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Det var l\u00e4ngesedan jag skrev f\u00f6r att f\u00e5 l\u00e4sare. Skulle jag gjort det s\u00e5 hade jag slutat f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan. Men det \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 det som \u00e4r det sv\u00e5raste. Att forts\u00e4tta g\u00f6ra det man g\u00f6r utan den d\u00e4r publiken. Utan responsen. Utan… Det d\u00e4r vet var och en som skrivit en blogg eller en bok. Det \u00e4r sv\u00e5rt nog \u00e4nd\u00e5 att s\u00e4tta sig d\u00e4r varje dag och skriva. Om ingen, eller bara n\u00e5gra f\u00e5, l\u00e4ser, blir det inte enklare.<\/p>\n
Men jag skriver p\u00e5 allts\u00e5. F\u00f6r att jag inte kan sluta. Ja precis som jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med mitt huvudprojekt av samma anledning. Det \u00e4r s\u00e4kert en sjukdom. Det finns s\u00e4kert bokst\u00e4ver f\u00f6r det d\u00e4r. Men det \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 det som f\u00f6r v\u00e4rlden fram\u00e5t. Det faktum att inte alla ger upp.<\/p>\n
Fast idag skulle man kanske det. Det \u00e4r soligt ute. Underbart v\u00e4der tycks det. Jo kallt. Men r\u00f6r man p\u00e5 sig borde det g\u00e5 att vistas ute i det d\u00e4r. Njuta av det.<\/p>\n
Fast jag stannar nog inne. Grejar lite. Tv\u00e4tta n\u00e5gra maskiner. Det skall skickas lite paket. Jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker \u00f6verleva. Inte mer \u00e4n f\u00f6r att g\u00f6ra det. Annars bara kod. V\u00e4ntan. Dr\u00f6mmar.<\/p>\n
Min telefon h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att ge sig p\u00e5 riktigt. Displayen streckig och gultonad. Jag har min Iphone tre i reserv. Man kan leva med den. P\u00e5 m\u00e5nga s\u00e4tt \u00e4r den b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n Samsungen. Den senare k\u00f6pte f\u00f6r att utveckla “appen” p\u00e5. Men jag kommer aldrig fram till den punkten. Hittar inte den tiden. Fast jag har mer tid till det \u00e4n alla andra. Utom dom som sitter d\u00e4r framf\u00f6r tv’n m\u00f6jligen. F\u00f6r dom \u00e4r tiden slut. Det finns alltid lite mer strunt att se. Att d\u00f6va \u00e5ngesten med.<\/p>\n
Men jag har kokat kaffe. Skall inmundiga en kopp strax. Suga i mig. Gokaffe. Egentligen f\u00f6r tidigt. F\u00f6r magen i alla fall. Jag f\u00e5r lida fram\u00e5t lunch n\u00e4r jag vill ha en kopp efter maten. Men ibland beh\u00f6ver man den d\u00e4r kaffeh\u00e4stsparken f\u00f6r att komma ig\u00e5ng med en vecka. Idag \u00e4r en s\u00e5dan dag. Dag efter helg.<\/p>\n
Jod\u00e5 kaffet smakar gott.<\/p>\n
St\u00e5r i f\u00f6nstret och tittar ut p\u00e5 f\u00e5glarna vid f\u00e5gelautomaten en stund. Jod\u00e5 igen, solen v\u00e4rmer nu, det k\u00e4nns d\u00e4r genom f\u00f6nstret, det \u00e4r lite skkut i de d\u00e4r fotonerna. Man liksom k\u00e4nner hur kroppen vaknar till n\u00e4r man tr\u00e4ffas av dem, dong, dong, dong-dong-dong. Ja och manf\u00e5r st\u00e5 d\u00e4r lite fram\u00e5tlutad s\u00e5 att man inte ramlar omkull av kraften som skirker “h\u00e4r kommer sommaren tamefan”.<\/p>\n
H\u00e4rligt allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n
Men ger v\u00e4l cancer s\u00e4gs det.<\/p>\n
Ja ja ja s\u00e5 in i helvete.<\/p>\n
Och ne, nej, nej hela v\u00e4gen upp i himlen.<\/p>\n
Nu dyker jag ner i \u00c5kes v\u00e4rld. So long p\u00e5 ett tag.<\/p>\n
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