{"id":24892,"date":"2017-07-11T08:05:01","date_gmt":"2017-07-11T07:05:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24892"},"modified":"2017-07-11T08:05:01","modified_gmt":"2017-07-11T07:05:01","slug":"algstudsare-och-hagelgevar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24892","title":{"rendered":"“\u00e4lgstudsare och hagelgev\u00e4r”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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S\u00e5 h\u00e4r sitter man ingen. Det regnar. Programmerarv\u00e4der. Tolv grader. Skitsommar. Men sommar. Hulken \u00e4r d\u00e5 i alla fall inte ig\u00e5ng. Alltid n\u00e5got. En vecka till semester. Ja f\u00f6r K. Oklart om en s\u00e5dan som jag kan ha semester. Men jag liksom h\u00e4nger med. P\u00e5 ett bananskal. Eller p\u00e5 lingonriset. Tomte som man \u00e4r. Men fyra veckor borta fr\u00e5n datorer. Man b\u00e4var. Det svider till i magen.<\/p>\n

Av Malm\u00f6 blir inget. Det har vi inte r\u00e5d med. Det \u00e4r OK. Men kusten skall vi v\u00e4l klara av. H\u00e4lsingekusten med mats\u00e4ck. Gr\u00e4nsfors ocks\u00e5. Enligt p\u00e5kostat J\u00e4rvs\u00f6magasin ligger det nord\u00f6st om J\u00e4rvs\u00f6. Tittar man efter s\u00e5 ligger det i Nordanstig. Men allt utg\u00e5r fr\u00e5n solen. Om man \u00e4r solen. Men dit i alla fall. Blomkrukor av H\u00e4lsingelera. Borde fungerat i Ovan\u00e5ker ocks\u00e5. Trettio meter lera ner till berggrunden d\u00e4r. G\u00e5r att g\u00f6ra hur mycket krukor som helst om man \u00e4ger tio kvadrat mark.<\/p>\n

\u00c4r du lycklig lille v\u00e4n? Man f\u00e5r fr\u00e5ga sig det varje morgon. Bryta upp om man inte \u00e4r det. G\u00f6ra n\u00e5got nytt. Dra ut i v\u00e4rlden. D\u00f6 eller leva d\u00e4r. Eller s\u00e4tta revolvern mot tinningen och trycka av d\u00e4r man \u00e4r. Ja h\u00e4r uppe \u00e4r det s\u00e5klart \u00e4lgstudsare och hagelgev\u00e4r som g\u00e4ller. Men resultatet \u00e4r v\u00e4l ungef\u00e4r detsamma. Fast det \u00e4r s\u00e5dant sl\u00f6seri. Ja och blir s\u00e5 grisigt f\u00f6r de som \u00f6verlever en.<\/p>\n

Fast jag \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 mycket f\u00f6r tidiga avslut. \u00c4r en envis j\u00e4vel. K\u00f6r alltid i m\u00e5l. Hur \u00e4n galet det \u00e4n \u00e4r d\u00e4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen.\u00a0 Eller ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r jag bara feg. Har alltid varit en feg j\u00e4vel. Ja och avundsjuk. S\u00e5 ini helvete avundsjuk. En d\u00e5lig m\u00e4nniska f\u00f6ljaktligen.<\/p>\n

Men nu s\u00e5. Jag l\u00e5tsasjobbar f\u00f6r att \u00f6verleva mentalt i limboland. Det skulle inte ha fungerat annars. 1603 dagar kvar<\/a>. Ingenting. Eller en evighet. Men ett slut. Att ha n\u00e5got att g\u00e5 emot \u00e4r b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n att inte ha det. En dag i taget p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt som sten p\u00e5 sten l\u00e4ggs till varandra i projekt.<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 jag l\u00e5ter den h\u00e4r dagen b\u00f6rja. Omfamnar den. Dyker ner i mitt. Ner i gl\u00f6mskan och buggarna. Alla \u00e4r s\u00e5 sn\u00e4lla d\u00e4r nere. Allt h\u00e4nger bara p\u00e5 mig. Framtiden oviss. Men nu \u00e4r nu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

S\u00e5 h\u00e4r sitter man ingen. Det regnar. Programmerarv\u00e4der. Tolv grader. Skitsommar. Men sommar. Hulken \u00e4r d\u00e5 i alla fall inte ig\u00e5ng. Alltid n\u00e5got. En vecka till semester. Ja f\u00f6r K. Oklart om en s\u00e5dan som jag kan ha semester. Men jag liksom h\u00e4nger med. P\u00e5 ett bananskal. Eller p\u00e5 lingonriset. Tomte som man \u00e4r. 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