{"id":2439,"date":"2012-12-19T13:38:15","date_gmt":"2012-12-19T12:38:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=2439"},"modified":"2013-03-14T23:36:19","modified_gmt":"2013-03-14T22:36:19","slug":"tankar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=2439","title":{"rendered":"Tankar"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Tv\u00e5 talgoxar \u00e4ter sig m\u00e4tta h\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r mitt f\u00f6nster. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 enkelt. Jag matar och dom \u00e4ter. Jag kr\u00e4ver inget i geng\u00e4ld men kommer \u00e4nd\u00e5 att f\u00e5 vacker s\u00e5ng fr\u00e5n dom och deras v\u00e4nner i v\u00e5r n\u00e4r dagsmejan och v\u00e5rsolen \u00e4r h\u00e4r ign. Den tid n\u00e4r hoppet \u00e5terv\u00e4nder. Tv\u00e5 f\u00e5glar som h\u00e4rstammar fr\u00e5n dinosaurier. Jag innanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret med bara en kort historia som m\u00e4nniska. Jag som med mina likar h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att f\u00f6rg\u00f6ra den v\u00e4rld som ocks\u00e5 dom h\u00e4r tv\u00e5 f\u00e5glarna lever i med v\u00e5r kollektiva girighet. Nej det \u00e4r sant att jag oftast inte k\u00e4nner mig som en del av det d\u00e4r. Prylar har n\u00e4stan alltid saknat v\u00e4rde f\u00f6r mig. Men det \u00e4r man ju fast man lever annorlunda. G\u00e5r inte att undvika om man nu inte bos\u00e4tter sig i en grotta och lever p\u00e5 det som den n\u00e4rmaste omgivningen erbjuder. Det sm\u00e4rtar mig. Just nu \u00e4r kanske Talgoxar inte en hotad art men kommer s\u00e4kert ocks\u00e5 bli det om pengar och det man kan k\u00f6pa f\u00f6r pengar \u00e4r det vi m\u00e4nniskor forts\u00e4tter att str\u00e4va efter. Det som \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte ge n\u00e5gon enda n\u00e5gon verklig lycka eller ens tillfredsst\u00e4llelse. Det som bara d\u00f6ljer det viktiga.<\/p>\n

Det blev en j\u00e4vla jull\u00e5t i \u00e5r igen. Tredje \u00e5ret i rad. Vissa saker bara blir. Mina l\u00e5tar och mina texter \u00e4r s\u00e5dana. Vill att det skall vara s\u00e5 ocks\u00e5. Lite som buddistisk sandkonst. Jag g\u00f6r. \u00c4r djupt inne i den processen. F\u00f6rg\u00f6rande och f\u00f6rt\u00e4rande \u00e4r den samtidigt som den ger mer till livet \u00e4n allt annat. J\u00e4mvikten igen. Det underliga. N\u00e4r det \u00e4r gjort \u00e4r det inte s\u00e5 viktigt l\u00e4ngre. De kan f\u00e5 spolas bort eller f\u00f6lja med vinden. F\u00e5r kallas skit och d\u00e5ligt av hur m\u00e5nga som helst. \u00c4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r det roligt n\u00e4r n\u00e5gon lyssnar eller n\u00e4r n\u00e5gon l\u00e4ser. Om n\u00e5gon f\u00e5r n\u00e5got fr\u00e5n en l\u00e5t eller en text. D\u00e4r handlar det om att ge igen utan tanke p\u00e5 att f\u00e5 n\u00e5got tillbaks. De flesta varken l\u00e4ser eller lyssnar f\u00f6rst\u00e5s. Min r\u00f6st \u00e4r f\u00f6r svag f\u00f6r att h\u00f6ras i bruset. Men ocks\u00e5 det \u00e4r som det skall vara. Man finns faktiskt \u00e4nd\u00e5. Allt handlar faktiskt inte om att f\u00e5 bekr\u00e4ftelse som m\u00e5nga tycks tro. Att g\u00f6ra saker \u00e4r viktigare. Vad det \u00e4n \u00e4r och \u00e4ven om det inte hyllas av massorna. Det b\u00e4sta \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 alltid \u00e4nnu ouppt\u00e4ckt.<\/p>\n

Det h\u00e4r \u00e5ret kommer jag minnas som det \u00e5r jag gav upp dr\u00f6mmar. Det g\u00f6r ont att g\u00f6ra det. Jag brukar inte ge upp och det \u00e4r ovant. Talgoxarna skiter i allt det d\u00e4r. Dom \u00e4ter vidare d\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret och jag blir glad l\u00e5ngt in i mina innersta g\u00f6mmor av att se dom \u00e4ta sig m\u00e4tta d\u00e4r ute. Sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n s\u00e5 beh\u00f6ver det inte vara heller. Det finns alltid saker att tr\u00f6sta sig med om man vill ta in det.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tv\u00e5 talgoxar \u00e4ter sig m\u00e4tta h\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r mitt f\u00f6nster. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 enkelt. Jag matar och dom \u00e4ter. Jag kr\u00e4ver inget i geng\u00e4ld men kommer \u00e4nd\u00e5 att f\u00e5 vacker s\u00e5ng fr\u00e5n dom och deras v\u00e4nner i v\u00e5r n\u00e4r dagsmejan och v\u00e5rsolen \u00e4r h\u00e4r ign. Den tid n\u00e4r hoppet \u00e5terv\u00e4nder. Tv\u00e5 f\u00e5glar som h\u00e4rstammar fr\u00e5n dinosaurier. 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