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En m\u00e5ne som lyser med en glad gubbes hela intensitet h\u00e5ller mig vaken under natten. Tr\u00f6tt nu ist\u00e4llet. S\u00e5klart. Konstigt vore det v\u00e4l annars. Men jag f\u00e5r ocks\u00e5 en l\u00e5ng stund tillsammans\u00a0 med bl\u00e5ljuset i k\u00f6ket. Det \u00e4r som en str\u00e5lkastare var p\u00e5slagen bakom huset och det lyser upp mellan tr\u00e4den och sn\u00f6n det d\u00e4r ljuset, upp mot berget, s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt man kan se.\u00a0 N\u00e4r vi bodde i Ryggskog, d\u00e4r det inte fans s\u00e5 mycket samh\u00e4llsljus, kunde de d\u00e4r bl\u00e5ljusn\u00e4tterna under vintern var helt magiska p\u00e5 en niv\u00e5 som \u00e4r sv\u00e5r att upprepa h\u00e4r nere p\u00e5 samh\u00e4llet. Iskristaller, miljarder av dem i starkt m\u00e5nljus g\u00e5r helt enkelt inte av f\u00f6r hackor. F\u00f6rsta natten jag upplevde det gapade jag bara. Tyckte mig se b\u00e5de tomtar och \u00e4lvor och allt annat man kan t\u00e4nka sig d\u00e4r bland tr\u00e4dens skuggor.<\/p>\n
Magiskt!<\/p>\n
Men tr\u00f6tt nu d\u00e5.<\/p>\n
G\u00e5r d\u00e4rf\u00f6r och l\u00e4gger mig.<\/p>\n
Uppsala. Sonen blev evakuerad till sist. Huset t\u00f6mdes. Men flickv\u00e4nen kommer fr\u00e5n stan s\u00e5 sn\u00e4ll mamma st\u00e4llde upp. R\u00e4ddade katter och folk.\u00a0 Nu l\u00e4ser jag att man tydligen kan \u00e5terv\u00e4nda i trapphusen bredvid det det brann i. Men tragiskt. En person avled. En annan skadad. P\u00e5 Aftonbladet halkar en s\u00e5dan nyhet l\u00e5ngt ner i fl\u00f6det p\u00e5 en timme. Idol. Annat babbel, en-meningar tr\u00e4nger sig f\u00f6re. Det skall klickas. D\u00f6d s\u00e4ljer bara p\u00e5 v\u00e5ldsamhet och m\u00e4ngd.<\/p>\n
Men slut f\u00f6r idag, tack f\u00f6r idag allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
En m\u00e5ne som lyser med en glad gubbes hela intensitet h\u00e5ller mig vaken under natten. Tr\u00f6tt nu ist\u00e4llet. S\u00e5klart. Konstigt vore det v\u00e4l annars. Men jag f\u00e5r ocks\u00e5 en l\u00e5ng stund tillsammans\u00a0 med bl\u00e5ljuset i k\u00f6ket. Det \u00e4r som en str\u00e5lkastare var p\u00e5slagen bakom huset och det lyser upp mellan tr\u00e4den och sn\u00f6n det d\u00e4r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22540","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":15557,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=15557","url_meta":{"origin":22540,"position":0},"title":"ocoola gubbars natt","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2014-12-06","format":false,"excerpt":"Fullm\u00e5ne. 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