{"id":24708,"date":"2017-06-19T07:39:47","date_gmt":"2017-06-19T06:39:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24708"},"modified":"2017-06-19T07:39:47","modified_gmt":"2017-06-19T06:39:47","slug":"synten-och-afterski-som-raddningen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24708","title":{"rendered":"Synten och afterski som r\u00e4ddningen"},"content":{"rendered":"

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M\u00e5ndag. Dessa underbara m\u00e5ndagar. Flera tomma dagar framf\u00f6r sig. Dagar som kan fyllas med n\u00e5got. Underbart. Nej jag s\u00e4ger inte det d\u00e4r f\u00f6r att provocera,\u00a0 Jag k\u00e4nner s\u00e5. Jag \u00e4r d\u00e4r jag vill vara. Ja och d\u00e5 menar jag kanske inte Los, fast det iof g\u00e5r f\u00f6r sig det ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n

P h\u00e4lsar p\u00e5 i fredags. Han har sagt upp sig. Tr\u00f6ttnat. Klarade inte telefonf\u00f6rs\u00e4ljarjobbet l\u00e4ngre. M\u00e5r b\u00e4ttre nu som arbetsl\u00f6s. Mellan jobb. Det ser man. Hoppas p\u00e5 afterski jobb p\u00e5 synten i fj\u00e4llen under vinter. Ja och vi som k\u00e4nner honom vet ju att det \u00e4r precis d\u00e4r han skall vara. I musiken. Alltid. Den, eller snarare musiken,\u00a0 som \u00e4r hans egentliga liv. Men \u00e4n kostar det p\u00e5. S\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n

Tv\u00e5 skivinspelningar p\u00e5g\u00e5r. Han \u00e4r med p\u00e5 b\u00e5da. Bolln\u00e4s. Hotellrum med fem svettiga personer som delar rummet en helg. Omtagningar. De d\u00e5liga sk\u00e4mten. Skr\u00e4pmaten. Allt det d\u00e4r andra. Ja, inte s\u00e5 mycket flickor l\u00e4ngre. De som satt d\u00e4r. Stackars kvinnor. Jag t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 dom ibland. H\u00e4mtade de sig n\u00e5gonsin fr\u00e5n det d\u00e4r. Flera av dem var lika mycket i repan som oss. De har antagligen h\u00f6rapparat allihop idag, m\u00f6jligen ocks\u00e5 bortom det.\u00a0 Men f\u00f6r P och hans mannar \u00e4r det d\u00e4r allts\u00e5 ett passerat stadium. Det finns fruar och barn d\u00e4r hemma numera. Ja, och inga flickor som vill sitta d\u00e4r och lyssna hur som helst.<\/p>\n

Men jag \u00e4r glad f\u00f6r P’s skull. Han \u00e4r lyckligare nu \u00e4n som bonush\u00e4mtande telefonf\u00f6rs\u00e4ljare med fet pl\u00e5nbok.<\/p>\n

Men m\u00e5ndag allts\u00e5. Midsommarvecka. P\u00e5 onsdag 6:24 skall jag upp och v\u00e4nda p\u00e5 b\u00e5ten. Sommarsolst\u00e5nd. Dags f\u00f6r den att segla norrut igen. Om man k\u00e4nner att paniken kryper sig p\u00e5 en n\u00e4r man f\u00f6rst\u00e5r att vi redan \u00e4r d\u00e4r s\u00e5 f\u00e5r man t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 vintersolst\u00e5ndet och hur mycket vinter som \u00e4r kvar efter det. Torde g\u00e4lla samma sak efter sommarsolst\u00e5ndet men sommar d\u00e5. Men fan trott f\u00f6rresten. Lite kvar av juni, sen juli, augusti och sen \u00e4r man ju d\u00e4r. Ofta nattfrost redan i augusti. Det g\u00e4ller att ta till vara p\u00e5 det h\u00e4r. G\u00f6ra det med mani. Grilla, bada, \u00e4ta glass. Sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r det det d\u00e4r barfota och sova med \u00f6ppet f\u00f6nster som \u00e4r sommaren.<\/p>\n

Midsommar blir lugn. Kanske grillar vi. Men mycket mer blir det inte skulle jag tro. Men det r\u00e4cker. Jag lever.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u00e5ndag. Dessa underbara m\u00e5ndagar. Flera tomma dagar framf\u00f6r sig. Dagar som kan fyllas med n\u00e5got. Underbart. Nej jag s\u00e4ger inte det d\u00e4r f\u00f6r att provocera,\u00a0 Jag k\u00e4nner s\u00e5. Jag \u00e4r d\u00e4r jag vill vara. Ja och d\u00e5 menar jag kanske inte Los, fast det iof g\u00e5r f\u00f6r sig det ocks\u00e5. P h\u00e4lsar p\u00e5 i fredags. 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