{"id":24382,"date":"2017-05-17T07:06:29","date_gmt":"2017-05-17T06:06:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24382"},"modified":"2017-05-17T07:06:29","modified_gmt":"2017-05-17T06:06:29","slug":"att-nastan-inte-finnas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24382","title":{"rendered":"Att n\u00e4stan inte finnas"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Onsdag. Sexton grader p\u00e5 kontoret. B\u00e4ttre \u00e4n g\u00e5rdagens tio. G\u00e5r snabbare att h\u00e4mta upp med elv\u00e4rme. Snart \u00e4r det s\u00e5 varmt s\u00e5 att en utomst\u00e5ende spyr. Jag som sitter stilla myser. S\u00e5klart. \u00c4nnu en dag, en jag har f\u00f6rhoppningar p\u00e5, ligger framf\u00f6r mig.<\/p>\n

V\u00e4rmepumpen \u00e4r ig\u00e5ng. Den stora d\u00e4r ute.\u00a0 Idag s\u00e4ger prognosmakarna sexton grader ute ocks\u00e5. Men det \u00e4r Norges nationaldag. Det vore tusan om det inte v\u00e4nde. Sol \u00f6ver Norge och dess folk idag s\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n

I Hudiksvall hade bj\u00f6rkarna slagit ut. H\u00e4r har de p\u00e5 sin h\u00f6jd b\u00f6rjar skifta lite i f\u00e4rg. Ja det d\u00e4r lila som f\u00f6reg\u00e5r l\u00f6vsprickningen ni vet. “Lila” s\u00e4ger en del!? Japp. Kolla lite p\u00e5 avst\u00e5nd mot ett berg med bj\u00f6rkar strax innan l\u00f6vsprickningen skall ni f\u00e5 se.<\/p>\n

I n\u00e5gon slags officiell mening \u00e4r jag v\u00e4l “sjukskriven” den h\u00e4r veckan. Allts\u00e5 inte “arbetsl\u00f6s”. Nu f\u00e5r en s\u00e5dan som jag ingen ers\u00e4ttning fr\u00e5n endera av de d\u00e4r systemen. Jag \u00e4r tydligen n\u00e5got “icke varelse” eller s\u00e5. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r t\u00e4nker jag jobba idag. Japp. Jobba. Med mitt eget d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Som om det var en f\u00f6rnuftig v\u00e4rld.\u00a0 Allts\u00e5 inte “l\u00e5tsasjobba”. Det finns en stor skillnad mellan de tv\u00e5. Avgrundsdjup. Men det \u00e4r klart, b\u00e5de mitt l\u00e5tsasjobb och mitt riktiga jobb ger inga pengar de heller. Synd kan man tycka. Som om det nu spelade n\u00e5gon roll.<\/p>\n

1658 dagar kvar<\/a> av skuldsaneringen. Sen \u00e4r jag en fri man. Men livet har ocks\u00e5 g\u00e5tt. Trettio \u00e5r \u00e5t helvete i stort sett. Ja n\u00e4stan p\u00e5 dan. Det kan man tycka \u00e4r synd. Fast antagligen “r\u00e4tt \u00e5t”. H\u00e4nga l\u00e4pp \u00f6ver det t\u00e4nker jag i alla fall inte g\u00f6ra. Nope.<\/p>\n

Men det b\u00f6rjar dofta kaffe h\u00e4r i lokalerna, Dags att h\u00e4mta sig en kopp. Allt gott till alla er som l\u00e4ser, n\u00e5ja det d\u00e4r l\u00e4t som om det var en h\u00f6g, men det \u00e4r det ju inte, det mesta h\u00e4r st\u00e5r fortfarande p\u00e5 noll, r\u00e4knarna allts\u00e5. Noll betyder att man n\u00e4stan inte finns. Men \u00e5tminstone en s\u00e5dan h\u00e4r dag som idag spelar det absolut ingen roll.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Onsdag. Sexton grader p\u00e5 kontoret. B\u00e4ttre \u00e4n g\u00e5rdagens tio. G\u00e5r snabbare att h\u00e4mta upp med elv\u00e4rme. Snart \u00e4r det s\u00e5 varmt s\u00e5 att en utomst\u00e5ende spyr. Jag som sitter stilla myser. S\u00e5klart. \u00c4nnu en dag, en jag har f\u00f6rhoppningar p\u00e5, ligger framf\u00f6r mig. V\u00e4rmepumpen \u00e4r ig\u00e5ng. Den stora d\u00e4r ute.\u00a0 Idag s\u00e4ger prognosmakarna sexton grader […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-24382","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":17428,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17428","url_meta":{"origin":24382,"position":0},"title":"Ibland ber jag om n\u00e5d med kn\u00e4ppta h\u00e4nder","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-04-10","format":false,"excerpt":"Sn\u00f6slungan st\u00e5r d\u00e4r i garaget som ett r\u00f6tt monument \u00f6ver vintern som nu definitivt \u00e4r slut. 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