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Orken tar slut. Klockan \u00e4r inte mer \u00e4n tio. Men jag tror att min dag \u00e4r \u00f6ver. Ibland \u00e4r det bara s\u00e5. Koncentrationen g\u00e5r inte att h\u00e5lla kvar. Ingen fara p\u00e5 taket dock. Den kommer tillbaks. Som den brukar g\u00f6ra. Sen. F\u00f6rhoppningsvis imorgon.<\/p>\n
Men att l\u00e4gga sig nu k\u00e4nns fr\u00e4mmande trotts bra bok d\u00e4r p\u00e5 nattduksbordet. Jag har sv\u00e5rt f\u00f6r det. Om jag inte \u00e4r sjuk och m\u00e5ste. Tror inte jag \u00e4r det nu. S\u00e5 jag sitter kvar i kontorsstolen. Fast jag allts\u00e5 kunde ligga och l\u00e4sa en stund i allsk\u00f6ns ro. Men klockan f\u00e5r i alla fall ticka fram till elva innan jag ger mig. Ja ni vet sj\u00e4lv hur det \u00e4r att g\u00e5 tidigt hem fr\u00e5n jobbet en vanlig vardag. Smitning. S\u00e5 k\u00e4nns det f\u00f6r mig ocks\u00e5, fast mitt “jobb” nu bara \u00e4r ett l\u00e5tsasjobb. Jag har suttit h\u00e4r p\u00e5 stolen f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga 16h pass f\u00f6r att riktigt trivas med kortpassen.<\/p>\n
Blir erbjuden en introduktionskurs i programmering av arbetsf\u00f6rmedlingen. Jag bara ler. Borde v\u00e4l sucka. Det k\u00e4nns lite IQ befriat. Eller ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r det tv\u00e4rtom. Jag som inte \u00e4r intelligent nog f\u00f6r att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 det avancerade t\u00e4nket. Man f\u00e5r hoppas p\u00e5 det senare.<\/p>\n
Det k\u00e4nns som Skotsk kust, klippor, uppr\u00f6rt vinter hav, vore n\u00e5got f\u00f6r mig just nu. En b\u00e4rbar. Tid. Lite pengar till mat. Skriva. Skriva. Skriva. En dr\u00f6m s\u00e5klart. En utopi. S\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt bort att inte ens en s\u00e5dan dr\u00f6mmare som jag tror att n\u00e5got s\u00e5dan n\u00e5gonsin blir verklighet. \u00c4nd\u00e5 kan jag se det d\u00e4r framf\u00f6r mig. Fast det skulle nog fungera med H\u00e4lsingekust ocks\u00e5. Eller i en stuga vid en sj\u00f6 mitt i skogen. Ja utan sj\u00f6n ocks\u00e5. Med eller utan skrivandet som jag \u00e4nd\u00e5 l\u00e4ngtar s\u00e5 efter ibland.\u00a0 Att skriva text p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt som jag programmerar. P\u00e5 allvar liksom. Inte som h\u00e4r i pur gl\u00e4dje. Mer m\u00f6da.<\/p>\n
Det \u00e4r i alla fall s\u00e5 att jag \u00e4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4g in i en ny period av mitt liv just nu. F\u00f6r\u00e4ndringens vindar susar omkring mig. Jag k\u00e4nner igen tecknen. Ja och gillar l\u00e4get. Det \u00e4r i f\u00f6r\u00e4ndringarna man v\u00e4xer. Inte i stillast\u00e5endet.<\/p>\n
Men tusan om jag inte skall l\u00e4mna min stol och resa mig upp, sl\u00e4cka ljuset och vandra ut ur de h\u00e4r lokalerna. Den gamle skoll\u00e4raren och de eviga kvarsittarna kan f\u00e5 ta \u00f6ver lokaliteterna tidigt idag. De har sitt hela v\u00e4gen in i evigheten. Kanske blir det ocks\u00e5 mitt \u00f6de vad det lider. Straffet.\u00a0 Men ner i k\u00e4llaren m\u00e5ste jag s\u00e5klart innan jag tar trapporna upp. Hulken. Som skall ha sitt. SKIT!!! Mitt tangentbord, eller \u00e4r det datorn, klarar fortfarande inte dubbel “l”. De blir alltid enkel “l”. En parentes utan parentes. Men det skiter Hulken i s\u00e5klart. Han, f\u00f6r han \u00e4r en han, vill bara ha mer pellets i sin stora gapande mun. Jag fyller. S\u00e4ck p\u00e5 s\u00e4ck, pall efter pall, ton till ton. Som slav under en mekanisk maskin och elden i dess inre. Men starkt medveten om vem som \u00e4r herre och vem som \u00e4r den d\u00e4r slaven \u00e4r jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5s.\u00a0 Dummare \u00e4r jag inte.<\/p>\n
S\u00e5 lampor av…<\/p>\n
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Orken tar slut. Klockan \u00e4r inte mer \u00e4n tio. Men jag tror att min dag \u00e4r \u00f6ver. Ibland \u00e4r det bara s\u00e5. Koncentrationen g\u00e5r inte att h\u00e5lla kvar. Ingen fara p\u00e5 taket dock. Den kommer tillbaks. Som den brukar g\u00f6ra. Sen. F\u00f6rhoppningsvis imorgon. Men att l\u00e4gga sig nu k\u00e4nns fr\u00e4mmande trotts bra bok d\u00e4r p\u00e5 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-23462","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":36888,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36888","url_meta":{"origin":23462,"position":0},"title":"Hur sv\u00e5rt kan det vara?","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2020-11-20","format":false,"excerpt":"Anv\u00e4nder en stor del av dagen att f\u00e5 qemu-static-arm att fungera. 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