Tr\u00e4ngde mig f\u00f6rbi charken och ostdisken precis n\u00e4r \u00f6gonen hos de medhandlande b\u00f6rjade f\u00e5 det d\u00e4r ot\u00e4cka i sig. K\u00e4nner att det snart \u00e4r dags f\u00f6r tillst\u00e5ndet n\u00e4r armb\u00e5garna \u00e5ker fram och det tydligen handlar om leva eller d\u00f6 det h\u00e4r med att handla. Checkar ut fr\u00e5n aff\u00e4ren n\u00e4r dom stora hetsiga str\u00f6mmarna v\u00e4ller in. I sista sekund. Drygt tv\u00e5tusen fattigare. Femhundra sp\u00e4nn till handlaren. God Jul!<\/p>\n
Klar i princip. En p\u00e5se gult senapsfr\u00f6 fick jag inte tag p\u00e5 och s\u00e5 skall jag tanka bilen. Det k\u00e4nns sk\u00f6nt liksom. \u00c5ker in p\u00e5 Max och tar en hamburgare. T\u00e4nkte mig en pizza men va fan nu vill jag hem och det h\u00e4r \u00e4r snabbare. En greenburgare. Smakar som vanligt. Varken eller liksom. Men f\u00e5r slut p\u00e5 suget i kistan. Fixar de gula senapsfr\u00f6nen p\u00e5 ICA. Plockar med lite annat p\u00e5 samma g\u00e5ng. Tankar och far upp mot skogarna igen.<\/p>\n
H\u00f6r Punk-Per Persson p\u00e5 radion. Kalsongper. Ja det \u00e4r s\u00e5 jag ser honom efter att vi delade loge den d\u00e4r sommaren. Sen \u00e5rets jull\u00e5t. Charlie har tipsat kompis Marie om en snubbe i F\u00e4rila som jag inte k\u00e4nner till. Det l\u00e5ter Th\u00e5str\u00f6m. Bra. Gillar. Musikv\u00e4rlden \u00e4r tj\u00e4nster och gentj\u00e4nster. Sveriges Radio \u00e4r ett sl\u00e4ktf\u00f6retag. St\u00e4nger av.<\/p>\n
Stannar i kyrkan och t\u00e4nder tv\u00e5 ljus p\u00e5 Morsans och Farsans grav. Pratar lite s\u00e5d\u00e4r f\u00e5nigt med dom som man f\u00e5r g\u00f6ra vid gravar. Eller man. Jag g\u00f6r. Ingen av dom \u00e4r ju d\u00e4r egentligen. Bara jag. Ensam just idag. Mer pratglad. Gr\u00e5ter inte. T\u00e5rarnas tid \u00e4r f\u00f6rbi. \u00c5ker vidare.<\/p>\n
Det \u00e4r tr\u00e4d i vinterskrud hela v\u00e4gen hem. St\u00e4mningsfullt. Jag njuter av det d\u00e4r i skymningen. Snart anar jag det bara. M\u00f6rkret s\u00e4nker sig snabbt s\u00e5h\u00e4r i vintersolst\u00e5ndet. Jag \u00e4r tr\u00f6tt. N\u00f6jd. \u00c5ker f\u00f6rbi det som var Farsans paradis. Samuellsfallet. M\u00f6rkt. Oplogat. Det \u00e4r andra som har det nu. Hoppas dom finner paradiset d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Sitt eget. Svartvattnet rinner under bron. Jag \u00f6ver den. Hem\u00e5t. Mot julen 2012. Skall bli bra.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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