{"id":24212,"date":"2017-04-26T11:40:54","date_gmt":"2017-04-26T10:40:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24212"},"modified":"2017-04-26T11:41:21","modified_gmt":"2017-04-26T10:41:21","slug":"sonderhackat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24212","title":{"rendered":"S\u00f6nderhackat"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Hemma i Los igen. \u00c5ker i sn\u00e4v\u00e4der a’la vinter och kommer hem i sol a’la v\u00e5r. Ja det \u00e4r v\u00e4l april det. Som april alltid brukar vara. Jag h\u00f6jer inga \u00f6gonbryn f\u00f6r den skull.<\/p>\n

Det h\u00e4r med att skriva veckodagar och m\u00e5nader med sm\u00e5 bokst\u00e4ver svider fortfarande. Det tar tid att l\u00e4ra gamla hundar sitta. Jo jag l\u00e4rde mig att det skulle vara “Du” inte “du” ocks\u00e5. Svenskl\u00e4rare<\/a> f\u00e5r man f\u00f6rresten passa sig att skriva som “svenskal\u00e4rare” utifall en spr\u00e5kfascist f\u00e5r syn p\u00e5 det. G\u00f6r man det \u00e4r man tydligen dum i huvudet enligt dem.\u00a0 Som om det inte fanns viktigare saker att l\u00e4ra in.<\/p>\n

Men K l\u00e4r sig “juijutsi”, jo jag vet att det heter jiujitsu men f\u00f6rs\u00f6k att skriva det sj\u00e4lv f\u00e5r du se. Hon kommer att vara farlig n\u00e4r hon kommer hem. Jag h\u00e5ller tyst och g\u00f6r som hon s\u00e4ger och d\u00e5 borde man v\u00e4l klara sig hoppas jag.<\/p>\n

Dagarna blir s\u00f6nderhackade numera. N\u00e4stan varenda en. Det \u00e4r alltid n\u00e5got.\u00a0 Vill man f\u00e5 n\u00e5got gjort som kr\u00e4ver n\u00e5gon djupare koncentration \u00e4r det st\u00f6rt om\u00f6jligt. Ser ut som hela m\u00e5naden blir s\u00e5dan. Nu n\u00e4r jag skulle beh\u00f6va djupdykningarna som mest. Illa \u00e4r vad det \u00e4r. O-liv.<\/p>\n

Snart skall jag ner till Ljusdal igen, ja imorgon med, sen begravning p\u00e5 fredag och Bolln\u00e4s p\u00e5 l\u00f6rdag. N\u00e4r l\u00e5tsasjobbar man allts\u00e5? Jag bara fr\u00e5gar?<\/p>\n

\u00c4r man ung \u00e4r det inga problem med det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart. Men i min \u00e5lder \u00e4r det lite mer br\u00e5ttom med saker. I alla fall om man vill f\u00e5 n\u00e5got gjort och har insett att en \u00e5r inte \u00e4r s\u00e5 l\u00e5ng tid. T\u00e4nk \u00e5ret i lumpen. Som tjugo\u00e5ring. Det k\u00e4ndes som ett liv. Eller n\u00e4r man b\u00f6rjade bygga \u00d6resundsbron. “Skulle den verkligen bli klar n\u00e5gon g\u00e5ng?” Synen p\u00e5 \u00e5ren var en annan. Tiden gick l\u00e5ngsammare. Den b\u00e4sta f\u00f6rklaringen jag h\u00f6rt \u00e4r att man upplever dess g\u00e5ng relativt de antal \u00e5r man levt.\u00a0 Finns ett visst m\u00e5tt av sanning i det tror jag.\u00a0 Men tiden varierar i den \u00e5lder man \u00e4r i ocks\u00e5 med stora m\u00e5tt. Det \u00e4r just det som \u00e4r problemet med att ha roligt och f\u00f6rdelen med att ha tr\u00e5kigt i livet.<\/p>\n

Men nu mat. Mat beh\u00f6ver man fast man egentligen inte beh\u00f6ver det. Just det \u00e4r konstigt. Borde man inte kunna tala om f\u00f6r kroppen att nu f\u00e5r du fan i mig ta av reserverna ett tag f\u00f6r nu vill jag spara n\u00e5gra sp\u00e4nn p\u00e5 matkontot. Ta i p\u00e5 skarpen liksom. S\u00e4ga ifr\u00e5n. Men tydligen talar vi inte samma spr\u00e5k min mage och jag.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hemma i Los igen. \u00c5ker i sn\u00e4v\u00e4der a’la vinter och kommer hem i sol a’la v\u00e5r. Ja det \u00e4r v\u00e4l april det. Som april alltid brukar vara. Jag h\u00f6jer inga \u00f6gonbryn f\u00f6r den skull. Det h\u00e4r med att skriva veckodagar och m\u00e5nader med sm\u00e5 bokst\u00e4ver svider fortfarande. Det tar tid att l\u00e4ra gamla hundar sitta. 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