut. Havsk\u00e4nning. E4-\u00e5kande. Blir nog bra. Hoppas man och om bilen vill s\u00e5 kan det g\u00e5. Samma sak n\u00e4sta fredag ocks\u00e5 faktiskt. Fast d\u00e5 uppskiftat en bit norrut. Har man tur den g\u00e5ngen f\u00e5r man sig serverad n\u00e5gra bitar Sushi. Sannolikheten f\u00f6r det imorgon \u00e4r dock liten. Men kanske en bit av n\u00e5got annat.<\/p>\n
Urk… Sv\u00e4lj…<\/p>\n
Nu skall jag fixa till n\u00e5got vi kan \u00e4ta. Idag. Kv\u00e4llsmat. Vad man nu skall hitta p\u00e5 f\u00f6r kulinariskt idag. T\u00e5l att funderas p\u00e5. F\u00e5r \u00e5terkomma med mer svammel en annan dag. Kanske.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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