{"id":22750,"date":"2017-01-05T11:03:48","date_gmt":"2017-01-05T10:03:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=22750"},"modified":"2017-01-05T11:04:05","modified_gmt":"2017-01-05T10:04:05","slug":"kallt-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=22750","title":{"rendered":"Kallt"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Tjugoen grader kallt. Minus trettiosju \u00e4r det v\u00e4rsta vi varit med om som boendes h\u00e4r i skogen. S\u00e5 ingen st\u00f6rre fara. Temperaturm\u00e4ssigt. Men saker g\u00e5r s\u00f6nder n\u00e4r det \u00e4r s\u00e5 h\u00e4r kallt. Man h\u00e5ller tummarna f\u00f6r att det inte skall det.<\/p>\n

Att ta en “ledigkv\u00e4ll” mitt i veckan som jag g\u00f6r ig\u00e5r h\u00f6r inte till vanligheterna. Men jag \u00e4r glad jag gjorde det. Vi ser film, under t\u00e4cken i soffan,\u00a0 brasan \u00e4r t\u00e4nd, dryck i glaset och n\u00e5gra \u00f6verblivna julkolor i munnen. F\u00f6re det sitter jag och n\u00e4stan somnar h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontoret. Fr\u00e5gan \u00e4r om jag faktiskt inte till och med somnar en stund d\u00e4r i min stol. Men tala inte om det f\u00f6r n\u00e5gon.<\/p>\n

Str\u00e5lande sol ocks\u00e5 d\u00e4r ute. Vackert. Vintervackert. Efter att ha skottat, fyllt pellets, kastat kompost, stoppat i motorv\u00e4rmaren i bilen, sitter jag h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontoret med mitt ljus t\u00e4nt och en kopp kaffe upph\u00e4llt i favoritmuggen. Har man kollektivavtal s\u00e5 skall man jobba fyra timmar idag. Undrar om man har det som l\u00e5tsasarbetande?<\/p>\n

Fast det blir nog en halv dag h\u00e4r nere i lekstugan. Slutar nog vid halv sju och tar ledigt ikv\u00e4ll. Om man nu kan sluta och ta ledig fr\u00e5n n\u00e5gonting alls n\u00e4r man bara har ett l\u00e5tsasjobb?<\/p>\n

N\u00e4r det blev jobbigt f\u00f6r min farsa gick han alltid ut i verkstan eller \u00e5kte till Tr\u00e4f\u00f6r\u00e4dlingen. Jag \u00e4r precis lika dan med mitt kodande.\u00a0 Det \u00e4r fegt att inte v\u00e5ga befinna sig i den riktiga v\u00e4rlden n\u00e4r det blir k\u00e4mpigt. Fegt att inte v\u00e5ga komma ut ur garderoben som arbetsl\u00f6s p\u00e5 riktigt som alla andra arbetsl\u00f6sa Losbor. Men den enda g\u00e5ng jag \u00e4r n\u00e5gon \u00e4r d\u00e4r i mitt skapande. Det g\u00e4ller nu n\u00e4r jag skriver det h\u00e4r och n\u00e4r jag g\u00f6r min musik ocks\u00e5. Det \u00e4r koncentration ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r en massa andra tankar. Jag har alltid h\u00f6rt de d\u00e4r nedl\u00e5tande tankarna fr\u00e5n v\u00e4rlden utanf\u00f6r. Sett dem i handling. I \u00c5kes v\u00e4rld finns de inte. Japp lycklig d\u00e4r precis som jag tror farsan var det i sin verkstad.<\/p>\n

Men det \u00e4r gott att leva. Att jag har den k\u00e4nslan n\u00e4stan alltid \u00e4r jag tacksam f\u00f6r. Lite av en vinstlott det d\u00e4r. Sinnet. Ja och vr\u00e5ngheten. Att det inte \u00e4r klart f\u00f6rr\u00e4n det \u00e4r klart.<\/p>\n

Men nu skall jag l\u00e5tsasarbeta. Vandra in i \u00c5kes v\u00e4rld.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tjugoen grader kallt. Minus trettiosju \u00e4r det v\u00e4rsta vi varit med om som boendes h\u00e4r i skogen. S\u00e5 ingen st\u00f6rre fara. Temperaturm\u00e4ssigt. Men saker g\u00e5r s\u00f6nder n\u00e4r det \u00e4r s\u00e5 h\u00e4r kallt. Man h\u00e5ller tummarna f\u00f6r att det inte skall det. Att ta en “ledigkv\u00e4ll” mitt i veckan som jag g\u00f6r ig\u00e5r h\u00f6r inte till […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":true,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22750","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":40432,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40432","url_meta":{"origin":22750,"position":0},"title":"Nytt och gl\u00f6gg","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2021-11-28","format":false,"excerpt":"Photo by Aleksandr Slobodianyk on Pexels.com Jag ser en film om J. 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